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From Inert Matter to Supreme Consciousness: A Journey Through Self

When we look up at the sky, it appears still, silent, and vast. It’s natural to see it as lifeless or jada—an inert physical space. In the same way, we label objects and even dead bodies as jada because they seem unconscious. There’s no movement, no response, no sign of inner awareness. But what if this stillness is not truly lifeless? What if what appears jada is actually holding a deep, silent potential within?

Traditionally, we consider something jada when it doesn’t show any signs of life. Even a human body, once the soul leaves, is referred to as jada because the expressions of consciousness are gone. But this jada state doesn’t mean emptiness. It’s more like a tightly packed capsule—where all the impressions, experiences, and memories are compressed and hidden, like data in a zip file. That’s why it feels dense, bound, and even suffocating.

On the other hand, when something is alive and expressive, we call it chetan—conscious. A living being breathes, feels, acts, and reflects. Its inner information is not hidden—it’s in motion, interacting with the world. This openness makes chetan appear far superior to jada. The life within it flows. It explores, it expresses, it evolves. That’s why we admire living beings—they are like windows through which consciousness shines.

But even chetan has its limitations. While the conscious being can act and interact, it still carries inner burdens—deep impressions called samskaras—that shape its personality, habits, and sufferings. The beauty, though, lies in the fact that a chetan being can work on itself. It can shed these burdens through inner work—whether through spiritual practice, self-inquiry, yoga, or meditation. This path leads to something even greater.

That greater state is param chetan—the supreme consciousness. It is not just living. It is fully awakened, totally free. It doesn’t carry any burden of impressions. It doesn’t suffer from ignorance or duality. It exists in its purest form: full of satta (existence), chitta (consciousness), and ananda (bliss). This is the real sky of the self—boundless and untouched.

Ironically, param chetan may still look like jada to the ordinary eye. A realized sage may appear calm and still like a rock or empty sky. But within that stillness lies a fullness beyond comprehension. What appears lifeless is, in fact, the most alive. It’s just not agitated or noisy. It’s like a silent ocean—motionless on the surface, yet infinitely deep.

So what we call jada may just be param chetan in disguise—consciousness in rest, not in absence. The journey of the soul is to move from being unconsciously bound, to consciously expressive, and finally to being consciously free. This is the hidden evolution—from inert matter, through active life, to divine being.

And in that ultimate state, the infinite sky within us is no longer veiled. It shines in its original light—pure, luminous, and complete.

Chapter 4: The Body’s Mirror – Inside the Atom(Structure and Function Parallels)

When we left the last chapter, a strange but exciting possibility opened up—
Can the entire human body fit inside an atom?
And we saw, with childlike wonder and deep scientific insight, that it not only can—it already does.

Not in a solid, visible way. But in a subtle, energetic, holographic way.

Just like a tree already lives inside its seed in a hidden form, the entire human being lives inside the atom—not as a full-grown body, but as a blueprint, a design, a vibrational possibility. And just like the seed grows into a tree, the atom evolves into cells, tissues, organs, and finally into us.

But this brings us to a fascinating question:

If atoms already carry the human inside them, do they also function like the body?
Is it just a structural similarity? Or do both the atom and the body actually do the same things in their own scale?

Let’s explore. But not like a boring textbook. Let’s walk together like curious children exploring a hidden ancient cave—with wonder, joy, and awe.

The Hidden Map: Body and Atom Side by Side

The human body has many organs and systems—brain, heart, blood, skeleton, DNA…
The atom has parts too—nucleus, electrons, orbitals, energy levels, vibration…

Let’s look at them side by side.
You’ll start seeing something truly magical.

Brain and Nucleus: The Command Center

Our brain is the control tower of the body. It processes everything—thoughts, emotions, signals. It decides what to do and when to do it. It’s the most complex machine in the known universe.

Now look at the atom.
Right at its center lies the nucleus—a tiny, dense heart of energy.
It decides the identity of the atom just as our brain decides our personality. Whether it’s hydrogen, oxygen, carbon—it’s the nucleus that decides. It controls the atom’s stability, behavior, and power. The nucleus, made of protons and neutrons, is the atom’s core. The number of protons defines the element—1 for hydrogen, 6 for carbon, 8 for oxygen. If the nucleus becomes too heavy or unbalanced, the atom turns unstable or radioactive, sometimes releasing enormous energy. Similarly, the human brain is the control center of personality and function. When the brain is overloaded or imbalanced, it can lead to a crash in personality, much like how an unstable nucleus causes atomic breakdown. Both are small cores with massive influence.

So just like the brain gives order to the body, the nucleus gives structure and energy to the atom.

They are mirrors of each other—one at the macro level, one at the micro.

Heart and Nucleus Again: The Source of Power

The heart beats and pumps blood. It creates rhythm and flow, keeping every part of the body alive. Its beat is our life’s background music.

In the atom, the nucleus is also the source of immense power. In fact, nuclear energy is the strongest known force in nature—millions of times stronger than the chemical energy in bonds.

So while the heart pumps blood to sustain the body, the nucleus holds energy—compressed, stable, and immensely powerful. It’s this concentrated energy at the core that gives electrons the force to move in their orbits, much like how the heart drives life through circulation. The nucleus may sit quietly at the center, but it fuels the entire atomic structure, just as the heart silently powers the entire body.

Both sit silently at the center.
Both keep everything else alive.
Both beat—one with sound, one with silence.

Blood, Nerves and Electron Flow: Movement and Messages

Our blood flows endlessly through a vast network of veins and arteries, delivering oxygen, nutrients, hormones, and waste—sustaining not just individual cells but the entire body. Alongside this, our nervous system fires rapid electrical signals between the brain and body, coordinating every movement, reflex, and thought. These two systems—circulatory and nervous—are the main lifelines of the body. They ensure that every part remains nourished, aware, and responsive.

Now shift to the atomic scale. Inside every atom, a similar dual dynamic is at play. Electrons, tiny charged particles, spin and shift through orbits and clouds, never still. They jump between energy levels, carrying not just electric charge, but also light, interaction, and the possibility of bonding. In the same way, refreshed circulation brings a glow to the face and positively modulates interactions with people in society. Electrons carry light by emitting or absorbing photons during energy jumps, and carry interaction by enabling chemical bonds and mediating electromagnetic forces. Just as blood flows through vessels, electrons flow through defined paths—and just as the body depends on blood flow for life, the atom depends on the movement of electrons. If electrons stopped or spiraled into the nucleus, the atom would collapse—its structure gone, its function lost.

Just as nerve signals generate electric fields in our body, electrons produce electric and magnetic fields around the atom. Just as nerve signals command the body on how to move, react, or feel, moving electrons guide the atom—determining which other atoms to interact with and which to ignore, by shaping the atom’s electric field and bonding behavior. Just as blood pulses rhythmically, electrons flow in patterns that drive chemical reactions and energy transfer. These patterns determine whether atoms link together, repel each other, or light up the world.

