Spiritual awakening is not a rigid path but an organic unfolding—one that refines itself through direct experience rather than structured effort. My journey has taken me through deep states of awareness, yet I remain grounded, flowing with nature rather than chasing an ultimate destination. Nirvikalpa Samadhi remains beyond my understanding, something I have not yet experienced, but I sense a subtle pull toward it. There is no restless seeking, only an openness to its possibility.
Kundalini: From Constriction to Expansion
I have observed that prana in the Muladhara Chakra remains constricted in darkness due to duality, which is why Kundalini is said to be “coiled.” As it moves up through the Sushumna, it expands toward non-duality and light, reaching infinite consciousness. This is often described as the uncoiling of the snake, rising with its hood open.
During this uncoiling, I touched full awakening. But rather than letting it consume me, I chose to maintain awareness—not allowing myself to lose control in the overwhelming expansion. I realized that this experience is part of the cosmic dance, but I must stay rooted in awareness through Sharirvigyan Darshan (awareness through the body). This understanding acts as a “consciousness shock absorber,” ensuring that my awareness remains balanced, does not slip into unconscious tendencies and even don’t crave for unbound or limitless consciousness of awakening. For me, awareness or knowledge means spontaneous expression of meditation image.
Grounding: Balancing Expansion and Stability
Grounding is essential in this process, but I have observed that no grounding method works effectively in isolation. Whether it’s deep meditation, worldly activities, or even the Panchamakara practices, grounding must be integrated with awareness. For example if panchmakara practice is not smoothed out means if its energy isn’t transferred to meditation image through sharirvigyan darshan, then it pushes one into unconscious or non awareness tendency that goes on amplifying like a cascade of events with never ending chain of action and its fruit. An action produces its fruit, that fruit further produces action, that action further produces fruit and so on like an endless chain. If awareness is tied with panchmakara practice then it goes on amplifying instead of amplification of ignorance as in former case. I will further simplify it further later elsewhere.
I further noticed something interesting—Panchamakara causes an immediate, deep grounding effect. However, it also carries a hidden feeling of committing sin even when accompanied with sharirvigyan darshan, which creates a karmic impression. While its effects are powerful at that time, the conditioning of the mind ensures that even when the fruit of it is experienced later, the same heightened awareness remains. I performed an intellectual experiment. I once undertook a sinful panchmakara. Along with it I contemplated on sharirvigyan darshan so powerfully that my meditation image was dancing like live outside. Very quickly, in days I got its resultant fruit. How I recognised that? My meditation image became so strong as if dancing live outside and I remembered that sinful panchmakara very lively. Unbounded Awareness went multiplying further with that single event like the chain reaction of a nuclear weapon as told above. Karma and its fruit along with circumstances and mentally accompanying them tend to live together. As much strong is the awareness with this type of karma-grounding that much quickly it yields the resultant fruit because God or nature wants to clear away karmic debris that much fast to liberate one fascinated by his urge for quick knowledge or salvation.
On the other hand, grounding through ordinary worldly activities is gentler and carries no sense of sin, making it feel more effortless. However panchmakara gives amazing results. That’s why it’s said don’t practice panchmakara without proper knowledge or guru’s company otherwise instead of raising up it can also pull down rapidly. Both types of grounding methods work, but the key is maintaining awareness so that grounding does not lead to unconscious tendencies.
Karma: A Refining Process, Not a Bondage
I have observed that karmic fruition does not bind me further—it refines my awareness instead. As karma unfolds, my inner stability increases rather than decreases. This is because I want to be aware during every karma with help of sharirvigyan darshan. Even when difficult situations out of some previous karma arise, I experience an interesting paradox: the awareness I had during past elevated states while doing those karma remains intact even in those moments. This is due to karma-fruit coliving.
Another key observation is that during exhaustion or illness or old age, karmic formations naturally reduce due to inability to work. In such times, I naturally prefer passive meditation rather than active practices of karma yoga. It feels as if taking advantage of rest the body system is updating itself, making the whole process smoother.
Beyond Seeking: Flowing With Nature
At this present stage, my sadhana is mostly effortless—there is no rigid discipline, just a natural flow. Although twice a day yoga is like eternal routine. If an further opportunity arises for structured practices like Kriya Yoga, I take it, but I do not force it. There is no compulsion to practice or avoid anything—it all happens as time and priorities allow.
I also see no separation between spiritual and worldly life. Just like the dual nature of matter (wave and particle), both aspects exist simultaneously. One does not contradict the other—they simply shift fluidly based on the moment or requirement.
Inner Intuition as the Guide
Now, external guidance is no longer a necessity—inner intuition has taken its place. However, when it comes to Nirvikalpa Samadhi, I still seek intellectual clarity, as it remains beyond my experience. I do not claim to have achieved it, nor do I chase it. There is only a subtle seeking—an openness to its possibility rather than a restless pursuit.
Conclusion: The Journey Never Ends
The unfolding of awareness has no final destination. Every phase brings new refinements, deeper insights, and greater stability. Even the idea of “progress” dissolves, because the unfolding itself is the destination.
Rather than resisting or forcing, I now allow life to unfold naturally. Awareness deepens effortlessly when one flows with it rather than against it.
Demystifying Kundalini 