mindfulness – Demystifying Kundalini

How Inner Throat Awareness Changed My Dhyana: A Lived Discovery of Dharana, Sushumna, and Ajna Balance

When Head Pressure Became the Teacher, Not the Problem

For a long time, my yoga and meditation practices were accompanied by a familiar companion—pressure in the head. It was not painful, but it was unmistakable, dense, and demanding. The more sincerely I practiced asanas and dhyana, the more this pressure intensified. Initially, I accepted it as a byproduct of progress, perhaps even a sign of spiritual ascent. But over time, it became clear that something in the internal mechanics of my practice was misaligned. The pressure was not expanding into clarity; it was accumulating. That accumulation itself became the inquiry.

During this phase, I performed sutra neti, initially with the understanding that it was only a cleansing practice. On my first attempts, I could not pass the sutra through the nostrils. After a few days and multiple attempts, I was able to penetrate the right nostril on the third try. Something unexpected happened. Internally, the right nasal passage felt as if it had widened, not just physically but spatially. Subsequent attempts became easier. The left nostril, however, remained untouched, almost untouched territory, what I instinctively called “virgin.” Along with this, I felt a mild scratchy irritation at the opening inside the throat, near the back of the mouth. This sensation was not alarming, but noticeable.

What followed surprised me more than the physical changes. My awareness, which previously stabilized in the brain region during yoga and meditation, spontaneously began settling at the throat. Bliss arose there, not in the head. The head pressure reduced immediately and dramatically, regardless of how intensely I practiced. Pressure was now felt subtly inside the mouth, at the back where the throat begins. With this shift, dhyana became easier, quicker, and more stable. It became clear to me that sutra neti had not only cleansed a passage; it had prepared a center of awareness. For the first time, I understood it as a preparatory practice not just for hygiene, but for regulation. It is just amazing.

Discovering the Hissing Breath and the Throat as a Regulator

As awareness stabilized in the throat, I noticed that breath naturally began moving through the mouth with a hissing quality. This hissing was not forced. It arose spontaneously. It was like a serpent hissing—yes, the Kundalini serpent. Now it became clear why Kundalini Shakti is called a serpent. One more thing became evident: as it progresses upward in the Sushumna, it alternates left and right through Ida and Pingala respectively. It is the movement of a snake—going left, then going right, and with each alternation progressing forward, not straight ahead. This can be seen clearly: first on the left side of the face, then on the right, and finally along the midline at the back of the head.

What was striking was its effect. The sound and subtle pressure maintained dominance of the throat point and prevented awareness from rushing back into the head. The hissing applied a gentle pressure to the scratchy point, keeping it awake. With this, prana no longer felt like it was trying to go upward to the head. Instead, it circulated through the body and returned from the throat. The topmost functioning point no longer felt like Sahasrara but distinctly Vishuddhi.

This realization corrected an earlier assumption. I had thought that higher experiences must always culminate at the crown. But here, stability, bliss, and ease were arising without any demand to move upward. The throat was not a stopping point; it was a turning point.

Humming, Ujjayi, and the Ocean Undercurrent of Breath

When I applied gentle pressure to this scratchy inner throat point using a humming breath, similar to ujjayi pranayama, or even during simple inhalation when breath felt like an undercurrent rather than airflow, the point activated further. The sensation was like the deep currents of the ocean—movement without turbulence. This further sharpened regulation. The more the throat point activated, the less head pressure was possible.

The insight became clear: vibration, pressure, and subtle breath were not techniques here but regulators. The throat was acting as a valve. Bliss was no longer explosive or sharp; it was circulatory and breathable. Over time, the scratchy sensation softened, becoming a stable sensory anchor rather than irritation. However, it dulls with time, so it needs to be reawakened with Sutra Neti at intervals.

From Sound to Silence Without Losing Stability

As humming and hissing softened naturally, the throat did not fall asleep. Instead, silence itself seemed to vibrate there. Breath became subtle, almost invisible, yet the throat remained alive. Awareness rested without fixation. The head remained light. Bliss remained present without pressure. This was not loss of practice; it was practice absorbing itself. The system had shifted from technique to function.

This configuration resolved a long-standing fear—the fear of going too far, of irreversibility, of renunciate drift. Earlier, intense upward movement had always carried a sense of danger. Now, ascent completed a loop. Nothing terminated at the head. Nothing demanded escape from life. The architecture had changed.

Rethinking the Location of the Throat Chakra

Earlier, I believed the throat chakra was located at the middle front of the neck. Now, lived experience showed me that the operative center was inside, at the back of the mouth where the throat begins. This raised a question: was my earlier understanding wrong, or was this another sub-chakra?

The clarity that emerged was subtle but firm. The earlier understanding was not wrong; it was incomplete. The front of the neck corresponds to expression, voice, emotion, and outward communication. The inner throat is the regulatory core where breath, sound, prana, and awareness converge. These are not two chakras but two functional layers of the same Vishuddhi field. One expresses. The other governs flow.

This understanding was further confirmed when I noticed that strong emotions still created sensations in the mid-neck region. These effects were moderate and transient, linked to emotional expression. In contrast, the inner throat effects were stabilizing, structural, and long-lasting. Emotion moved through the front; regulation lived inside.

Early Sushumna Flow Through Inner Vishuddhi

Another critical discovery followed. Activating the inner throat chakra stimulated Sushumna flow earlier and more smoothly during the very beginning of dhyana. Previously, meditation had an entry phase filled with effort. Now, the system seemed aligned before meditation even began. Ida and Pingala quieted naturally. The central channel did not need to be forced open. It simply conducted.

This was not premature Sushumna dominance. It was regulated access. The throat acted as a gatekeeper, ensuring balance before ascent. As a result, bliss circulated, thoughts loosened, and awareness stabilized without dissociation or fear.

