From Sharirvigyan Darshan to Quantum Darshan
After my first awakening experience during adolescence, many years passed before I experienced another glimpse of awakening. During those years, my understanding of spirituality gradually matured through contemplation and direct observation.
One of the most important developments was what I later called Sharirvigyan Darshan. Through this contemplation, I began to see the body’s cells not as lifeless components serving a central self, but as equal participants within a larger living system. This simple shift had a profound effect on the mind. The sense of being a separate controller standing above everything else gradually weakened.
Over time, this contemplation naturally expanded beyond the body itself. If body cells could be viewed as equal participants in existence, why stop there? This question eventually led me toward what I later called Quantum Darshan.
Quantum Darshan was never intended as a scientific theory. Its purpose was contemplative rather than scientific. I did not require scientific proof for it to be useful. In spiritual practice, effectiveness is often more important than verification. A contemplative framework only needs enough plausibility for the mind to engage with it deeply.
From ordinary observation and intuitive reasoning, I felt that existence displayed continuity from the smallest to the largest scales. Whether science ultimately agrees or disagrees was secondary. What mattered was that the contemplation reduced separation and expanded awareness.
Why Spiritual Effectiveness Matters More Than Scientific Proof
Many contemplative methods throughout history have operated in this manner. Their value lies not in laboratory confirmation but in their transformative effect upon consciousness.
For me, the practical question became simple.
Does a contemplation reduce separation?
Does it increase mindfulness?
Does it help dissolve judgment?
Does it make awakening more accessible?
If the answer is yes, then the contemplation has value regardless of scientific debates.
This was how I approached Quantum Darshan. The contemplation encouraged a sense of equality throughout existence. Human beings, body cells, thoughts, sensations, objects, and the countless expressions of reality could all be viewed as participating within the same existence.
The contemplation did not attempt to prove anything scientifically. Instead, it served as a practical support for expanding awareness and reducing the sense of isolation.
Nondual Contemplation as a Support for Mindfulness
Over time, I also discovered that nondual contemplation and mindfulness support one another.
During awakening itself, there is no need to think, “I am everything” or “I am everywhere.” The experience speaks for itself. Everything already appears equal and interconnected.
However, ordinary life is different. Mindfulness does not always remain equally strong. Daily activity can weaken it.
Whenever mindfulness diminished, I often found it helpful to contemplate, “Whatever exists, I am already therein.” Such contemplations, helped by the nondual philosophies described above, naturally replenished mindfulness and reduced the sense of separation.
What happens is that clinging to any specific sensation or thought with attachment or aversion produces a block to mindfulness. In my experience, resistance to mindfulness appears to be a natural safety response of both the mind and the body. Judgment tends to pull a person away from the deeper self by creating division, preference, and separation. So, when judgment is applied to one thought, the mind resists all thoughts, thinking that this will further push it away from pure awareness.
Although mindfulness reduces this process of judgment, the mind does not believe it in the beginning. It thinks that if judgment of one thought made it fall down, what will happen if the full mind tends to be judged? It may be that the mind unconsciously fears that if even one judgment is made, hundreds can also be judged. Since the mind is accustomed to maintaining its familiar patterns, it tries to avoid mindfulness in the very beginning.
However, when a person becomes genuinely nonjudgmental toward even a single thought, a small movement toward the fuller self takes place. The mind then experiences a subtle benefit from this reduction in conflict and separation. Motivated by this, it gradually becomes willing to include other thoughts, sensations, and experiences as well. One acceptance encourages another. The field of awareness slowly expands, collecting more and more of what was previously rejected. In this way, mindfulness grows naturally, progressing from acceptance of a single thought toward increasing inclusiveness, fullness, and ultimately the realization of the full self.
Looking back, the trigger for my mindfulness during adolescence appears to have been the mental image of Devrani. For some reason, the mind remained naturally nonjudgmental toward that image. There was neither strong rejection nor deliberate effort to sustain it. Because the image was allowed to remain as it was, without judgment, it gradually encouraged the same nonjudgmental attitude toward other thoughts, sensations, memories, and experiences. In this way, mindfulness continued to grow naturally and eventually culminated in my first awakening experience.
In the case of my second awakening, the trigger was different. There, the central meditation image was that of Dadaguru. Unlike the first case, this image was deliberately nourished through spiritual practice and gradually became vivid, alive, and powerful within awareness. It gathered attention, reduced mental fragmentation, and helped expand mindfulness. Yet, as in the first awakening, the final awakened state itself was not centered on any particular image. The image functioned as a trigger and doorway, but during the awakening experience everything appeared equal within a vast, nonjudgmental, and blissful field of awareness.
Earlier in my adolescence, I practiced nondual contemplation passively and continuously, mainly through studying science deeply enough to generate a reduction in the sense of personal doership and ego. However, the effectiveness of such contemplation increased significantly later through the more active philosophical frameworks of Sharirvigyan Darshan and, subsequently, Quantum Darshan. These frameworks gave practical depth and structure to nondual thinking and helped make mindfulness more stable and sustainable. In my view, the effectiveness of Sharirvigyan Darshan was demonstrated by its role in preparing the ground for my second awakening. The effectiveness of Quantum Darshan itself also appears to be at least partially supported, since both contemplative frameworks seem closely correlated and contributed to the same overall movement toward greater mindfulness, nonduality, and awakening.