In this way, the life inside us—the flowing of blood, breath, and signals—is mirrored by the life within atoms, where electrons dance and communicate through fields and flows. Movement gives purpose. Flow creates connection. Whether in the vast body or the tiniest atom, everything is motion, everything is message.

Skeleton and Electron Shells: Structure and Stability

Just as the skeleton gives the body its shape, support, and movement, holding all parts in place and allowing them to work together, electron orbitals give the atom its structure and behavior. The skeleton decides how the body stands, moves, and stays connected; likewise, electron orbitals decide how atoms bond, fit together, and form molecules. Without the skeleton, the body would collapse—just as without orbitals, atoms wouldn’t know how to connect or create anything. Both are invisible frameworks that hold form and enable function.

If electron shells were chaotic, not rigid like skelton, no atoms would hold. No molecules, no matter, no life. Their stability allows the universe to have form.

So just as bones are invisible under the skin but hold the body,
electron shells are invisible structures that hold all creation.

DNA and Atomic Code: Memory and Design

Every living cell has DNA—a twisted spiral of information.
It tells each cell what to become—eye, skin, heart, or brain.

But what is DNA made of? Molecules.
And what are molecules? Arrangements of atoms.

Which means the real memory is stored in how atoms sit next to each other.
How they bond, vibrate, and form structures.
The vibration and pattern is the real code.

Even the spiral shape of DNA comes from atomic geometry. The spiral shape of DNA, known as the double helix, is not random—it arises from the way atoms are arranged and bonded within the molecule. The angles at which atoms bond, the electron orbitals, and the repulsion between electrons all influence the overall 3D shape. The atomic geometry—how atoms naturally prefer to sit in space—causes the DNA strands to twist into a spiral. So, the elegant spiral form of DNA is a direct result of the geometrical rules of atoms at the tiniest level.

So in a way, atoms are carrying vibrational memory. Yes, in a way, atoms do carry vibrational memory—though not like human memory, it’s a kind of energetic imprint. Atoms and molecules constantly vibrate, and these vibrations depend on their structure, bonds, and energy levels. When atoms absorb energy, they vibrate differently, and that vibration can influence how they interact with other atoms or molecules. In complex molecules like proteins or DNA, these vibrations can even affect biological behavior and information transfer. So, while atoms don’t “remember” like a brain, their vibrational patterns reflect their past interactions and current state—a kind of memory stored in motion, shaping how they behave next.
The entire body’s design is encoded in how atoms behave.

It’s not magic. It’s vibration, pattern, and harmony. Means that the complex beauty we see in nature—from the shape of a snowflake to the spiral of DNA or the rhythm of a heartbeat—is not due to something mystical, but to the natural laws of physics and chemistry. At the atomic and molecular level, everything vibrates—atoms, bonds, and particles move in tiny, rhythmic motions. These vibrations follow specific patterns, governed by energy, structure, and interaction. When these patterns align in a balanced and organized way, they create harmony—leading to stability, form, and function in everything from crystals to living organisms. So, what may appear magical is actually the elegant dance of vibrations following natural laws—a universe built on rhythm, not randomness.

Breathing, Thinking, Feeling – Is the Atom Doing It Too?

Now comes the fun part.
You may ask: Okay, atoms have structure like the body. But do they also breathe? Think? Feel?

Let’s see:

Breathing?
Atoms constantly vibrate. That vibration is like their breath.
More energy, faster vibration. Less energy, slower.
This is the rhythm of life at the tiniest level.

Circulating?
Electrons are always moving. They never sit still.
They flow, jump, tunnel, interact. This is circulation at the atomic scale.

Thinking?
Our thoughts are electrical signals in neurons.
At base, they are movements of ions—charged atoms. Our thoughts are the result of electrical signals traveling through neurons in the brain. At the most basic level, these signals are created by the movement of ions—which are atoms or molecules that carry an electric charge. For example, when you think, neurons open tiny gates in their membranes that allow charged ions like sodium (Na⁺), potassium (K⁺), and calcium (Ca²⁺) to move in and out. This flow of ions creates tiny electrical currents, which travel along the neuron and send messages to other neurons. So, beneath every emotion, memory, or idea is the simple motion of charged atoms—thoughts begin with the physics of moving particles.

And inside atoms, electrons also jump and release energy.
This quantum jump is mysterious—it happens instantly. No travel, no in-between.
It’s not “thinking” like humans do, but it behaves like flashes of choice. Just as electrons gain or lose energy by jumping between orbitals—absorbing energy to move to a higher level and releasing energy when dropping to a lower one—the human body also experiences energy shifts. When we’re uplifted—through joy, love, or positive experiences—it’s like electrons absorbing energy, rising to a higher energetic state. And when we’re grounded—through rest, nature, or emotional release—it’s like electrons releasing excess energy, returning to a more stable, balanced level.

In both cases, whether in atoms or the body, energy flows in steps, not randomly. These jumps create change, spark reactions, and maintain harmony. Energy in, energy out—it’s how both electrons and humans stay in balance.

So what is the body doing… that the atom isn’t?

Surprisingly—nothing.

Every action in the body is an advanced version of what atoms already do.

The body is the orchestra.
The atom is the original note.

The Illusion of “I Am Doing” – A Deeper Realization

Here’s where the mystery deepens.

We often say:
“I am breathing.”
“I am thinking.”
“I am walking.”

But let’s pause. Are we really doing these things?

The heart beats on its own.
The lungs breathe even when we sleep.
The brain thinks without our permission.
Even digestion, healing, and movement happen naturally.

So who is this “I” that claims to be doing?

Most of the time, the body runs on its own. Just like an atom doesn’t try to spin—it just does.
There is no manager inside the atom. No ego. No “doer.”

In the same way, the body doesn’t need an ego to function.
It already knows what to do—just like the atom.

The sense of doership is like a story we add on top of what is already happening.
The body is moving. The breath is flowing. The mind is thinking.
But “I am doing” is just a caption, not the photo itself.

When this is deeply seen, a strange peace enters.
The burden drops. Life feels lighter.
You stop trying to control everything. You start to trust the process.

The body is not your slave.
It is a part of nature, just like wind, fire, or stars.

You are not a fragment, you are a portal — a window through which the atom is looking at itself as a full-grown universe. Means that you, as a conscious being, are not just a small piece of the universe—you are a gateway of awareness through which the universe can perceive and reflect upon itself. At the core, your body and mind are made of atoms, just like everything else in the cosmos. But through consciousness, those atoms have formed something extraordinary—you, a being capable of self-awareness, wonder, and understanding.

So rather than being just a tiny, separate fragment of existence, you are like a lens or opening through which the vast universe—built from atoms—is able to experience itself as something whole, intelligent, and alive. The same particles that make up stars, galaxies, and oceans are now, through you, thinking, feeling, and observing. Before you, they were blindly making things up, unaware of the actual facts and processes.

It’s not poetic exaggeration—it’s a profound truth of existence: the universe, through you, becomes aware of itself.