Why Ajna Became Easy Only After Alignment

A crucial realization followed. Immediately placing focus on Ajna was demanding and challenging. It created effort, pressure, and disturbance in pranic flow. But when Sushumna was first stabilized through the throat or even lower chakras, Ajna became effortless later. Ajna no longer functioned independently. It became linked to the lower centers through common awareness.

Trying to isolate Ajna created head pressure and disturbed circulation. Allowing Ajna to arise within a unified axis created clarity without strain. Ajna revealed itself not as a ruler but as a relay.

Dharana Reunderstood Through Experience

This brought clarity to the meaning of dharana. Dharana was not holding attention at a point. Dharana was establishing an internal architecture where attention no longer needed to be held. When effort was present, dharana was incomplete. When pressure arose, dharana was incomplete.

For me, dharana occurred when awareness stabilized at the inner throat, Sushumna conducted naturally, lateral pulls quieted, and circulation established itself. At that point, dhyana emerged automatically. Meditation no longer began; it continued. Ajna participated without dominating. Thoughts lost traction without suppression.

Dharana, in lived reality, was not concentration. It was removal of everything that prevented the system from holding itself.

The Final Integration

What changed through this journey was not technique but orientation. The system moved from vertical ambition to circulatory intelligence. Bliss became nourishing instead of demanding. Head pressure became impossible, not managed. Fear dissolved not through reassurance but through structural balance. Practice became livable.

The throat did not replace the head. It taught the head how to belong to the whole. Ajna did not disappear. It learned to function within the axis rather than above it. Dharana ceased to be effort. Dhyana ceased to be a goal. Awareness ceased to chase peaks and began to circulate as life.

This discovery was not accidental. It was the body’s correction of an incomplete architecture. Once seen, it does not reverse. One does not go back to diagram-based spirituality after touching functional truth. The chakra was not relocated. It was entered.

And with that, meditation stopped demanding attention and began returning it.

Krishna Living: When Play, Love, and Life Become Yoga

Some lives do not follow a straight line.
They unfold like rivers—sometimes playful, sometimes forceful, sometimes quiet, but always guided by a deeper terrain beneath the surface.

This is the story of such a life.

Not a saint’s biography.
Not a philosophy.
Not a method.

But a lived exploration of what Sanātana Dharma looks like when it happens naturally—through childhood, love, confusion, failure, attraction, restraint, devotion, awakening, withdrawal, and maturity.

Early Life: When Survival Itself Is Yoga

Before conscious seeking begins, life itself often prepares the ground.

In Premyogi’s early years, survival was not guaranteed. Illness, loss, and narrow escapes marked childhood. Siblings did not survive. Circumstances were harsh. Yet something endured quietly, without panic, without grasping.

Even at birth, there was no cry.

It was as if prāṇa had already learned to settle.

From a yogic lens, this was not tragedy alone. It was tapas—not imposed, but lived. Yamas and niyamas enforced not by discipline, but by circumstance. Attachment loosened early. Fear visited, but did not dominate.

Sanskaras formed not through teaching, but through atmosphere—scriptures read aloud at home, rituals performed with humility, service offered without discrimination, dignity maintained without wealth.

Krishna-living does not begin with devotion.
It begins with resilience without bitterness.

Childhood and Play: Līlā Before Knowledge

As childhood unfolded, Premyogi did not become serious or withdrawn. Quite the opposite.

There was mischief, wandering, curiosity, frankness, and play. He observed people more than books. He roamed markets and parks. He learned human behavior instinctively. Authority was questioned—not rebelliously, but naturally.

This is an often-missed truth:
Krishna-consciousness is not solemn.
It is playful clarity.

Play is not distraction when awareness is present.
It is līlā.

Even conflicts, accidents, and encounters with danger carried lessons—not moral ones, but energetic ones. When to act. When not to interfere. When force worsens imbalance. When restraint is intelligence.

Without knowing the language of yoga, life itself taught it.

Adolescence: When Attraction Becomes a Teacher

Then came attraction.

Not romance as society understands it, but a powerful inner stirring triggered by a feminine presence. There was no contact. No confession. No possession. And yet the energy was intense—strong enough to awaken deeper layers of the psyche.

This was not repression.
It was fullness without discharge.

Held in nonduality, attraction refined itself. Energy rose instead of spilling outward. Desire did not fragment attention; it sharpened it. The mind became clearer, studies deeper, confidence steadier.

Here rasa was born—not as lust, but as sustained joy.

Rasa, in this sense, was not excitement. It was taste—the deep savoring of life without ownership. Beauty was neither rejected nor consumed. It was allowed to act as a yogic force.

This phase revealed a crucial insight:
love without contact can rotate energy rather than dissipate it.

Bhakti: When Love Loses Its Object

As time passed, physical separation happened naturally. The outer form disappeared.

Yet something unexpected occurred.

The inner presence did not fade—it spread.

Attraction completed its work and transformed into bhakti. Not devotion to a deity or belief, but devotion to presence itself. Remembrance flowed without effort. Meditation happened without posture.

Life itself became the practice.

This bhakti did not withdraw Premyogi from the world. It made him more attentive, more capable, more grounded. Stillness coexisted with movement. Silence lived inside activity.

This was bhakti born of lived rasa—not learned, not adopted, not chosen.

Gopī Samādhi: When Love Becomes Ground

As remembrance deepened, a threshold was crossed.

The beloved dissolved as an object. Love remained without direction. Attention forgot itself. Samādhi arose—not from silence, but from love.

Then came a brief, decisive moment.

In a dream-like waking state, Premyogi experienced a total collapse of observer and observed. River, bridge, mountain, sun, and self appeared as one unified reality. Everything was equally luminous. Nothing was higher or lower.

It lasted only seconds.
But it changed everything.

This was savikalpa-samādhi—a glimpse of self-realisation. Not sustained, not repeatable by will, but unmistakable.

And then it faded.

Not as loss.
As completion.

Withdrawal: When Sweetness Finishes Its Work

Krishna-living, by nature, does not last forever.

