This blog post is not written to boast, teach, or declare attainment. I haven’t reached Nirvikalpa Samadhi yet — but what I share here is unfolding naturally in me. It is a journey, not a conclusion. I write this in simple, heartfelt language — straight from lived experience, not borrowed knowledge.
Evening Silence — Where It All Begins
I found that while sitting and gently placing attention on breathing in the evening, the breath gradually becomes still. With that, thoughts also almost stop. It’s amazing how strength of thoughts immediately reflect on strength of breath. Breath and thoughts linked together undeniably. When I become physically tired of sitting in a single posture, I shift my posture — and something mysterious happens.
Blissful energy rises from the lower chakras to the head through the backbone. It almost feels as if a lack of oxygen in the head is being compensated by this rising energy. When the head receives enough of it, the breath again slows down — almost stops — along with thought. This cycle of energy movement and mental stillness continues for hours, until I fall asleep sitting, usually late at night.
This process feels especially effective when done around 2-3 hours after a light meal. I began noticing this pattern ever since I started practicing Kriya Yoga breathing through the spine in the early morning — doing it for a long time, until my head feels heavy.
In that breathing, I only use Om — and the whole experience remains entirely smooth. There’s no jerkiness or force. Just flow.
Now, I feel that Nirvikalpa Samadhi might unfold on its own through this process — not by willpower, but by inner refinement.
Dhyan Chitra: The Inner Image That Moves
A new phenomenon has started arising. Some thoughts that emerge during meditation automatically transform into a dhyan chitra — a meditative image — at the Ajna Chakra. Sometimes Dhyan chitra is needed to bring to agya chakra by focusing on centre of eyebrows by little blinking both eyes and twitching both brows. When I try to consider even this image as not separate from me, not as an object, but as my own being, something subtle shifts.
The image moves backward — toward the Sahasrara Chakra point. This point isn’t exactly on the crown, but a little inside the head, just below the superficial point on top. It brings more bliss. Head pressure shifts from the front of the brain to the mid-region, offering noticeable relief. It feels like the energy rises through backbone and cleanly and gently drops to this Sahasrara point as compared to agya chakra point.
If I recognize this dhyan chitra, even at Sahasrara, as just another wave within my formless self, then it starts fading. What remains is a fleeting taste of pure, formless existence — a state beyond thought and image. But it is transient.
Soon, another thought comes. It again transforms into a dhyan chitra. If I do not attentively hold it at Sahasrara, it slips back to Ajna. The cycle continues: form arises, gets internalized, dissolves into formless, and re-arises. Now I understand why my dhyan chitra appeared shifting to agya chakra during my ten seconds glimpse kundalini awakening when I massaged my forehead and deliberately tried to revert to kingdom of mental formations. Also now I know why I intuitively used to rotate dhyan chitra in my head clockwise and anticlockwise in its periphery like a farmer ploughing a field. With this rotation dhyan chitra used to rest at sahasraar point itself for little or more time.
And yet, this to-and-fro oscillation like pendulum is not frustrating. It feels like nature refining itself.
From Fire to Fragrance — A Comparison
This current state is not like the full-blown, intense Kundalini awakening I once had, where self-realization dawned for ten seconds in a flash of overpowering energy. That experience was fire.
What’s happening now is fragrance — refined, passive, and non-dramatic. It’s not a storm but a breeze. It doesn’t shock the system; it gently guides the being.
Earlier, it was a sudden break into Savikalpa Samadhi through a powerful energy surge, temporarily burning through ego identity. That was brief, dramatic, and intense — hard to hold.
Now, the process feels stable, nervous-system-ready, and subtle. Kriya Yoga and inner stillness are dissolving form, not through force, but through tenderness. It feels like Nirvikalpa is slowly approaching, not as a peak to be reached, but as an absence to be realized.
What Happens When Bliss Fades?
As this state deepens, the most noticeable change is a reduction in craving. Craving used to arise from a strong sense of lack — from identity with the one who seeks. But now, the awareness itself is becoming self-satisfied. Even bliss is not being craved. That, to me, is contentment without object.
No mental addiction to movement. No hunger for more. Just a subtle resting in being.
This doesn’t mean I’m established in Nirvikalpa. Not yet. But the grip of form is weakening. Desire is thinning. The I-sense is becoming transparent.
Even when dhyan chitra forms, I watch it as a wave inside myself. It fades, and formlessness peeks through. But when I try to hold that too, it slips. And another wave arises. And the cycle of refining continues.
Inner Map: The Cycle in Simple Terms
• A thought arises.
• It transforms into a dhyan chitra at Ajna Chakra.
• I perceive it not as separate — it shifts to Sahasrara.
• Bliss grows, head pressure centers, awareness expands.
• Recognizing it as a wave in my formless self, it fades.
• Pure formless awareness glimpsed.
• A new thought arises, and the cycle restarts.
This cycle is not an obstacle. It’s grace polishing the mirror.
In Conclusion
I don’t claim anything final. Nirvikalpa hasn’t stabilized in me. But it’s near — not as a goal, but as an underlying silence that occasionally reveals itself.
This blog is just a sharing — one seeker’s simple unfolding. If you’re on a similar path, let this reassure you: enlightenment doesn’t always come as thunder. Sometimes, it descends like dusk — quiet, gradual, and full of stillness.
And in that stillness, everything unnecessary begins to fall away.
With folded hands and an open heart,A fellow traveler
Demystifying Kundalini 