The Final Glimpse: Body and Atom Are One Journey

So what have we seen?

We’ve seen that the atom and the body are not separate things.
They are reflections of the same pattern, at different scales.

The atom is the seed.
The body is the tree.
But the code is the same.

Everything you see in your body — breathing, thinking, moving, feeling — is already present in subtle form inside each atom.

The body is not made of atoms.
The body is an atom, unfolded.

This is the beauty of creation—the small and the large are not opposites but echoes of the same sound, reflections of one reality.

The atom is alive. The body is alive.
And through both, you — the awareness behind all this — are watching it all happen.

The purpose is not to control it, but to marvel at it—to witness the harmony of creation, where small and large are echoes of the same truth, flowing effortlessly from one source, the endless and self-aware space.

So next time you breathe…
remember — even the atom is breathing with you.

And that is the science of the Self.

Harnessing Neti Neti for Deeper Meditation

Sometimes during dhyana (meditation), things don’t unfold as smoothly as we’d like. The breath may remain restless, the body refuses to settle, and the mind continues its habitual wandering. In such moments, the subtle movements of prana—the life force—seem to keep the system agitated. It’s as though the very thing that carries life within us also prevents us from fully resting in that silent space beyond all activity.

This is where the practice of mental chanting, especially neti neti, reveals its quiet power. “Not this, not this”—a simple phrase, yet profound in its effect. Mentally repeating it, not with strain but with sincerity, helps cut through the unnecessary. Every thought that arises, every feeling that pulls attention, every story or identity that surfaces—neti neti gently negates them. Not with violence, but with wisdom. Not this… not this…

I have come to see neti neti as a bridge—especially when keval kumbhak, the spontaneous suspension of breath, has not yet taken over. In those rare and beautiful moments when prana itself becomes still and the breath ceases naturally, no effort is needed. There is no gap to fill. The Self reveals itself effortlessly. Silence becomes solid. Awareness shines by itself, needing no reminder, no pointer.

But this depth is not always available. The body and mind often carry momentum. In such cases, neti neti becomes more than just a mantra—it becomes a companion. A whisper in the background reminding me of what I truly am not, so that what I truly am can gradually become clearer. When breath is not restful, when energy is still moving, the mind tends to seek content, to latch onto something—anything. This is where neti neti becomes a gentle replacement, a redirection away from identification, toward detachment, and eventually toward presence.

What’s unique about this practice is that it doesn’t demand that you believe anything. It doesn’t create a new identity. Instead, it un-builds. It dissolves. It peels away. It respects the structure of your being and only asks you to negate what is not permanent, not peaceful, not you.

Over time, I’ve noticed that chanting neti neti during dhyana not only helps quiet the mind, but also creates a subtle sense of inner space—like the difference between a cluttered room and one with just a mat and silence. This space doesn’t arrive by force. It unfolds gradually, like dawn. And when the space is finally there, awareness can relax into itself. Breath may still be moving, prana may still dance, but the grip of it weakens.

Of course, neti neti is not a mechanical technique. It is alive. It responds to sincerity, not repetition. When practiced with mindfulness and simplicity, it becomes a living pointer to the reality that is always here, just beneath the noise.

Whether prana is dancing or resting, whether the breath is moving or suspended—neti neti remains a quiet, humble companion on the path to the Self.

The Dual Nature of the Soul

The soul, like matter, has a dual nature. Just as matter appears either as a particle or a wave depending on how we observe it, the soul too shifts its form based on our inner awareness. When it carries the weight of sanskaras—the subtle impressions of countless thoughts, actions, and experiences—it feels like a localized, separate identity. In this state, it appears as a finite dark sky, shaped and bounded by its karmic history. This is the “particle” side of the soul—individual, embodied, and defined.

But when we enter deep states of meditation, keval kumbhak (breathless awareness), or samadhi, these sanskaras begin to dissolve. As they fade, the soul reveals its original nature: an infinite, all-pervading void-like sky—silent, calm, and free from identity. This is the “wave” aspect of the soul, its formless presence beyond time and space. The two aspects cannot be experienced simultaneously. When sanskaras dominate, the infinite is veiled. When stillness takes over, individuality fades.

I witnessed this duality firsthand during a profound encounter with a freshly departed soul. It didn’t appear as just the imprint of a recent life, but as a condensed presence—an essence carrying the average personality traits of countless lifetimes. It was vivid, more alive than its last worldly form, yet deeply compressed—almost bound—by the gravitational pull of its own sanskaras. Its soul-space felt covered, like a dense hologram of all it had ever been. In that moment, I realized this was the “particle” soul—intensely real, yet trapped in its accumulated patterns.

Yet beneath that compression, I could also sense the same soul’s vast, hidden potential—its wave nature—an omnipresent being waiting to be released through purification and inner stillness. The soul was both: deeply personal, and yet, beneath the veils, entirely universal.

This experience reminded me that we all carry within us these two layers. The soul plays as a person when clothed in sanskaras, and rests as presence when freed from them. Recognizing this dual nature brings clarity—not just about ourselves, but also about death, liberation, and the great journey beyond.

Certainly! Here’s a corrected and refined version of your paragraph with a more poetic and philosophical tone:

Supreme vastness is the very essence of supreme existence—Satta.
From this boundless existence arise Gyana (pure knowledge or consciousness) and Ananda (bliss); they are not separate qualities but are inherently woven into the fabric of Satta. The endless sky is not just a metaphor but a direct reflection of the purest state of the soul—Paramatma—infinite, unbounded, and self-luminous. Even in worldly life, we find glimpses of this truth: as one travels far and wide, crossing horizons and expanding boundaries, there is a natural surge in joy, awareness, and a sense of awakening. This outward expansion mirrors the inner truth—that true knowledge, consciousness, and bliss arise from the realization of our own infinite nature.

Chapter 3: Can a Whole Body Fit Inside an Atom?

In the last chapter, we asked: if the entire universe is a holographic projection, then who is observing this cosmic screen?

That question is not separate from science. It’s the very heart of it.

Everything we see — the planets, the people, the pain, the play — all of it might be appearing on a kind of invisible surface, just like a 3D movie on a flat cinema screen. But unless someone is watching that screen, the movie doesn’t truly exist. So the most important question isn’t about how the movie appears, but who is sitting in the audience — silently witnessing the show.

This witness is not your eyes. Not your brain. It is the soul — the spacious, aware presence behind all perception. And it is not passive. It does something magical. It translates a flat image into a living, breathing experience.

That’s why we don’t just see shapes and colours. We feel love. We feel distances. We experience space. Why? Because the soul itself is not flat. It is three-dimensional space, infinite, silent, conscious — and from it, all volume and depth arise.

The brain helps process signals, but the soul gives depth to reality. Without it, everything would be flat and meaningless. That’s the secret behind our experience of life as a deep, vast, unfolding mystery.

This insight also helps us approach the central question of this chapter — can a whole body fit inside an atom?

