When Darkness Turns Peaceful: The Quiet Maturity of Dhyāna

Today, I felt the Kundalini stationed at the navel chakra. I rose a little late, around 6 a.m., and practiced spinal breathing, my Guru-given poses and pranayama, along with some self-devised postures and a top-to-bottom chakra meditation—without holding the breath as daily routine. Soon, enough yogic pressure built up to launch dhyāna.

I sat in vajrāsana, keeping my eyes turned upward toward the eyebrow center, and even beyond—straight up toward the unlimited height of Ekārṇava. The breath gradually became regular and calm, though not completely suspended as on previous days.

The śūnya dhyāna was deep, with occasional flashes of my Guru Nārāyaṇa’s image—alive and radiant. Guru Tattva is not actually outside but within. When one turns inward, it naturally emerges from inside. It is the intermittently appearing image in the mind during dhyāna that keeps the mind from wandering—by focusing it upon itself until it finally dissolves into Brahman. In a way, it acts like a cargo vehicle of the mental world, carrying awareness directly toward Brahman.

That is why many religions give prime importance to the Guru. They design their lifestyles to encourage introversion and dhyāna, allowing a stable Guru-image to form within the mind itself. However, for this process to become truly effective, there must be a suitable person embodying divine qualities—only then can he or she become a true Guru. In the absence of such a living master, divine idols may serve as substitutes, though they cannot compare to a living Guru, who is like an animated idol of God, and therefore far more transformative.

The Guru principle is revered in every sect and religion, but it seems that Sikhism understands the essence of Guru Tattva most profoundly.

I felt that just as Kundalini energy nourishes the chakras within the body, it also nourishes the chakras beyond the body, extending infinitely into śūnya. The same Kundalini that maintains physical vitality also helps transcend the body, merging into the endless expanse of Ekārṇava śūnya.

Today, I gave priority to the nourishment of śūnya rather than to any specific chakra. Still, the intermediate chakras seemed to receive their share of energy naturally whenever it was directed upward toward Brahman. I could sense the energy supporting the area behind the navel chakra along the spine, while the other chakras felt calm and balanced—not blissfully inflamed like the navel center.

Yesterday, my energy had settled at the Anāhata chakra. It had descended gradually—from Sahasrāra downward—each day resting at the next lower chakra. A day earlier, I had also conserved Mūlādhāra energy, which perhaps rose swiftly to the navel. This rapid movement might be due to the role of descending energy; although all energies rise from Mūlādhāra, the descending current seems to return from Sahasrāra like the monsoon rains returning from the mountains. When the forward and returning monsoons (the western disturbance rains) meet over an area, they bring catastrophic rainfall. Similarly, when descending and ascending energies meet at a chakra, they cause its profound activation, often producing a mental upheaval that can be difficult to control at times although quantum darshan helps in it.

In any case, śūnya dhyāna was peaceful. Later, I tried focusing directly on the navel chakra to give it an extra boost. The breath then turned irregular, as if adjusting itself to channel energy into the navel center. When I shifted my focus back to the Ājñā chakra, the breath again became calm. After a few such cycles, I gently ended my dhyāna and stood up to begin my morning routine.

There comes a time in meditation when bliss fades, and only silent awareness remains. I am experiencing this now—no bliss, but a completely still and neutral space. I can’t even call it darkness, because darkness usually frightens or repels one; yet I feel the exact opposite. I find perfect peace there, a deep relief from the agitation of breathing. At first, this may seem like something is lost—but in truth, it marks the maturity of dhyāna.

Earlier, the mind sought experiences—light, warmth, or waves of joy. Darkness felt empty and unsettling. But when the storms of breath and thought finally rest, perception changes. The same darkness no longer threatens; it simply is. Nothing outside has changed—only the seer has.

This is the quiet flowering of awareness: peace without excitement, clarity without effort. Even without inner light or sensation, a subtle luminosity begins to shine—the light of knowing itself.

