For years, my spiritual journey has been shaped by deep contemplation, structured meditation, and the real-time application of awareness in daily life. The most profound experiences, however, have not come from withdrawing from the world but from integrating awareness within the flow of worldly responsibilities.
One of the key insights I’ve gained is that Sharir Vigyan Darshan (contemplation of the body) can act as a direct entry point into a state of relaxation and clarity, even amidst chaos. A single, instant gaze on the body is enough to trigger a gasp followed by slow breathing, bringing momentary relief. While this is not Kevala Kumbhaka (breathless state), it is a spontaneous shift in breath and energy, offering a glimpse of balance in the middle of life’s rush.
The Role of Lifestyle in Sustaining Awareness
I have realized that a sattvik, slow-paced lifestyle naturally supports Sharir Vigyan Darshan—allowing contemplation to remain effortless and continuous. On the other hand, a fast-paced, rajasic, or tamasic lifestyle makes it harder to sustain awareness, requiring deliberate effort to return to real-time contemplation.
However, rather than waiting for ideal conditions, I prefer to put in the effort at every moment, regardless of the chaos, while ensuring that worldly responsibilities remain undisturbed. But this isn’t always so. Many times as much worldly chaos is there that much easy and uplifting and blissful the sitting meditation session becomes. However one prerequisite is that the sharirvigyan darshan contemplation should fit properly and deeply inside the worldly chaos. Means it should look if one is doing blissful and pleasurable meditation while deeply indulged in the worldly chaos. It seems best possible only with the sharirvigyan darshan. This approach is not about withdrawing but about integrating awareness within action itself.
The Evolution from Structured Meditation to Spontaneous Awareness
In the past, I maintained structured meditation practices to cultivate stability. Over time, this meditation practice naturally extended into real-time awareness, where contemplation is not separate from daily life.
This shift taught me that:
Structured meditation provides the foundation, deepening clarity and stillness.
Real-time awareness ensures that these meditative insights do not remain confined to practice sessions but become a way of being.
Over time, structured meditation and real-time contemplation start complementing each other, creating a seamless cycle where neither is forced.
Even though my practice has evolved, I have not yet reached the stage where real-time awareness is completely effortless. There are still moments where conscious engagement is required to sustain it. However, the effort needed has gradually decreased with time, making contemplation more natural. However this effort is like a blissful play, not like a boring burden. Yes, one should have atleast minimum threshold of energy in body to properly sustain it.
A Journey Still Unfolding
Despite glimpsing higher states, including Savikalpa Samadhi, I have not yet experienced Nirvikalpa Samadhi—the state of complete dissolution. I also recognize that Kevala Kumbhaka, though experienced for hours, still requires deeper refinement. To invite it more naturally, I now emphasize deep spinal breathing in my Kriya practice, ensuring that energy work continues as before but with more attention to breath.
At this point, I seek a grounded normalcy with nondual awareness, where the balance between worldly life and deeper states of realization is not an ongoing struggle but a natural rhythm. The goal is not to escape into transcendence but to sustain a stable, awakened presence while fully engaged with life.
The Takeaway
From my experience, one truth has become clear:
Spiritual growth is not about isolating meditation from life but allowing both to complement each other.
Real-time awareness can be developed, even amidst chaos, but requires consistent practice.
A sattvik lifestyle naturally supports awareness, but effort is still required in rajasic or tamasic conditions.
Structured meditation provides depth, while real-time contemplation ensures integration.
Even momentary glimpses of awareness accumulate over time, leading to constant level type awareness and subsequently more permanent inner transformation.
I am still exploring, refining, and learning. My practice is not yet perfect, but the path is clear: Balance between structured meditation and real-time awareness is the key to sustaining both spiritual depth and worldly engagement.
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