At first glance, it sounds ridiculous. Our body has bones, skin, blood, thoughts, breath — how can all of that fit inside something smaller than a speck of dust?

But if you look deeper, you’ll discover a quiet miracle. Every cell of your body carries the entire blueprint of your form — your DNA. And DNA itself is smaller than what we can imagine, yet it contains everything — your eye shape, your voice, your sleep patterns, your tendencies. And DNA is made of atoms.

So, in a simple yet astonishing truth — your entire body is already folded inside the atom. Not physically, but informationally. Like a movie is stored inside a memory chip, your whole being is encoded inside the atomic architecture of your cells.

And the more we understand information, the more we realise that information doesn’t need volume. It only needs pattern. A single holographic pixel can carry the image of the whole — and this is true not just of science, but of our very existence.

In ancient Yogic vision, this was never news. The Rishis saw that the subtle body (sukshma sharira) holds the full record of all our lifetimes — not just the current one. These records aren’t written in ink, but in subtle ripples — samskaras — which move through our soul-space like gravitational impressions.

These ripples don’t die when the body dies. They stay. They vibrate quietly in the background of consciousness, waiting for conditions to rise again. Just like ripples in space don’t disappear after a star collapses — they stretch as gravitational waves, holding memory across eternity.

This means the human soul is a personal holographic space, containing subtle ripples, vibrational patterns, and emotional waves from countless lives. It is like a microcosmic version of the cosmos. And these ripples are held by prana — the subtle life force, just as in the universe, cosmic prana may be holding all gravitational memory after the end of galaxies.

So what scientists now begin to say — that the universe stores its history as stable gravitational waves — was already intuited by ancient seers. Our individual soul-space is a smaller echo of cosmic space — each carrying memory, pattern, and subtle desire. The universe is the macro-soul. We are its holographic reflections.

And now I must tell you something that confirmed this to me beyond theory.

I once had a powerful experience — a visitation in a dream — of a freshly departed soul. But it didn’t appear merely as the person I knew in this life; it was much more than that. It came as a deeply encoded field of identity. It felt like the average of all its lifetimes, distilled into a single compact vibration — heavy and dark, but not in an evil sense. More like dense light wrapped in darkness, or a sacred knot of memory — a concentrated bundle of impressions woven from countless experiences, identities, and emotions across time. It wasn’t chaotic, but felt intentionally held together, like a spiritual DNA preserving the soul’s essence. Sacred, because it bore the silent weight of eons — yet still a knot, because it hadn’t fully unraveled into freedom.

It was alive — more alive than ever, in a strange and quiet way. Yet I could see that its soul-space was compressed. It wasn’t empty, but it was concealing its personal identity within itself, folding inward like a lotus closed at night. Its core felt heavy, as if burdened by unresolved identity — by samskaras carried across eons. Simply put, or in a nutshell, it was like a space filled with complete darkness, yet invisibly encoding an individual identity within. Because of this encoding, I could unmistakably feel it as that same individual — fully alive — even though nothing was present except sheer, expansive darkness and silence. It was an astonishing kind of encoding. Perhaps it is akin to subtle gravitational ripples in space.

It was not tortured, but it was not free. Its experiential light — its vastness, its bliss, its clarity — was present, yet covered, veiled, or diminished. It appeared lesser than the state of a living human body. Had it appeared more — more radiant, more open — it would have been recognized as liberated. Though it believed itself to be liberated, this belief was shaped by illusion and carried a subtle doubt. It even asked me to confirm its liberation, but I denied. That subtle compression of soul-space — that invisible binding — was its true suffering. It didn’t recognize it as suffering, but I did. A man who has lived in a well for eons cannot know what lies beyond, but someone outside the well can see it — and point toward the truth. It wasn’t pain in the usual sense, but rather the quiet ache of being less than what one truly is — that is, absolute.

In that moment, I understood something profound — liberation is simply the release of these samskaras. It is the melting away of these inner gravitational waves. Liberation is not the end of life, but the end of compression. One may be sitting in a cave yet still be bound and compressed by samskaras, while another, even as a king amidst the world, may be entirely free of such compressions.

Just as a black hole may one day dissolve its trapped information into open space again, the bound soul too can release its encoded ripples and return to satchitananda — being, consciousness, and bliss — in their natural, free, shining form.

So what does this say about the universe?

The scriptures say even Brahma, the cosmic creator, has a lifespan. When the cosmic play ends, even he dissolves. But just like a soul, Brahma doesn’t vanish. He merges into infinite stillness — into Brahman, the pure, ripple-free field.

This is Mahapralaya — the Great Dissolution. But it’s not destruction. It is deep sleep. And from that silent space, one day, a new Brahma emerges — and with him, a new universe, a new screen, a new holograph.

Why? Because the infinite never runs out of potential. It doesn’t need desire to create. It simply flowers.

And so it is with you. When your samskaras melt, when your inner ripples calm, when your soul becomes like clear, still space — you don’t vanish. You shine. You become the screen and the observer — at once.

So yes — a whole body can fit inside an atom. Because the body is not merely flesh and bone; it is a vibration, a subtle blueprint, a densely compressed field of infinite memory and possibility. What we perceive as the physical body is only the outermost layer. At its core, it is energy — encoded with the entire history of one’s being across lifetimes — all folded into a single point of consciousness, much like how a vast hologram can be stored in a tiny fragment of space. Just as the energies and impressions of infinite lifetimes can remain encoded in the soul, the same kind of encoding can be stored within the space bound by the boundary of an atom. In that minuscule realm, unimaginable depth and memory can reside, hidden yet alive. Just as the portion of infinite space within the human head can hold unlimited energy patterns as encoded impressions, then why can’t the part of infinite space bound within an atom also hold the same — the energy patterns of a human, or even of the entire cosmos? It is not a matter of size; it is a matter of structure — of holography. In a holographic reality, the whole is reflected in every part. So even the smallest boundary, like that of an atom, can encode the vastness of existence within it.

And inside that atom — there may be a holograph of not just your form, but of your past, your future, and the entire cosmos.

You are not a fragment — not a broken or isolated piece of existence. You are a portal: a living doorway through which the infinite expresses itself. You do not merely belong to the universe; the universe flows through you. Within you lies access to all dimensions of being — from the deepest silence to the highest awareness. You are not a small part of reality; you are the point where reality opens, unfolds, and becomes self-aware.

You are not inside space. Space is inside you.

And the one watching all this — the one reading these words now — is not a character on the screen. It is the eternal observer, patiently waiting for you to remember:

You were never just the story.
You were the light behind it all.