When this awareness deepens, life feels transparent and gentle. Speech, work, and movement unfold within the same still space that once appeared only in meditation. There is no need to hold awareness—it holds itself. I am still waiting for that stage to blossom within me.

In this simplicity lies the true radiance of dhyāna: not a blaze of visions, but a calm seeing that never leaves, even in the heart of darkness.

The Fiery Grace of the Goddess Within

A Morning of Dhyana and the Awakening of the Red Shakti

In spiritual practice, every dawn brings a new mystery. Sometimes the journey unfolds gently — like a soft sunrise — and sometimes it roars like a divine storm within. This morning’s sadhana revealed one such fierce and purifying play of Shakti — a meeting with the Red Goddess who dwells in the Vishuddhi Chakra, cleansing and transforming with fiery grace.

The Dawn of Practice

Today, I rose early at 4:30 a.m., drawn by the quiet pull of dawn. My sadhana began with spinal kriya breathing, followed by Guru-given light postures and pranayama. Then came chakra meditation — top to down — and finally, a few self-learned postures that felt natural in the moment.
By around 6 a.m., the body was prepared, the breath steady, and the awareness ready for dhyana.

Breath at the Ajna — The Seat of Silent Fire

I sat first in Vajrasana. The breath gradually calmed and anchored itself at the Ajna Chakra, mostly at its back side though still connected to the front. The sensation there was unique — a broad, dull, yet blissful inflammation, carrying a subtle sexual tone.

It felt as though that area alone was breathing, consuming the prana, while the rest of the body remained still and breathless. With each inward pulse, it seemed to feed on the breath, performing some mysterious, vital work known only to itself.

My face had turned slightly upward, and the neck tilted back just enough to make my inner gaze face infinite space above. Though the tilt wasn’t physically great, the awareness itself had turned upward in surrender to infinity.
The mind was silent. The dhyana deepened.

The Shift and the Hunger of Vishuddhi

After some time, I brought my head slightly down, eyes closed, gaze fixed in a gentle squint at the eyebrow centre. The meditative current continued unbroken. I occasionally scanned all chakras — each felt fresh and content — all except the Ajna, which alone still hungered for breath.

I let it feed as it wished until, after a while, awareness shifted to the throat region, where the oral and nasal passages meet the back wall. That area, too, began consuming breath, drawing pranic nourishment like a thirsty desert drinking rain.

Then the current descended into the Vishuddhi Chakra. There, the energy found the greatest hunger — something was out of order. The Shakti refused to move further; she had work to do there. She lingered — healing, transforming, purifying.

The Vision of the Red Goddess

As the process intensified, the sexual-type bliss grew stronger. Suddenly, a vivid image of the Goddess appeared within the throat region — fierce and radiant.
She wore red garments, her many hands adorned with red bangles, worn along most of the length of her forearms, clashing and ringing as she struck at tiny rascals — perhaps microorganisms — symbols of impurities. Her lion roared beside her, aiding her divine battle.

Her face was fearsome, glowing with red anger, lips painted crimson, thirsting to devour the darkness. Her long, dishevelled hair flew in all directions as she fought relentlessly. Her terrifying feminine roar in high pitch was heart shaking.

Then the sexual energy from the Muladhara rose to support her — surging upward, fueling her divine rage and purpose. The scene grew ever more intense — the Shakti rising, transforming, conquering.

When I visualized the same Goddess at the Muladhara, she rose in even greater ferocity, bursting upward through the spine. The body, caught in this inner battle, grew exhausted. Dhyana slowly came to its natural end.

A Symbolic Offering

As the awareness returned outward, I found myself instinctively walking to the chemist’s shop and buying Betadine gargle — as if to offer a worldly weapon to the Goddess, aiding her fight within me.
Perhaps she was cleansing not only the spiritual but also the physical battlefield.

Thus ended today’s dhyana — a fierce yet purifying encounter with the Red Goddess of the Throat, the living embodiment of transformation and sacred fire.
Each such meditation reveals that the Divine Feminine is not distant or abstract — she is alive within, tirelessly healing, balancing, and guiding the evolution of consciousness.

