Spiritual progress is not about withdrawing completely or being fully immersed in the world—it’s about maintaining a subtle connection to meditative awareness in all states. My journey has shown me that true awareness is not just attention but meditative attention—always centered, even faintly, on the meditation image.
At first, I needed active effort to keep this awareness intact, especially in worldly activities. Without it, energy would disperse into countless distractions. But I discovered a simple and effective method—Sharirvigyan Darshan (hologram based awareness of the body’s inner sensations). By intermittently engaging with it, I could prevent unlimited dispersion of energy while still living a full life. Over time, this practice evolved, requiring less effort but delivering the same effect.
However, I also realized that grounding alone is not enough. If done without awareness, it just leads to unconscious engagement with the world. The key is awareness with a meditative anchor—ensuring that the meditation image, even if dim, never fully disappears.
Shifts in Awareness and Meditation Image
As my practice refined, I noticed the meditation image remained the same, but its clarity and intensity fluctuated. During deep meditation, it became bright and sharp, while in worldly distractions, it dimmed. Instead of forcing control, I learned that balance is more effective than strain. Too much effort creates stress, while a gentle, self-correcting awareness keeps everything aligned naturally.
External factors like a less stressful environment help maintain this balance, but they don’t define it. Ultimately, regulation comes from within. When fluctuations occur, I draw awareness back using Sharirvigyan Darshan, preventing unnecessary drift without forcing anything.
Drifting Toward Nirvikalpa Samadhi
Now, I find myself passively drifting toward Nirvikalpa Samadhi. The process is no longer about effort; it unfolds naturally. Sharirvigyan Darshan is still needed at times, but far less than before. External influences can slow down the drift, but they don’t disrupt the direction. I handle these slowdowns without struggle, keeping awareness steady.
I have not yet reached a fully irreversible state, but I sense that stabilization is happening. My experience shows that spiritual development is like nature itself—constantly evolving without force. There are no fixed milestones, only a continuous unfolding.
The Essence of My Journey
Meditative awareness aka pin pointed awareness is the only real awareness—everything else is dispersion. Awareness can be of unlimited types like unlimited number of objects and processes like gross awareness, subtle awareness, environmental awareness, social awareness, shunya awareness or Brahm or void awareness etc. But I think meditative awareness with help of meditation image is the best or real. This is so because it’s almost impossible to dissolve all worldly thoughts together or one by one into infinity. But it’s quite easy to unite Meditation image or pin pointed awareness with or dissolve into infinity with advanced contemplation. As the meditation image is already connected to everything of one’s life, due to this everything is united together with Brahman infinity means awakening glimpse happens.
Effort at the start is necessary, but over time, awareness refines itself, needing less intervention.
Fluctuations happen, but balance prevents regression.
Nirvikalpa Samadhi is approaching passively, not by force, but by allowing the process to unfold naturally.
I don’t claim to have achieved everything, but I see the direction clearly. The journey is effortless now, yet always evolving. Development is everywhere in nature, and so it is in my path.
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