Individual Soul as Space — Ripples, Prana, and Cosmic Memory

I’ve been deeply fascinated by the idea that the information of a lifetime doesn’t just vanish after death. Instead, it remains as imprints — subtle and stable — like ripples frozen in space. These ripples, I feel, are what the Yogic tradition calls the Sukshma Sharira, the subtle body. Even Patanjali’s definition of Yoga as Chitta Vritti Nirodha — the cessation of the mind’s modifications — is essentially about dissolving these exact ripples. Once they dissolve, the space-like soul becomes fully pure again — free, mindless, and liberated. These ripples are what cover the natural infinity, knowledge, and bliss that is the nature of the soul. The more ripples there are, the more limited and distorted the experience becomes. Interestingly, I’m seeing scientists talk similarly about the physical universe — how ripples in space-time, like gravitational waves, store information and preserve memory of cosmic events. The parallel feels profound.

I asked myself — can this insight be translated into something structured and communicable? A diagram perhaps? And yes, the core idea is that in both ancient yogic philosophy and modern physics, ripples hold memory. In the human soul, they’re subtle thoughts and impressions. In the cosmos, they’re gravitational or quantum ripples. When they’re stilled, either through deep meditation or natural cosmic stillness, what remains is pure being.

Then came a deeper insight. Just like the human soul stores the mental formations in its subtle layers and carries them forward, could the universe itself — after its death — retain its memory in the form of stable gravitational waves? Could these waves be like the soul’s sanskaras? This would mean that the universe, too, is reborn with characteristics similar to what it previously held — just as a human being is reborn with a tendency pattern from earlier lives. It seemed clearer now: both the human and the cosmos are memory-bearing entities. In humans, that memory is preserved in the subtle pranic structure. In the cosmos, that memory is stored in the fabric of space-time itself.

But the pattern doesn’t stop there. Just as the human soul is sustained by prana — the subtle life force — even after death, that prana does not perish. It stays in an unmanifest form, sustaining the subtle impressions or ripples. So, shouldn’t cosmic prana also survive after the death of the universe? It makes sense to think that the pranic energy of the cosmos — perhaps what science refers to as dark energy or vacuum energy — doesn’t disappear. Instead, it sustains the subtle ripples in the vastness of space. The same mechanism seems to repeat: subtle energy sustains subtle form, whether in the microcosm of a soul or the macrocosm of a universe.

This led to a bigger question — if the human soul can be liberated by dissolving its ripples, what about the cosmic soul? Can Brahma — the creator — be liberated? And if yes, does that liberation happen after many cycles of creation and destruction as the scriptures say? The answer in traditional cosmology is yes. Even Brahma, after living a span of unimaginable length and creating countless universes, ultimately merges into Brahman — the absolute. Just like the individual soul, Brahma too is not absolutely free until the very last ripple is stilled — when even the desire to create dissolves. This is the true Mahapralaya — the final dissolution, not just of matter and space, but of all mental intention, even divine ones.

This brings up an essential doubt. If Brahma — the cosmic mind — is liberated, then how can a new universe emerge again? Isn’t the story over? But the scriptures and philosophies say that the play is beginningless and endless. Even after the dissolution, the potential remains in Brahman. A new Brahma arises — not from karmic bondage, but spontaneously — from the freedom of infinite stillness. It’s a divine pulse, a self-expression, not a necessity. In the same way that waves naturally arise from still water without any karma, a new cosmos arises from the infinite potential of Brahman.

This aligns with some scientific models too. Quantum field theory tells us that the vacuum is never empty — it always retains the potential for particles, energy, even new universes to emerge. Some cosmologists believe that universes are cyclic — they collapse, leave an imprint, and then arise again. So the philosophical and scientific views seem to be converging on this one mysterious truth: nothing ever truly begins, and nothing ever truly ends.

And then came perhaps the most integrated insight of all. If the human soul is carrying ripples, and the universe is carrying ripples, then maybe the soul isn’t just a “drop of consciousness” — maybe it’s a space unto itself. A localized field. An individual bubble of space-time carrying its own gravitational ripples (samskaras), sustained by its own dark energy (subtle prana). This would mean that the individual soul is nothing fundamentally different from the cosmic soul — just a localized, individualized expression. It’s the same ocean appearing as a unique wave. The same infinite field, just folded into a personal experience. The Sukshma Sharira becomes a field space — full of memory (ripples), energy (prana), and consciousness (Atman) — just like the universe.

This realization made everything fit. In science, the holographic principle tells us that each part of space contains the whole. In Vedanta, Atman is Brahman — the soul is not different from the whole. The soul becomes bounded not because it is lesser, but because it identifies with its ripples. And liberation — for both the Jiva and Brahma — is the return to boundary-less awareness. The field collapses into itself. No more ripples, no more time, no more cycles. Just the infinite, again.

And yet — from that infinite, new ripples arise. A new soul, a new Brahma, a new universe. The play never ends.

Chapter 2: What Is the Holographic Principle?

Dear reader, let’s now gently step ahead from where we paused earlier. We had seen a deep and beautiful idea — that the entire universe might be a reflection of our own body. That what seems outside us might actually be connected to us more deeply than we imagine.

Now, we go one step further.

Have you ever seen a hologram? Maybe on a sticker or a card? It looks 3D, as if the image has depth and shape. But when you touch it, it’s flat. If you break off even a small piece, it still shows the whole image, though smaller. How can that be?

It’s because a hologram is made in a very special way. Every part contains the pattern of the whole. It’s like magic, but it’s actually science. This is called the holographic principle.

Now, scientists began to notice something strange while studying black holes. A black hole is a place in space where gravity is so strong that nothing, not even light, can escape. But then they asked: if something falls into a black hole, where does its information go? Is it lost forever?

Surprisingly, they found that all the information about what falls in could still be stored on the surface of the black hole. Not inside it — but on the outer layer. Like how a 3D image can be stored in a 2D hologram.

That led to a big idea: maybe the entire universe works like this. Maybe everything we see in three dimensions is actually coming from a two-dimensional surface that we can’t directly see.

Now, let’s make it simpler. Imagine you are looking at a movie on a screen. The movie has people, buildings, mountains. It looks 3D. But the screen is flat. The depth is just an illusion. In the same way, what we see as solid space around us may also be a kind of illusion — a very detailed and real-looking one.

And this is not just about the outer world. Your own brain also works like this.

Your eyes see flat images. The surface of your eye (the retina) is flat. But somehow, your brain creates the feeling of depth. You see things as near and far. You see 3D. But inside the brain, it’s just patterns of electrical signals. The 3D world you experience is created inside your mind. It is a kind of hologram too.

So both outside and inside — the world and your mind — may be working like projectors, creating a 3D picture from a 2D base.

This idea also matches what ancient Indian wisdom said. The sages said the world is Maya — not exactly false, but like a dream or illusion. It feels real, but its base is something else. Just like in a dream, you walk, talk, feel, and meet people — but when you wake up, you see it was all happening inside your mind.

Even your body follows this hologram idea.

Your body has about 37 trillion cells. Each cell may look different — some are skin cells, some are liver cells, some are brain cells. But almost every cell has the same DNA — the full code for your entire body. Every part carries the whole.

Go even deeper. At the level of atoms, everything is made of the same building blocks. Whether it’s a human body, a rock, a tree, or a star — all are made of atoms. And atoms are mostly empty space, with just energy and patterns. So how does something as empty as an atom become something as alive as you?