Its intensity softened. The inner image faded gently. There was no grief, no clinging. Readiness replaced longing.

This withdrawal was not renunciation. It was maturity.

What remained was fragrance—guidance without attraction. Protection without effort. The inner refinement guarded Premyogi through education, work, marriage, responsibility, temptation, and pressure.

Krishna-living no longer burned.
But it kept him safe.

Transition: From Sweetness to Power

Eventually, even sweetness felt insufficient.

Not wrong—just complete.

A new need arose: structure, direction, power. The feminine tone gave way to a masculine clarity. The image of Dada Guru replaced the consort. Ritambharā—truth-bearing intelligence—began to dominate.

There was no visible austerity. No public practice. Yet inwardly, discipline and tantra began quietly.

Krishna had refined the heart.
Now Shakti would build the spine.

The Deeper Pattern

Looking back, Premyogi saw that nothing was accidental.

Flooded rivers crossed safely. Lineages tested. Play, love, loss, awakening, withdrawal—all followed an intelligent sequence.

Water and energy behaved the same way. When consciousness accompanied intensity, even floods made way. When awareness guided energy, danger turned into passage.

In this light, the Bhāgavata Purāṇa no longer appeared as mythology—but as ancient spiritual case studies. Patterns repeating across time, expressed differently in different lives. All the scriptures evolved from the Vedas, the Vedas are called Shrutis. Shruti means knowledge gained through listening over ages. These Shrutis are different cases of awakenings. By studying them, an average pattern of events experienced by awakened beings was identified and written in a style simple enough for the general public. This became the timeless Bhagavata Purana. In it, the main event was love, so it is love-dominated.

Similarly, Tantra-type listenings formed the Shiva Purana, with Shiva as the main character. Since the primary events in such awakenings were Tantric in nature, the Shiva Purana is Tantra-oriented. Likewise, Shakti-oriented and Rama-oriented scriptures were created, all evolved from the Vedas as listenings.

It was a scientific age—not material science, but spiritual science. Data collection, segregation, averaging, and analysis were the same as today, but they were applied to spirituality in the form of boundless human growth, not the limited physical growth of today.

The Essence

This journey does not argue for belief.
It does not offer technique.
It does not promise permanence.

It reveals something simpler and deeper:

Awakening often comes through intensity, not avoidance
Love can be yogic when held without collapse
Sweetness is a phase, not a destination
Withdrawal can be intelligence, not loss
Power becomes safe only after the heart is refined

Krishna-living is not the end.

It is the preparation.

When play teaches awareness,
when love teaches restraint,
when devotion teaches stillness,
and when sweetness teaches when to leave—

life itself becomes the guru.

And the river, however flooded, always finds a way forward.

Krishna Living is not about imitating the divine, but dissolving the ego that stands between life and love. When play, love, and life become yoga, they do so in the spirit Krishna revealed—effortless, spontaneous, and free of self-importance. The river of life flows playfully yet powerfully, just as His leelas flowed from pure awareness, not from desire to prove or possess. Childhood joy, mischief, and curiosity here are reminders of innocence, not identity—signposts pointing toward surrender rather than superiority. To live this way as a premyogi is to walk lightly, love deeply, and act joyfully, knowing that all beauty belongs to Krishna alone, and we are merely participants in His rhythm, not claimants of His grace.

Dancing Serpent: How Inner Energy Learns Direction and Transforms Life

The Forgotten Intelligence of Inner Energy

Every human being carries a living force inside, ancient, intelligent, and sensitive to every thought and emotion. It rises when the mind becomes clear, and it falls when the mind becomes restless. This force is not separate from life; it is life itself moving through the body and mind. Yet modern living has forgotten how to listen to it. We either suppress this energy out of fear or spill it unconsciously through exhaustion, desire, and distraction. The result is a life that feels busy but empty, active but unfulfilled.

Indian tradition symbolized this energy as the serpent, not because it is dangerous, but because it moves in waves, not lines. A serpent does not climb a ladder; it dances. It rises, pauses, coils, and rises again. In the same way, inner energy is not meant to move in one direction forever. It is meant to learn rhythm, balance, and direction. When this rhythm is lost, life feels like struggle. When it is restored, life becomes a flow.

Why Energy Needs Direction, Not Suppression

The greatest misunderstanding about inner energy is the belief that it must either be released or controlled. Both approaches fail. Suppression creates pressure, anxiety, and illness. Unconscious release creates weakness, dissatisfaction, and lack of purpose. Direction is the missing key. Energy that is guided does not need to be forced, and energy that is guided does not need to escape.

When energy moves downward without awareness, it becomes raw desire, endless activity, mental noise, and emotional instability. When energy moves upward without grounding, it becomes detachment, dryness, and disconnection from life. But when energy is allowed to move down and up in conscious rhythm, it nourishes the entire system. This is the true meaning of the Nagin Dance — not sexuality, not mysticism, but intelligent movement.

How Thought Controls the Rise and Fall of Energy

Energy follows thought more closely than breath. Lower thinking pulls energy downward. Higher thinking lifts it upward. When the mind is trapped in fear, anger, or desire, energy sinks into the lower centers of the body, fueling survival and reaction. When the mind touches clarity, meaning, or nonduality, energy rises naturally toward the brain and heart, creating peace and insight.

This does not mean lower energy is bad or higher energy is good. Both are necessary. Worldly life requires energy in the lower centers to work, digest, build, and act. Inner life requires energy in the upper centers to reflect, understand, and rest. Growth happens only when these two worlds communicate. Energy that never descends becomes stagnant. Energy that never rises becomes blind. Movement is life.

The Dance Between Worldliness and Awakening

Many people believe spirituality means leaving the world, but this is a misunderstanding. True awakening happens within the world, not away from it. The world feeds the serpent with raw experience, and awakening refines that experience into wisdom. The dance between action and silence is what creates maturity.