A New Beginning: Exploring Kundalini Through Storytelling

Hi friends,

For a long time, Demystifying Kundalini has been a space for deep insights, serious reflections, and explorations into the mysteries of consciousness. Through direct experiences, analysis, and discussion, we have climbed a peak of understanding—where knowledge has sharpened like a mountain summit.

But what happens after reaching a peak? A true seeker knows that the journey doesn’t end there. The next phase is just as crucial: the slow descent, the gathering of energy, and the preparation for the next ascent.

Now, instead of only discussing Kundalini in its abstract and conceptual form, it’s time to experience it through storytelling—a medium that can convey depth, emotion, and transformation in a way pure intellectual discussion cannot.

Introducing ‘A Cosmic Transfer Order’

This is the first chapter of a new allegorical story series on Demystifying Kundalini, blending elements of science fiction with profound spiritual insights. It follows a protagonist—who is none other than myself—on an unexpected interplanetary journey. But beneath this cosmic adventure lies something deeper: the exploration of Kundalini, consciousness, and the process of awakening.

Just as Kundalini rises and falls in waves, this story mirrors the practical journey of energy management—diving down, consolidating, and preparing for the next transcendental leap.

I invite you to immerse yourself in this journey, not just as a reader, but as a participant in the unfolding of energy, awareness, and transformation.

Let’s begin.

Part 1: Departure from Earth and Settling on the Moon

A Cosmic Transfer Order

It was an ordinary morning on Earth—until the message arrived.

Dr. Aryan Verma, a veterinarian with a calm demeanor and an inquisitive mind, was sipping his usual cup of masala chai when his holo-screen blinked with an urgent notification. The government seal flashed momentarily before a deep robotic voice announced:

“Dr. Aryan Verma, your interplanetary transfer order has been approved. Report to the Lunar Immigration Terminal within 30 days. You are now assigned as the chief veterinarian of Chandravaanshi Lunar Colony.”

Aryan stared at the screen, his mind racing.

“The Moon? Why me?”

He had expected his next assignment to be in some remote biosphere on Earth, tending to genetically modified cattle or hybrid species designed for extreme climates. But the Moon? That was something else entirely.

His wife, Meera, looked up from across the dining table, sensing his hesitation.

“What is it?” she asked, placing her cup down.

Aryan turned the screen toward her. She read the notification twice before meeting his gaze. There was a flicker of worry in her eyes, but also an unspoken excitement.

Their son, Ansh, a 13-year-old obsessed with interstellar travel, practically jumped out of his chair.

“Are we seriously moving to the Moon? That’s so cool! My friends are going to be so jealous.”

His daughter, Avni, a third-year computer science student, was more skeptical.

“The Moon? But I just started working on an AI project with my team! What about my studies?”

Aryan exhaled deeply. The decision wasn’t in his hands anymore. The transfer order wasn’t a request—it was a directive. A high-paying, once-in-a-lifetime government opportunity, but also a drastic uprooting of their Earthly life.

Still, a subtle pull stirred within him—an unexplained inner knowing that this move was not just about a career shift but something much greater.

Meera saw the shift in his expression and gently asked, “Are you ready for this?”

Aryan didn’t answer immediately. He looked past the transparent walls of their apartment, where the artificial sky of the domed megacity shimmered above.

For years, he had worked on Earth, but something in him had always sought more—a deeper meaning beyond the routines of life. Could this be the universe’s way of pushing him toward it?

His heart steadied. A new world awaited.

He turned back to his family and smiled.

“Let’s go to the Moon.”

The Call to Adventure Begins

With only a month to prepare, the Verma family began the chaotic yet exhilarating process of selling assets, saying goodbye, and getting interstellar clearance. Ansh couldn’t stop talking about zero gravity, while Avni still wrestled with doubts about her future.

For Aryan, a sense of destiny loomed in the air.

Little did he know, this journey wasn’t just about relocating to another planet—it was about unlocking the mysteries of the cosmos and the vast universe within himself.

His real awakening had just begun.