In this way, I came to view mindfulness and nondual contemplation not as competing methods but as complementary supports. Nondual contemplation helps establish mindfulness, and mindfulness naturally moves toward awakening.
The Deliberate Cultivation of a Meditation Image
Unlike my first awakening, which arose spontaneously, my second awakening involved deliberate spiritual practice.
This practice centered around a meditation image. Over time, the image became increasingly vivid, alive, and attractive within awareness. Yet even then, the process differed from ordinary concentration techniques. It was more of technical advanced tantric yoa.
But in earlier years before first awakening, I was not merely forcing attention upon a single object. Many images, memories, impressions, and forms continued to exist within awareness. They appeared naturally and often possessed equal brightness.
Among these images, two stood out more strongly than the others. One was associated with Devrani, while the other was associated with Dadaguru. These appeared especially bright and vivid within the mind. Yet even these were not deliberately forced into existence. They simply appeared naturally.
The meditation image that eventually became central was not sustained through strain or effort. It gradually developed through attraction, devotion, and repeated presence. As the image matured, it seemed increasingly alive.
Kundalini and the Living Meditation Image
My understanding eventually became that a Kundalini image is essentially a meditation image strengthened by Kundalini Shakti residing at the base.
As the tantra-yoga assisted meditation image grew stronger, more and more mental energy flowed toward it. This produced an unexpected effect.
Because so much energy was absorbed by the image, less energy remained available for judgment, comparison, analysis, and mental fragmentation.
The mind naturally became quieter.
Mindfulness appeared without deliberate effort.
Nonduality appeared without deliberate effort.
I did not need to continuously repeat philosophical ideas.
The image itself performed much of the work.
Its presence gradually gathered the mind into a more unified condition.
Interestingly, whenever I try to become nondual or mindful, the meditation image naturally expresses itself and lingers in the mind. It often appears without deliberate effort, as if it is closely connected with the movement toward mindfulness itself. From my personal experience, this provides psychological evidence that yoga and mindfulness are not entirely separate processes but may be different expressions of the same underlying movement of consciousness. The meditation image seems to support mindfulness, while mindfulness naturally nourishes the meditation image. As a result, both appear to work together toward greater inclusiveness, reduced judgment, and a deeper awareness of the self. Although their methods may differ, their essential direction and effect often seem to be the same.
How the Second Awakening Emerged
Eventually, this process culminated in a second awakening experience during waking consciousness.
The awakening itself lasted approximately ten seconds, much like the first one.
Before the awakening, the meditation image functioned as a powerful focal point. It gathered attention, energy, and awareness. In this sense, it acted as a doorway.
However, once the awakening actually occurred, something important happened.
The special status of the meditation image disappeared.
Everything became equal.
The image remained present, but it no longer occupied a privileged position.
Thoughts, sensations, memories, objects, inner experiences, and outer experiences all appeared within the same field.
The doorway dissolved into the whole.
The Equality of All Appearances
One of the most remarkable similarities between my two awakening experiences was the complete equality of all appearances.
During awakening, there was no central object.
There was no special image.
There was no preferred experience.
Everything stood on equal ground.
In my first awakening, natural scenes appeared first and human forms appeared later.
In my second awakening, a meditation image served as the trigger.
Yet in both cases, the awakened state itself was characterized by equality.
The trigger and the awakening were not the same thing.
The trigger helped initiate the transition.
The awakening itself transcended the trigger.
Infinite Fullness and Infinite Void
As in my first awakening, the second awakening involved a profound sense of fullness.
This fullness was not created merely by thoughts and sensations.
Instead, awareness seemed connected to an infinite void.
Paradoxically, the void did not feel empty.
It felt limitless.
Because it was limitless, awareness felt completely full.
Thoughts and perceptions appeared like waves moving within an infinite ocean.
The mind contained everything while remaining connected to something beyond all limits.
This produced a state of extraordinary bliss and completeness.
The Common Essence of Both Awakenings
Although the methods differed, the essential nature of both awakenings was remarkably similar.
The first awakening emerged from natural mindfulness, inclusiveness, curiosity, and openness during adolescence.
The second awakening emerged through deliberate practice, Kundalini energy, and a living meditation image.
Yet both culminated in the same fundamental qualities.
Everything became equal.
Judgment disappeared.
Separation weakened.
Mind and world appeared together.
Fullness merged with infinite void.
Bliss became overwhelming.
For a brief period lasting about ten seconds, reality revealed itself as a single, all-inclusive field of awareness.
Looking back, I do not see Sharirvigyan Darshan, Quantum Darshan, mindfulness, nondual contemplation, Kundalini practice, and awakening as separate subjects. They appear as different expressions of the same movement toward greater inclusiveness. As awareness becomes increasingly full, separation decreases. As separation decreases, the infinite becomes more accessible. And when fullness finally extends into the limitless void, awakening reveals itself directly.
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