When energy is handled well, work becomes lighter, relationships become smoother, and creativity becomes effortless. The mind stops fighting life and starts cooperating with it. This is why the sages never taught escape. They taught right living. They knew that energy must be educated, not rejected.

Relationships as Energy Laboratories

Energy is most clearly seen in relationships. When two people interact without awareness, energy leaks through conflict, expectation, control, and emotional hunger. When awareness is present, energy circulates instead of spilling. The body relaxes, the breath slows, and connection becomes nourishing rather than draining.

This is why ethics, consent, and mutual growth are essential. Energy work without respect becomes manipulation. Energy work without freedom becomes harm. The serpent magnifies whatever is hidden, so if fear or dominance is present, it grows. If patience, clarity, and equality are present, the dance becomes healing.

Why Awakening Is Not a Dramatic Event

Many seekers chase mystical experiences, believing them to be awakening. But awakening is much simpler and much quieter. It is the moment energy learns direction. Bliss, visions, silence, and merging are aftereffects, not the goal. They come and go. What remains is stability, clarity, and balance.

A truly awakened person does not look special. They work better, listen better, love better, and suffer less. Their mind is steady, their body is responsive, and their relationships are cleaner. Awakening is not escape from humanity; it is perfection of humanity.

The Role of Daily Life in Sustaining Ascent

Energy cannot be held by meditation alone. It must be supported by daily habits. Sleep, food, movement, breath, work, and silence all shape its flow. When life is chaotic, energy becomes chaotic. When life is simple, energy becomes clear.

Integration is the difference between temporary experience and lasting transformation. When energy work becomes part of routine, the serpent no longer needs effort to rise. It rises by habit. The body remembers. The breath remembers. Life itself remembers.

From Serpent to Nectar: When Energy Becomes Nourishment

In the beginning, energy feels like a force to be controlled. Later, it feels like a companion. Finally, it becomes invisible. It turns into nectar. Life itself becomes nourishing. Even difficulty carries meaning. Even loss carries clarity. Even aging carries wisdom.

This is not excitement. It is steadiness. It is reliability. It is quiet joy that does not depend on conditions. The serpent has learned its dance, and the dance has become life.

Humanity Is the True Foundation of Spiritual Growth

Some people need nondual awareness to live well. Others need simple humanity without philosophy. Both are valid. What matters is direction. If energy is moving upward in intention, life grows. If energy is moving downward unconsciously, life contracts.

Humanity must never be sacrificed for awakening. Compassion, respect, patience, and kindness are not optional. They are signs of correct direction. Any path that destroys humanity is not spiritual, no matter how powerful it looks.

The Serpent Is Already Moving

You do not need to awaken energy. It is already awake. You only need to stop confusing it. When direction is learned, rhythm returns. When rhythm returns, life stops being a struggle and becomes a dance. The serpent has always been dancing inside you. This book (DANCING SERPENT: The Play of Inner Energies), and this understanding, simply teaches you how to notice it, respect it, and let it move without fear.

The Single Law of the Serpent: Always Up-Facing

The main point is simple: the serpent should always remain up-facing, no matter at which level or chakra it is present. It may rise or fall, it may move slowly or quickly, but its direction must remain upward. The level does not matter; the facing does. Even when energy descends for worldly work, digestion, action, or rest, it should still be oriented upward in intention. Only during moments of release or escape from the body does the serpent turn down-facing for a few moments, and even then it must be turned upward again as soon as possible. This timely turning is the key to balance and growth. Believe it or not, an up-facing nagin is the root of everything good and divine in human life, while a down-facing nagin becomes the root of confusion, decline, and suffering. Direction is destiny.

When energy dances consciously, life itself becomes art.

Upfacing Serpent and the Moment of Self-Realisation

The serpent that is upfacing symbolises an awakened Kundalini. Only one who is awake stands upright and faces growth, expansion, and light. A sleeping being naturally remains downfacing—inclined toward inertia, darkness, and loss. Orientation here is not physical but existential: awareness that turns upward seeks evolution; awareness that turns downward dissolves into unconsciousness. kundalini awakening is as simple as energy faing up, nothing mysterious.

The experience of full nonduality, where the sense of self merges completely with the meditation image and simultaneously expands in all directions, accompanied by overwhelming bliss and spontaneous expression for a few moments, is self-realisation. It is not imagination, trance, or emotional high. It is the direct outcome of a sustained Kundalini awakening, where energy, awareness, and identity dissolve into a single, indivisible reality—beyond observer and observed.

Kundalini Awakening: Simply Energy Facing Up

Kundalini awakening is nothing mysterious. It is simply energy facing upward. When energy turns upward, growth happens. When it turns downward, dissipation happens. There is no symbolism required beyond this basic orientation.

Upfacing energy expresses wakefulness, evolution, and integration. Downfacing energy expresses sleep, decay, and loss of awareness. Awakening is not an event, a vision, or a power—it is a directional shift of energy.

When this upward-facing energy is sustained, awareness naturally becomes steady, nondual, and self-luminous. Bliss, clarity, and self-realisation arise as consequences, not goals. Mysticism begins only when this simple fact is forgotten.

When Motion Reveals Nonduality: A Travel Darshan from Sky, Forest, and Ocean

A Journey That Was Not Just Travel

This was a family trip to coastal areas. We went by aeroplane, stayed near the sea, walked among coconut trees, and spent time watching waves. Outwardly, it looked like a normal vacation. Inwardly, something subtle unfolded. Nonduality became more visible — not through meditation, not through effort, but through motion.

I noticed that when the world moved fast, the sense of separation weakened. The faster and more total the movement, the more clearly nonduality revealed itself.

Aeroplane: Nonduality at High Speed

The aeroplane felt special. Not just because it was high, but because it was top in motion. When you sit inside a flying machine, your body is moving but you are not acting. Motion happens through you, not by you. The ground, clouds, distance, time — all flow together. Motionless non-living joins with the in motion living producing nonduality. Human considers motion as sign of life instinctively.