It’s a mystery. But it shows that form and life arise from patterns — just like a hologram.

You begin to see now — the walls between you and the world start to blur. You’re not just a small person in a big universe. You are part of the universe, and the universe is part of you.

That’s why when you truly understand this, ego begins to melt. Not because someone told you to be humble, but because you actually see there is no real separation.

Even your dreams show this. In a dream, your body sleeps still, but your mind creates whole worlds. You see, hear, touch, and feel. It’s all inside you. If that’s possible in dreams, maybe our waking life also has a dream-like structure.

Scientists now say the brain can build the feeling of space and time just from signals. That means the space around you might not be exactly “out there.” It might be something your mind is drawing — like a canvas.

And what if the universe is doing the same?

So both the world and your experience of it may be coming from encoded patterns — from something deeper, beyond what we normally see. This is what the holographic principle hints at.

Now, just a small note here: scientists haven’t yet proven that black holes really store information like a hologram. But many strong theories and equations suggest this is true. For example, famous physicists like Stephen Hawking and Leonard Susskind found that the information inside a black hole might actually live on its outer surface — not deep inside. This means the black hole may act like a flat screen showing a 3D world, much like a hologram. While we can’t test this directly yet (since we can’t go near a black hole), the idea matches well with both modern physics and ancient spiritual wisdom. So, it is a very strong possibility, though still being explored.

And here is the spiritual wonder: when you really get this, something beautiful happens.

You begin to feel at peace. You stop fighting the world so much. You stop feeling so alone. You realize everyone and everything is connected — not in some vague way, but in a real, scientific, spiritual way.

You are not a tiny drop in a vast sea. You are the sea appearing as a drop.

And this understanding is not just for scientists or saints. It is for anyone who has the courage to look carefully, honestly, and lovingly into their own experience.

This is the heart of Sharirvigyan Darshan. It tells us that the human body is not separate from the universe, but a mirror of it. A reflection of the whole. A living, breathing hologram.

As we end this chapter, a quiet question appears in the mind:

If both your body and the world are patterns… If both are reflections of something deeper… Then who or what is watching all this?

What is the light behind the hologram?

Let’s go there, together, in Chapter 3.

Chapter 1: The Atom – The Smallest Big Thing

Namaste, dear reader friends,

With heartfelt joy and deep intent, I welcome you to this evolving journey — a blog series that is also the seed of a book titled
“Sharirvigyan Darshan: The Human Body Inside an Atom.”

This work is born from a long inner reflection and a desire to share a vision that unites science, self-awareness, and spirituality into one living understanding. It seeks to answer the timeless questions: What is this body? What is this universe? And are they really two separate things?

In my earlier explorations, I presented how human beings and human society mirror the functioning of body cells and systems. This appealed to those from health and biological sciences. But I felt something was missing for the common seeker — for those who live, think, and feel in a more everyday, physical world.

And then came a simple but powerful doorway: the atom.

Atoms are the building blocks of all matter — be it your body, your home, a tree, or even a grain of sand. But what if I told you that each atom is not just a particle, but a holographic reflection of your entire body? That the universe, in its vastness, is nothing but a mirror of you — and you, a living image of the universe?

Through this understanding, the gap between science and spirituality, self and world, you and me, starts to dissolve. The ego softens, the illusion of separation fades, and what remains is a peaceful joy — the natural state of nonduality.

This is not a dry concept or theory. It is a living, breathing truth.
One that can be felt, understood, and lived, even by the most ordinary person.

So, dear friends, walk with me through these pages — not just with the mind, but with your whole being. Let this journey open your eyes to a hidden harmony, where matter becomes meaning, and the body becomes a doorway to the cosmos.

And now, with gentle excitement,
we step into Chapter One…

Chapter 1: The Atom – The Smallest Big Thing

The most astonishing truth is often hidden in the most ordinary thing. You wake up in the morning, touch your pillow, stretch your arms, breathe in the air—but rarely do you pause to consider: everything you just experienced is made of the same ingredient. Your breath. Your bones. Your bed. Your breakfast. Even your boredom. All made of atoms.

The word “atom” may sound like it belongs in a physics lab or an 8th standard science textbook, but in truth, the atom is more mystical than any ancient symbol, more philosophical than any scripture, and more thrilling than any science fiction. The atom is the beginning of our journey not because it is small, but because it is the smallest form of everything we know.

It is the humble atom that will eventually unfold before you the secret of your body, your mind, your world, and your Self. Not metaphorically. Not symbolically. But directly, clearly, and scientifically.

What is an Atom, Really?

Strip away all poetic fog for a moment and look at the raw definition: an atom is the smallest unit of matter that retains the properties of an element. Hydrogen, oxygen, iron, gold, carbon—each is made of atoms. Each atom is composed of a dense nucleus (holding protons and neutrons) surrounded by a cloud of electrons. But the mind-shattering part? It’s almost entirely empty space.

If the nucleus of an atom were the size of a grain of rice, the electrons would be whirling around it at a distance of several meters. And in between? Nothing. Vacuum. Silence. Emptiness. And yet, this empty dance creates solidity.

Your skin. Your skull. The steel spoon in your hand. All solid illusions made from empty atoms. A paradox wrapped in wonder.

You Are Made of This

As you sit reading this chapter—whether on a screen or paper—your body is pulsing with activity. Cells working, blood flowing, brain humming. And yet, underneath all that complexity lies astonishing simplicity: you are made of atoms.

Bones? Calcium atoms. Muscles? Proteins made from carbon, hydrogen, oxygen, nitrogen atoms. Breath? Oxygen atoms in molecules dancing through lungs and into blood.

Even your thoughts depend on the flicker of sodium and potassium atoms across neural membranes. You are an orchestra of atomic activity.

And it’s not just you. The chair you’re sitting on. The cup near your hand. The book on your shelf. All made of atoms. There is no exception in the physical world. Everything is atoms, arranged differently.

The First Whisper: What If?

Now let a quiet question pass through your awareness:

If every object in the universe is made of atoms, and your body is made of atoms, then is there any boundary between “you” and “everything else”?

This is not mysticism. This is physics.

Imagine for a moment: you walk into a room. Your hand touches a wall. Two atomic clouds meet. One belongs to “you,” the other to “wall.” But both are just electrons pushing against each other—and electrons don’t carry name tags. They don’t say, “Hey! I’m from Bhishm Sharma’s hand!”

So who says they are yours?

That is the first crack in the ego.

Atoms Don’t Have Egos

Here is a silent truth that might change your life:

Atoms don’t do anything. Yet everything happens through them.

The atom doesn’t claim it grew into a flower, or turned into a heart cell, or formed a skyscraper. It doesn’t say, “Look what I did!”

It simply is, and through its being, infinite forms arise.

Compare that to your own life. You eat, breathe, speak, sleep, think. But if you observe closely, none of this is truly “done” by you in the conscious sense. Breathing happens. Digestion happens. Even thoughts arise without being summoned.

