Kundalini shy away from meeting her beloved Shiva like a woman filled with shame, and being unmarried for innumerable ages and births, wanders like crazy in her chaotic pursuit
Friends, in the previous post, I was referring to Shiva Purana to tell that Parvati was shying back while meeting Shiva, but was also smiling with joy. Actually the same happens with Kundalini or the living entity. As Kundalini begins to unite with Shiva, she withdraws in panic and shyness. Although she enjoys it too much, and later she regrets why she backed out. This is the momentary awakening of Kundalini possibly that happened to me, by the grace of Shiva and by the grace of Guru. Now I don’t even remember that experience. So it seems to me that something had happened and I was completely open at that time. It is quite possible that this type of Kundalini story has been written in the form of this Shiva story or Shiva Katha. Even if it is not written, it does not matter, because as happens in the gross world, so happens in the subtle world also. No difference. “Yatpinde Tatbrahmande” in Sanskrit. When Shiva consumed Kamadeva, he himself disappeared. This made Parvati extremely distraught with separation. All the time she was lost in the remembrance of Shiva. She could not find any joy anywhere. Her life had become dull. Seeing her condition, Parvatraj or Mountain king Himachal also became sad. He lovingly consoled his daughter Parvati by placing her on his lap. One day Narada Muni came to meet Parvati and explained to Parvati that she had not destroyed her ego, that is why Shiva disappeared. Then told her that Shiva wants to destroy her ego for her good, that is why he had turned away from her. Narada asked Parvati to do penance to end her ego. When Parvati asked for a mantra from Narada for penance, Narada gave her the Shiva Panchakshara mantra. It is “Om Namah Shivaya” a famous mantra.
Revelation of the above allegorical or metaphoric story
This phenomenon is visible in many love affairs. Once there is a mental sexual relationship, then there is an immense attraction towards each other. The man constantly tests his girlfriend. He wants to see her crazy in his love. He wants to see her completely loyal and devoted to him. Many restrained men even want the woman to propose him herself and even bring her doli (bride’s chariot) of her marriage to his house on her own. This is not a joke, it is a psychological reality. It is inspired by Kundalini. If this is not the case, they do not even refrain from abandoning the woman. A highly spiritual man like Shiva, even after coming very close to the woman, restrains himself and saves himself from wrongdoing. They do not even talk to the woman and take their own separate path in life. It is like the disappearance of Shiva. Due to this, the woman suffers like a fish without water in the memory of the lover. The same happened with Parvati too. The man also settles her memory in his mind and gets engaged in his work. It is just like Shiva going into a meditative state. Most of the men already appear devoid of ego like Shiva. In most of the cases, only the woman has the ego of form, quality and property. I’m not showing gender discrimination here. I’m only showing the natural truth. Exceptions are everywhere, somewhere more, somewhere less. For this reason the man goes away from her, because where is the union of fire and water. Later on, when the ego of a woman is destroyed by the blows of worldliness, then she meets that loving man again by chance. However, most of the women have settled their own separate household. Unlike Parvati waiting for Shiva, it is rare that she keeps on waiting for her lover throughout her life. Still, a woman receives emotional benefits from her true lover man as a sister, friend, etc., or through any humane relationship. The mixed mental power of both of lovers is automatically passed on to their children, either they marry or not. This is the cosmic union of Shiva-Parvati, and the birth of Lord Kartikeya in the form of psychic power.
Sahasrar is the place where the Ganges descends in the Himalayas
Parvati meditates at the same place where she had a courtship with Shiva. That place is the Sahasrara Chakra itself. That’s the place of Kundalini awakening. The verse “Ganga of love” is so popular. In fact, the energy that ascends through the sushumna in the back with love is the Ganges of love. Kundalini mounted on the Sahasrara Chakra, and began to experience the bliss of Advaita. It has been written in such a way that Parvati started doing penance in Sahasrar. Tapas means meditation of Kundalini in Sahasrar. This is also the meditation of Shiva, because in Sahasrar Shiva definitely comes to meet Kundalini later or sooner, which means Kundalini awakening definitely takes later or sooner. Tapas done for kundalini meditation is grossly called as tapas done for meditation of Shiva, because ultimately Kundalini is leading to Shiva only. This again proves the theme of this blog that Kundalini meditation is everything or one and all. penance is done only for meditation. Therefore, tapas can also be called dhyana yoga or kundalini yoga. If tapas or austerity does not lead to meditation, then it is not austerity, it is just a show. Her father Himachal and mother Maneka reach there with their sons and famous mountains to persuade their daughter and stop her from penance. They are saddened by her suffering. They tell her that the recluse Shiva, who consumed Kamadeva, will not come to meet her. Anyway, God doesn’t care about anyone. He is complete in himself. He enjoys himself. It is not an easy task to control such a supreme master. But stubborn devotees like Parvati convince him. Parvati was fully aware of the power of devotion, so she does not believe and keeps on doing penance. Actually the brain is the king Himachal. Such chemicals come out of it, which distract away from penance. This is what Himachal explains to Parvati the wrathful aftermaths of doing penance. It wants to keep the soul entangled in the external world by diverting the attention from the Kundalini or say Shiva. Various mountain peaks are walnut-like bulges of the brain, which control different parts of the body. All these submountains are inside Himachal. The mind or brain remains in fear of losing its power. With the heat of the fire of her penance, the whole universe starts burning. Disturbed by this, all the gods and mountains, taking Brahma along with them, go to her to persuade her and stop her from penance. Actually this body is the whole universe. There is a sumeru mountain in it. It is the abode of all the gods. This body will definitely be badly afflicted by the austerity. It’s natural for brain to stop this all. Brahma lives on Mount Sumeru. Mount Sumeru is called the brain itself. Just as the universe develops from Brahma, so does the body develop from the brain out of its thinking power. Although all the deities reside in the brain, but the most arrogant and powerful deity of the mind is called Brahma that’s called primarily living there. All the demigods pervade the whole body along with the brain, but Brahma resides only in the brain. That is why the abode of Brahma is said to be in Sumeru. Therefore, due to austerity, these physical deities and innumerable living cell-shaped creatures living in this body-like universe are disturbed by being hungry and thirsty. In fact, along with the Kundalini, the prana of the body also goes to Sahasrara. Due to this the body becomes powerless like crippled or like helpless or like dependent. It is natural that the body will then become physically backward. It’s all inside this body-universe or subtle universe. Nothing happens in the outer gross universe. If the external gross creatures and gods had suffered, no one would have survived till today, because lakhs of people do penance every day in the form of meditation. Many yogis do severe penance even in the forests and mountains.