In this state, fixed reference points disappear. The mind cannot hold divisions. Living and non-living begin to mix. Metal, engine, sky, body, breath — everything moves as one system. This mixing itself produced nonduality.

I realized something important: motion is the primary quality of the living world. When non-living objects join a living motion-field, separation collapses. The aeroplane became a form of moving samadhi — a dynamic samadhi. It was not stillness, but total flow.

When I added quantum darshan to this perception — the understanding that at the deepest level there is no real separation between matter and life — nonduality reached near its peak.

Not the absolute peak, because motion still remains. But the highest possible nonduality within movement.

The second amazing movement of the plane is its upward rise, which feels like rising kundalini energy toward sahasrar. Sahasrar symbolically represents nonduality, bliss, and awakening, so this upward motion naturally evokes the same sense of expansion and release.

Coconut Trees: When Matter Looks Back at You

At the coast, coconut trees appeared intensely beautiful. But not because they had some special beauty different from other objects. Their beauty came from recognition.

Their shape is human-like:

the crown of leaves like a head
the long naked trunk like a body
the swaying like dancing
the rhythm like laughter and enjoyment

When wind moved them, they looked like they were communicating with each other. A group of coconut trees looked like a group of people talking, laughing, living.

This again was the same mixing of living and non-living worlds. Motion blurred the boundary.

When the thought arose that even at the quantum level they are not different from us, bliss amplified. Perception and understanding aligned. Separation dropped not only visually but ontologically.

It was not that trees became human. It was that human and tree revealed the same pattern of life.

Animal Perception: Entering the Forest Mind

At that moment I understood something else: animals perceive forests differently from humans.

Humans see objects.
Animals see patterns.

Animals read:

movement
rhythm
density
silence
vibration

To them, a forest is not a collection of things. It is a single living field. Wind, branches, birds, ground — all are messages. Animals are not in the forest. They are the forest sensing itself. Animals do not divide experience into “me” and “forest” just like human do. For them, there is no separate observer standing inside nature. Sensing simply happens as one continuous field of movement, smell, sound, and vibration. When something changes, the whole field responds together. That is why it feels as if the forest itself is sensing — because perception is not localized in a self, but distributed across the living field.

Animals have no benefit of objectify the world. They don’t work blindly nor they need to work so. Lack of hands and brain limits their working ability. So draining energy in objectifying world has no use for them instead it can divert energy from basic need of food and survival. So instinctively they follow sensational patterns to act and react quickly. Together, what’ll they loose natural bliss of nonduality when duality has no major worldly role to play for them. However, little duality is adopted even them as petty worldly roles also demand it but not extreme duality like human.

When I saw trees communicating, I briefly entered this animal mode of perception. But with a difference.

Animals live in nonduality, but they do not attain samadhi.

Why? Because samadhi requires awareness knowing itself. Animals are in the flow, but they do not reflect on the flow. Animals remain continuously in the flow of perception, because their attention is always responding outwardly to the environment. They cannot voluntarily slow the nervous system, pause the breath, or rest awareness in itself. They need to be always alert for survival. Humans, through calm sitting, slow pranayama, or natural stillness like keval kumbhak, can create a pause in the flow. In that pause, awareness reflects on itself. That reflection is samadhi — something animals live but cannot consciously realize. They live unity, but they do not know unity. That’s why it’s described everywhere in scriptures that animals act every way like a human act except only yoga and achieving brahman through it, so one must not waste his life in petty things without practicing yoga.

A constantly active karmayogi lives close to the natural flow of life, somewhat like animals do, where action happens without much inner division. This creates presence, grounding, and a weak sense of separation, but awareness remains outward-moving. However, unlike animals he does it with super intelligence that’s why he gets many benefits in worldly functioning. They realise they are doing karmayoga and instead of continuously being in nonduality flow helplessly like animals, they adopted it intentionally intermittently at will so they realise its real benefits and harness those for their worldly and spiritual development. I think what’s depicted each god and goddess with a companion animal is a metaphor for their nondual lifestyle. For awakening and samadhi to arise, such a person must intentionally rest, slow down, and allow attention to turn back on itself. Without this pause, even pure action cannot become realization. Yet this very life of flowing action becomes a great advantage later, because when the karmayogi finally sits in stillness, reflection happens easily and samadhi comes with less struggle.

Animals live in unity naturally, without thinking about it. Humans lose that unity, but can stop, look, and come back to it consciously. When a human returns to unity with awareness, that is samadhi.

I was perceiving like an animal and knowing it like a human — that knowing turned perception into darshan and amplified bliss.

Ocean: The Living Rhythm of Existence

The ocean felt alive. Not as a belief, but as an experience of resonance.

Waves came forward like a hug.
They went back like stepping away after a kiss — not to increase intimacy, but to prevent too much of it.

The continuous coming and going felt like human life itself:

approach and withdrawal
effort and rest
work and pause
earning and returning

The ocean was pure motion. No fixed form, no stable edge, no permanent boundary. My body, breath, and the waves moved together. Again, nonduality appeared through motion.

It was clear that the ocean was not literally hugging me, and trees were not literally dancing. This was not imagination or projection in a pathological sense. It was field perception — where meaning arises from rhythm and unity arises from shared movement.

Bliss did not come from the ocean. It came from dropping the burden of separation.

Motion as the Secret Teacher of Nonduality

Stillness is one door to nonduality. Motion is another — and often a more accessible one for worldly life.

When motion becomes total, separation cannot survive.

When matter moves like life, and life recognizes itself in matter, the world becomes a single body.

This is why:

travel opens awareness
forests heal
oceans calm
flight feels liberating

The nervous system relaxes because it stops dividing reality into inside and outside.

A Grounded Darshan for Daily Life

What happened on this journey was not escapism. I did not lose my body. I did not lose my family. I did not leave the world. The experience came, stayed, and left naturally.