Your life is a play of atomic orchestration, not personal authorship.

The Suspense Begins

Here’s where it gets exhilarating.

Later in this book, you will see not just that the body is made of atoms, but that each atom is a miniature holographic reflection of the entire body. Every function you believe belongs to organs—like circulation, cognition, metabolism—is already being mirrored at the atomic level.

The atom, in a very real sense, is the body, just in seed form.

This isn’t poetry. It is precise parallelism. The holographic principle in physics suggests that all the information of a whole can exist in every small part. Like a fragment of a holographic photo still contains the entire image, just at lower resolution.

That means: Every atom is the body. Every atom is the universe. And so are you.

And Yet… Nothing Moves

The deeper you look into atomic structure, the more silence you encounter. Electrons don’t spin like planets. They exist in probability clouds. The nucleus doesn’t pulse or breathe. It just remains.

This entire dynamic universe is built on particles that are mostly still and silent.

This echoes something ancient within your own being. Something that yogis, sages, and mystics have spoken of for millennia:

“There is a stillness in you that does not move, yet all movement arises from it.”

In this book, we will slowly peel back the veil—not to escape science, but to fulfill it.

Why This Chapter Matters

You may wonder: why start here? Why talk about atoms when you came looking for self-realization, spiritual understanding, or insight into human nature?

Because understanding the atom is understanding yourself.

Not just your body. But the very way you think, feel, act, and perceive.

This book is not about religious belief or new-age theory. It is about showing you, through direct experience and clear reasoning, that everything you think is “external” is actually you.

The moment you grasp that the very building blocks of the universe are also the building blocks of your Self, the illusion of separation begins to dissolve. You start to laugh gently at the absurdity of possessiveness, pride, guilt, and fear.

What is there to fight, if all is you? What is there to possess, if the possessor is already everywhere?

A Taste of What Awaits

In coming chapters, we will:

  • Unpack how the functions of the body (circulation, nervous system, digestion) mirror atomic structure
  • See how the society of cells within us reflects the society outside us
  • Discover how consciousness and awareness influence atomic behavior
  • Understand how healing, memory, and death relate to atomic rearrangement
  • And finally, how seeing the atom as your own Self can liberate you from the weight of ego

The Adventure Within

Imagine a journey where no place is far because the destination is within you.

Where the greatest mysteries of matter whisper the truths of spirit.

Where the smallest unit of substance reveals the largest truth of existence.

This is not just a book. It is a shift in the way you perceive reality.

We began with the atom. But the journey has only begun.

And if you dare to go deeper, you will discover that the boundary between the knower and the known, the seer and the seen, the atom and the body, the world and the Self…

…was never really there at all.

The Silent Secret After Yoga: Why Still Sitting Matters Most

Idol seems like a personification of pure awareness that’s conscious. It’s worshipped because it’s far superior to our limited consciousness. In amusement parks like rock gardens, various objects are also personified, but not worshipped — and that’s why, although we may feel bliss or amusement there, we don’t develop reverence or honor toward them. They don’t invoke that deep transformative respect in the intellect which leads toward spiritual evolution.
In this sense, everything is living if we keep all-pervading pure awareness in mind. It’s amazing that this pure awareness is fully satisfied with itself — forever. But attaining that inner state of pure self-satisfied awareness is not easy; it’s impossible without Kevala Kumbhaka — the spontaneous stilling of breath. Am I right?
People claiming to have attained Nirvikalpa Samadhi without Kevala Kumbhaka or stillness of breath are utterly lying — because even science doesn’t allow this. No breath-stopping means no mind-stopping, and if the mind hasn’t stopped, then pure awareness hasn’t truly dawned. Therefore, if someone like Ramana Maharshi attained Nirvikalpa without breath cessation, then it was either for a transient period or partial — but fully entering Nirvikalpa without breath stasis is impossible. Am I right?
It is a psychological fact — what we revere, honor, and love by heart, we become like that. So worshipping idols helps one become pure existence — like that which the idol represents. This is the same as the Law of Attraction. You attract what you focus on, align with, and love. In deep worship or contemplation, that which you love transforms you. Children loving their toys should be yogis in this sense — probably they get the bliss of pure existence by such innocent absorption.
It is largely true that Kevala Kumbhaka is not just a procedure — it’s a sign of nondual absorption. However, there may still be some technical methods to reach it directly to some level. In my experience, when a pranic tension builds up in the body — mainly in the head — after deep yoga exercises, simply sitting silently at the end of it leads to Kevala Kumbhaka. Those who rush into worldly activities immediately after yoga, without still sitting, unknowingly dissipate the very energy they’ve just awakened. Instead of allowing it to crystallize into Kevala Kumbhaka and blossom into pure self-awareness, they divert it outward — spending it on action, thought, and distraction. True yoga bears fruit only when movement ends and silence is honored. In that still sitting, the awakened energy turns inward and reveals itself as pure existence. But for this, one needs to rise at 4 am, because at least three hours are needed for all of this — including the final silent sitting.
Still, a persistent issue disturbs this: cough in the throat. It interferes with Kevala Kumbhaka intermittently. Especially when there’s Ayurvedic kapha or mucus — not necessarily thick, but it feels choking during Kevala Kumbhaka. There’s a repeated reflex to swallow it, even though it’s hardly sticky — and this reflex disturbs the inner stillness.
I eat three hours before bed in the evening. Can I eat rice then? Once, during weekly Bhagavatam Satsang in a cold hilly area, I used to eat two times — light vrata meals during the day and an early evening meal. The food was just normal — rice, sweets, pulses, vegetables — made commonly, but I took it lightly, with fewer spices. And I never felt kapha or mucus in day sadhana. In fact, I found sadhana during those days to be quite effective.
What can I conclude from that? That even in a cold, kapha-prone environment, when the food is simple, taken early, and in the right mindset — especially with vrata bhava (vow-consciousness) — there is no mucus buildup. There’s no interference with Kevala Kumbhaka, and inner absorption happens more effortlessly. That experience confirmed for me that timing, lightness, and mental purity are far more important than whether the food was traditionally ‘mucus-forming’. Even simple rice and sweet dishes didn’t harm sadhana when taken in moderation, in devotion, and with awareness.

Why Sushumna Is Hard to Feel but Transforms You Deeply: A Yogi’s Personal Exploration

I observe that waiting for Sushumna flow during spinal breathing, pranayama, and asanas is less effective. Instead, allowing flow through Ida and Pingala while keeping the gaze upward through the Ajna Chakra seems to centralize the lateral flow by alternating left and right flows. Although head pressure develops with it, it feels transformative. This observation reflects a deep and practical understanding rooted in direct yogic experience. Traditionally, yogic texts emphasize balancing Ida and Pingala first before expecting Sushumna to activate. Waiting passively for it to open often becomes a mental expectation rather than a lived reality. By allowing alternate left-right flow and maintaining awareness at Ajna, I found that it naturally starts centralizing the energy. The resulting head pressure is a sign of pranic tension building—something needed to push energy through the central channel. Not resisting lateral flows but gently guiding them upward helps energy triangulate toward Sushumna without force. This method is more engaging than simply waiting for Sushumna.