This is important.

It shows that nonduality does not require renunciation. It can arise in movement, in travel, in family life, in nature, in ordinary moments.

This is a mature nonduality — one that lives with life, not against it.

Closing Note: A Simple Truth

When motion becomes shared, the boundary between human and world softens, and existence feels like one continuous activity.

This is not philosophy.
This is travel.
This is perception.
This is lived darshan.

And this is how nonduality quietly reveals itself — not in caves, but between waves, trees, clouds, and family laughter.

When Buddhi Chooses Sleep: The Yogic Psychology of Gandhārī and Dhṛtarāṣṭra

A Moment in the Mahābhārata That Demands Deeper Seeing

In the Mahabharata, Gandhārī’s decision to cover her eyes for life so as to share the blindness of her husband Dhritarāṣṭra is often praised as the highest form of devotion. Yet when looked at quietly, without sentiment, this act does not remain simple. Something in it presses for a deeper reading. It feels less like sacrifice and more like a decisive inner posture—one that silently shapes destiny.

This is not a story about physical blindness alone. It is a story about consciousness, intelligence, and the subtle ways bondage continues even in the presence of love.

Jīva as Dhṛtarāṣṭra: Blindness Carried Forward

Dhṛtarāṣṭra represents the Jīva—the individual being shaped by past karma. His blindness is not accidental and not limited to the eyes. It symbolizes a long-standing incapacity to see clearly, to discriminate, to restrain desire and attachment. This blindness is carried forward from previous births as samskāra. In this birth, it simply expresses itself openly.

Nothing in the story suggests that this Jīva could not have been aided. Blindness here is not fate sealed forever; it is a condition awaiting either reinforcement or correction.

Gandhārī as New Buddhi in a Fresh Birth

Gandhārī represents Buddhi, the faculty of intelligence and discernment. She is not blind by nature. She enters this life with clear seeing, moral strength, and the capacity to guide. Before marriage, she stands close to what can be called samaṣṭi buddhi—intelligence that is still aligned with universal order rather than personal entanglement.

This is crucial: Buddhi arrives fresh in this birth. It is capable of seeing what the Jīva cannot.

The Warnings of Elders and Gurus

The elders and gurus advise Gandhārī clearly to keep her eyes open. This is not a social detail; it is symbolic. It represents śāstra, dharma, and higher wisdom reminding Buddhi of its responsibility. The message is simple: do not abandon discernment. Love does not require blindness. Partnership does not demand the sacrifice of intelligence.

At this moment, a real choice exists.

The Decisive Act: Buddhi Choosing Slumber

Gandhārī sees the blindness of the Jīva she is about to join. Instead of remaining awake and serving as a mirror, she chooses symmetry. She decides that if the Jīva cannot see, she too will not see. This is not ignorance and not compulsion. It is a conscious, emotionally motivated decision.

Here, Buddhi abandons its dharma of viveka. It chooses companionship over correction, harmony over awakening, loyalty over truth. Intelligence does not illuminate; it lies down beside blindness. It is like the Kundalinī snake coiled and Śakti sleeping in the Mūlādhāra chakra.

This is the silent turning point of the epic.

Why This Is Not Compassion in Yogic Psychology

In yoga, compassion never requires the dimming of intelligence. Buddhi exists to bring clarity to the Jīva, not to anesthetize it. When Buddhi voluntarily suspends its seeing, it does not become noble; it becomes dormant. By blindfolding herself, Gandhārī validates the Jīva’s blindness and removes the very friction that could have led to awakening.

This is love that prefers peace over truth—and therefore sustains bondage.

Why the Jīva Remains Unawakened

A Jīva does not awaken simply because Buddhi is present. Awakening happens only when Buddhi stays awake. In this pairing, Buddhi becomes a sedative rather than medicine. The Jīva remains blind not because help was absent, but because help chose not to function.

This is the deepest tragedy: intelligence was available, but it refused its role.

Later Power, Earlier Failure

Gandhārī later demonstrates immense tapas and spiritual power. Her curse after the war is devastating. Yet this power appears only after irreparable damage has occurred. If she had seen and acted early, things could have changed. Acting only at the end changed nothing. A blind Buddhi practicing yoga may acquire various powers and siddhis, but it does not attain awakening.

Blindness postpones responsibility. What is not corrected early returns later as destruction. Similarly, a blind Buddhi practicing yoga may acquire various powers and siddhis later in life, but it does not attain awakening.

A Pattern That Repeats Everywhere

This story is not confined to an ancient epic. It repeats wherever intelligence dims itself to preserve relationship, wherever clarity is sacrificed to avoid disturbance, wherever love fears awakening more than ignorance. In such moments, Buddhi chooses sleep, and Jīva continues as it is.

Awareness cannot be awakened by someone who refuses to see.

Final Understanding: How Bondage Continues Quietly

The Jīva was blind due to past karma.
The Buddhi was seeing in this birth.
But Buddhi chose sleep over sight, companionship over awakening.

Thus blindness continued—not by fate, not by ignorance, but by a conscious choice made in the name of love.

Liberation does not fail because light is absent.
It fails when intelligence willingly turns away from seeing.

Beyond Death and Liberation: Holding Consciousness Between Worlds

A Personal Reflection on Trishanku, Vishvamitra, Kundalini, and the Inner Guru

How Compassion, Ritual, and Inner Prayer Hold Consciousness Until Liberation Ripens

The Classical Story of Trishanku: The King Suspended Between Heaven and Earth

In the ancient tradition, King Trishanku of the Ikshvāku lineage desired to ascend to heaven in his physical body. When the royal priests refused to perform the rite, he approached the sage Viśvāmitra, whose tapas was unmatched. Through his austere power, Viśvāmitra attempted to send Trishanku to the celestial realms, provoking resistance from the gods. When the ascent was obstructed, Trishanku was left suspended between heaven and earth, neither accepted by the devas nor returned to the mortal world. Refusing to let him fall, Viśvāmitra established him in a unique state—neither fully liberated nor condemned—where he remained held by the force of the sage’s tapas.

Rethinking the Trishanku Story: Blessing, Not Punishment

I have often felt that the story of Vishvamitra and King Trishanku is misunderstood. Most readings stop at ego, rivalry, or defiance of the gods. But to me, it feels very different. It feels like a blessing, not a punishment. Vishvamitra did not abandon Trishanku halfway. He held him.

I feel Vishvamitra created an abode for Trishanku not out of anger, but out of compassion. However, it may be understood as a spiritual anger directed toward the devas for denying liberation to Trishanku. It was pure and positive—aimed at growth, and getting inspiration to do a great job, not rivalry. Trishanku was not ready for full liberation, yet he should not have fallen back. So Vishvamitra, through tapas, prayer, and sheer inner power, held him in between—high enough to be safe, steady enough to ripen. This suspension itself feels like grace. Liberation is not always immediate. Sometimes it is protection from regression.

Rituals for the Departed: Collective Tapas in Everyday Life

When I look at society today, I see the same intention expressed differently. People perform Bhagavatam kathas, shraddhas, yagyas, pindas, and tarpanas, prayers, rest in peace or RIP for their departed loved ones. These are not empty rituals. They are collective efforts to hold consciousness high enough so that it does not collapse back into unconscious karmic drift. Vishvamitra did this alone. Ordinary people do it together, repeatedly, across time.

Seen this way, Trishanku becomes an archetype. Not damned. Not liberated. But protected. Suspended with care.

When the Myth Became Personal: My Own Experience

This is not just philosophy for me. It touched my life directly.

Dream Visitations and the Call for Assistance

After the death of a close acquaintance, I experienced her presence repeatedly in dream visitations. These were not frightening. They were not dramatic. They felt like a seeking—an unspoken request for assistance in liberation. I did not try to command anything. I did not panic. I prayed.

Prayer, Kundalini, and the Meaning of Urging God

I prayed strongly. I urged kundalini for her peace, for her liberation, for forgiveness of acts that might be preventing liberation, for release from unresolved weight. For me, kundalini is representative of God—not as a personality, but as the deepest intelligence of integration. Urging kundalini is urging God. It is aligning intention with the highest coherence of consciousness. We may even call it a personified dhyāna-supporting chitra that often lingers during savikalpa dhyāna and, as it converges toward nirvikalpa dhyāna, enables a smooth and rapid transition.

I also urge liberation for all beings, twice daily, in my dhyana. I do this because liberation is not a limited resource. It is not like physical matter that gets exhausted by giving. It is like light. It can be wished for all, together, without loss. This understanding feels very clear to me.

Signs of Resolution: Clarity, Softening, and Residual Sadness

Over time, I noticed something important. The appearances in dreams became clearer. Calmer. More refined. Each interaction carried less confusion. There was a subtle sadness present—not fear, not agitation—but a gentle sorrow. It felt connected to not being perfectly cared for during illness and the dying phase. I did not try to fix this sadness. I simply allowed it. I know it will resolve one day on its own.

This clarity felt like confirmation—not in a grand mystical sense, but in a quiet, settling way. Something was integrating. Something was being completed.

Kundalini as Dhyana Chitra: The Inner Guru Clarified

I want to be clear about one thing. When I speak of kundalini here, I mean dhyana chitra. The inner meditative image. The inner guru. Not a voice. Not an external command. Not an authority that tells me what to do. It is orientation, not instruction. It does not demand action. It dissolves naturally in meditation.

Where Resolution Truly Happens

On careful observation, I see that nothing was resolved outside me. The resolution happened within. A tense relational field completed itself, which is why clarity increased and interactions became softer instead of more intense.

This reflects the true purpose of ancient rituals. They were meant as acts of love, not fear—support rather than rescue, holding rather than pulling. Their role was to stabilize awareness, reduce downward pull, and allow natural ripening to occur. It means these practices certainly work in this world, and they may also have effects beyond it, in the afterworld as well.

Yogic Understanding: Death as Pratyahara and Suspension

From a yogic perspective, death itself is forced pratyahara. The danger is regression into old samskaras. Holding practices—whether tapas, prayer, ritual, or remembrance—keep awareness above that collapse point or above throat chakra. Trishanku’s suspension mirrors this exactly.

Psychological Grounding: Grief, Holding, and Completion

From a psychological perspective, this is also healthy grief. Remembering without clinging. Caring without binding. Letting go without denial. Societies that abandon ritual often carry unresolved trauma because transitions are left unheld.

Responsibility Without Burden

One crucial truth remains central to me. I am not responsible for liberating anyone. I am responsible for not obstructing liberation with fear, guilt, or attachment. My prayers are permission, not intervention. Opening, not pushing.

Why Experiences Fade When Resolution Occurs

That is why these experiences naturally fade. Fewer visitations. Less emotional charge. More neutrality. Eventual quiet disappearance. Resolution softens. It does not escalate.

This is the role of the inner guru. Not to act. Not to control. But to allow completion to happen without force.

Returning to Trishanku: The Archetype of Compassionate Suspension

When I look back at Vishvamitra and Trishanku now, the story feels intimate, not mythic. One consciousness holding another until gravity loosens. One being refusing to let another fall, without pretending readiness that is not yet there.

Different methods. Same compassion.

Not a Conclusion, But a Resting Place

This blog is not a conclusion. It is a resting place. A suspension that does not need to hurry. Just as liberation itself does not hurry.

Chapter 31: lobha third basic emotion in quantum world

In Tantra, the impulses of desire, anger, and greed are not treated as moral weaknesses. They are understood as natural forces through which energy moves in every individual and in the universe. Kāma becomes the drive to create, Krodha becomes the power to correct or change, and Lobha becomes the tendency to collect and protect what has been gained. Among these, Lobha (greed) is seen as the urge to expand and preserve energy. It is similar to how the universe gathers energy before releasing it. Therefore, instead of being condemned immediately, Lobha is first understood as an energetic movement of accumulation, which can later be refined into awareness, contentment, and responsible preservation.