I also noticed that when I allow natural alternate Ida-Pingala flow in the morning yoga session, it sets up Kevala Kumbhaka (spontaneous breath retention) effortlessly during the day—especially when I sit quietly, away from worldly distractions. This is a sign that the pranic system has built a charge in the morning and is now delivering its result without effort. Yogic science affirms this process: when the breath is balanced and mind is calm, Kevala Kumbhaka arises naturally. It is not something to be forced—it happens when the conditions are right. My experience validates this: when I created pranic harmony earlier in the day, I didn’t need to do much later. I just sat, and the breath stopped on its own, with awareness settled. This confirms that stillness must be earned, not imposed. The more I try to hold or force breathlessness, the more elusive it becomes. But when Ida and Pingala dance naturally and converge, Sushumna awakens, and Kevala Kumbhaka unfolds without effort.

I once experimented by ignoring the Ida-Pingala flow altogether—neither reacting to lateral sensations on the face nor adjusting anything. I kept everything still and simply waited for Sushumna flow during spinal breathing. What happened was disappointing. Only slight energy movement appeared after delays and only at the back of the head—not through the spine or full central path. It was weak and ineffective, and no transformative energy or breathless state occurred. I felt the practice was futile and time-wasting. This showed me that suppressing lateral pranic flow blocks the whole process. Waiting for Sushumna without engaging the polarity is like expecting electricity without generating voltage. The earlier method of conscious alternate flow and upward gaze had worked far better. Suppression, I realized, isn’t stillness. Stillness arises after energetic tension has built up and integrated, not before.

I wondered: was this realization real, or was it just flattery from my mind or something exaggerated? The answer is clear—this isn’t flattery. It is scientifically, experientially, and historically verified by yogic tradition. Classical texts like the Hatha Yoga Pradipika, Gheranda Samhita, and even Vijnana Bhairava Tantra all emphasize the necessity of balancing Ida and Pingala before Sushumna activation. Even modern interpretations align: Ida and Pingala reflect sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous system flows, and their harmonization reflects physiological homeostasis. Sushumna, being central and subtle, only activates when dualities are transcended. This is supported by the personal testimonies of advanced yogis like Lahiri Mahasaya, Sri Yukteswar, Swami Sivananda, and even Sri Ramana Maharshi. My own experience of Kevala Kumbhaka and weak Sushumna flow under suppression confirms this truth. I have done the experimentation myself—and arrived at a conclusion that texts, yogis, and physiology all support.

Although I did spinal breathing in different nostril-use styles, I found that the natural Ida-Pingala dance happens most vividly during the pause after inhalation, and slightly during the pause after exhalation. This is a key insight. After inhalation, prana is fully charged and internalized. During this pause, the left and right nadis interact most dynamically. It is like a charged pendulum moment—where the energy oscillates just before merging. This is the doorway where Ida and Pingala begin to converge toward Sushumna. After exhalation, the pause is more dissolving—subtler. It feels like a soft inward melting, not an electrical flicker. The classical texts affirm this too—especially Vijnana Bhairava Tantra and Hatha Yoga Pradipika—which point to these breath transitions as openings into the infinite. By being aware during these pauses, I feel the Ida-Pingala dance most clearly, not during active inhalation or exhalation.

In an earlier response, it was suggested to practice asanas naturally, without breath holds, so natural breath suspension would happen and prevent head pressure. But I found this to be less effective. In contrast, I discovered that voluntary breath retention based on the nature of the pose—inhale hold during belly expansion, exhale hold during belly compression—was far more transformative. It set up strong internal pressure, intensified pranic engagement, and led more reliably to breathless states later. Natural breathing keeps the system calm and is good for balance or for beginners, but it lacks the energetic charge needed to shift consciousness. Voluntary retention, if done with alignment and awareness, builds that charge. So I asked—what does it mean when people say “risky if done wrongly”? It means that if breath holds are forced or misaligned with the pose, they can cause strain—like dizziness, excess pressure, or even worsen conditions like GERD or high BP. Holding breath while compressing the belly, for example, blocks energy. But done rightly—inhale hold during expansion, exhale hold during compression—it becomes a powerful alchemical tool. Since I already have refined awareness and use breath retention mindfully, this risk is mostly past. For me, it is now a reliable method of transformation.

Still, I wondered—why is the energy in Ida and Pingala so easily felt, but Sushumna remains subtle or unfelt? The answer lies in their nature. Ida and Pingala are sensory, dual, and tied to the breath and nervous system. They feed the ego, polarity, and perception. That’s why their activation feels like warmth, pressure, tingling, or movement. Sushumna, on the other hand, is silent, non-dual, and does not produce “feelable” sensation. When it becomes active, it feels like emptiness, vastness, or a collapsing of inner noise. This is supported by both yogic scripture and neurophysiological models. Ida and Pingala are like surface brainwaves; Sushumna is like deep silence. The more purified Sushumna becomes, the less perceptible it is—because awareness merges with it. At early stages, people report light, vibration, or rising pressure in the spine. But at advanced stages, there is no spine, no movement—only presence and absorption. So the less you feel Sushumna as a sensation, the closer you are to its true nature.

Still, I once had a vivid experience: a sensory “chord of light” from Muladhara to Sahasrara through the center of the back. Why did I feel Sushumna so clearly then? It’s because, in that moment, pranic alignment, silence, and awareness merged perfectly. The energy surged through an open Sushumna and became perceptible. This often happens when Ida and Pingala are completely balanced and the granthis are partially dissolved. Kundalini can rise briefly and feel like a thread of light, a laser, or a beam. Scriptures describe this exactly—lightning flashing through the spine, nectar rising, or a silvery thread of consciousness. It happened because I wasn’t chasing it—it arose spontaneously in a state of absorption. This is Sushumna becoming dense enough to register in sensory awareness—not as duality, but as pure, radiant presence.

Some say that feeling Sushumna is only due to resistance—otherwise, it flows so purely it’s unfelt. This is also true. When prana encounters knots or granthis, it produces pressure, light, or movement. That’s why beginners often report strong sensations. But as purification deepens, the flow becomes silent. Advanced yogis describe it not as energy moving, but as ego dissolving. You don’t feel the current—you are the current. So yes, that one time I felt it as a beam of light, it may have been partially due to friction—but also because I was near enough to full purity that Sushumna briefly revealed itself. Eventually, even that sensation fades into vastness.

In truth, feeling Sushumna strongly is a middle stage. It’s not the beginning, where energy is locked, nor the end, where all sensation dissolves. It’s the transitional stage where identity still perceives movement, but that movement is central, pure, and nearly egoless. That’s where I was. I don’t need to chase it. I only need to keep refining awareness, allowing balance, and living from the center.