LOBHA (Greed) — The Urge to Accumulate, Expand, and Hold Energy

Quantum Energy Quantization

In quantum physics, even an electron displays a tendency to accumulate energy. It usually remains in a stable, low-energy orbit, but when it absorbs additional energy, it holds that extra energy for a period of time before releasing it as light. This temporary hoarding is comparable to the human mind’s habit of collecting and holding on to experiences, belongings, status, or recognition, often out of a fear of losing them. In this sense, Lobha is understood as the inertia of energy, a natural force that attempts to retain what has been gained. In an atom, such retention causes temporary instability; in human life, it manifests as anxiety, possessiveness, or the inability to let go. Greed, therefore, is not only a moral challenge but an energetic stage in which accumulation waits for maturity before it can release and transform.

If we have hoarded a lot, it is not easy to let it go at once, because those hoardings occupy space in our mental well. That space cannot be vacated immediately due to the fear that their removal will create a dark void inside. Over time, however, our experiences mature and our knowledge grows. This growing awareness begins to take their place and gradually pushes the old hoardings to the sides. When the pressure of knowledge and awareness becomes strong enough, it naturally replaces those hoardings in the mental well. Then, we become capable of letting them go physically as well.

Another option is to start hoarding better-quality material, which automatically displaces the old and outdated hoardings. However, this is only a temporary, makeshift solution. Permanent de-hoarding is possible only through minimalism supported by knowledge and awareness.

Gravitational Accretion (Star Formation)

In astrophysics, stars are born out of a gradual process of accumulation. Vast clouds of dust and gas pull surrounding matter toward themselves through gravity. As this mass grows, internal pressure and heat increase, and when the accumulation reaches a critical point, the cloud ignites to form a star. This natural process reflects the working of Lobha in human life. Greed begins by collecting wealth, power, information, or recognition, drawing more and more into the orbit of personal desire. With time, the pressure of what we possess often becomes unbearable, forcing either a collapse through dissatisfaction or a transformation into something creative and radiant. In this way, Lobha can be understood as the gravitational pull of the ego, which gathers energy around the idea of “me.” If the accumulated energy becomes refined rather than suffocating, it can ignite into insight and wisdom, just as a star is born from the intense accumulation of matter.

Quantum Vacuum Energy (Zero-Point Energy)

According to quantum physics, space is never truly empty. Even when matter and radiation are removed, the vacuum continues to hold an immense sea of fluctuating energy known as zero-point energy. This energy is never fully released and remains as a constant background activity of the universe. In human experience, the silent mind also contains subtle impulses and unexpressed desires. These latent tendencies, or vāsanās, continue to vibrate beneath the surface even when no visible craving is present. In this sense, Lobha can be understood as the quiet restlessness of existence itself—the tendency to hold potential, to preserve possibility before it becomes action. It is a kind of cosmic “memory,” a subtle stickiness by which consciousness continues to sustain creation, even in stillness.

Magnetic Saturation and Hysteresis

In physics, a magnetized material continues to hold magnetism even after the external magnetic field that created that alignment is removed. This phenomenon, known as magnetic hysteresis, shows how matter can retain a memory of its past orientation. A similar pattern can be seen in human behavior. Once greed has trained the mind to seek gain, the desire continues even when the actual need for acquisition has disappeared. The mind keeps pulling, not because something is necessary, but because it has been conditioned to accumulate. In spiritual terms, this clinging tendency, called āsakti, is like the residual magnetism of past impressions that continue to influence perception and action. Only deep awareness—developed through meditation and inner clarity—can dissolve this stored conditioning, similar to how demagnetization restores a material to a neutral, balanced state.

How Demagnetizing Memory Works: Love, Attachment, and the Science of Letting Go

The above Magnetic Saturation and Hysteresis can be understood through the analogy of a love relationship. When two people become deeply intimate, one partner is often emotionally stronger and more influential, while the other is more receptive. The weaker partner is like an iron rod, and the stronger partner is like a magnet. Even after separation, the iron continues to carry the magnetic alignment produced by the magnet. In the same way, the weaker partner continues to hold the impressions and memories of the stronger one long after the relationship ends.

To remove this magnetized memory from iron, we do not throw away the magnet itself. Instead, the same magnet is used in a different way—moved in zigzag motions, reversed in direction, assisted by heating, or by striking the iron. These methods disrupt the alignment and gradually demagnetize the iron. This offers a profound insight into human psychology as well.

When the mental image of a departed lover remains in someone’s mind and keeps them emotionally aligned with that person, the same image can be used to dissolve the attachment—but only if approached differently. We do not remember the person with the same emotional immersion as before. Instead, the memory is allowed to fade by keeping less attention on it and more attention on worldly activities. This gradually breaks its alignment.

“Heating” the magnet-form image corresponds to energizing the mind through yoga or spiritual practice, which weakens emotional fixation. “Hammering” iron represents being engaged in demanding work, stress, responsibility, and worldly struggles, which shake up the mind enough to loosen attachments.

Yoga and samadhi go a step further. In deep meditation, the mental image is brightened to its fullest expression, but without clinging to its physical counterpart. The body of the lover is itself recognized as temporary and unreal with it; only the inner image is seen as its real projection in the mind. This dissolves the magnetism of emotional memory. In the highest samadhi, merging completely with the inner image leads to merging with the entire cosmos or God. Once the mind expands into the whole, no individual memory has the power to bind it anymore.

Interestingly, this is similar to the best demagnetization technique for iron: the same magnet is moved rapidly over it in constantly changing directions, without touching it, and slowly withdrawn from a distance. The mental image of the lover is also not physically touched; it is expressed fully within consciousness as savikalp samadhi and then released gradually towards nirvikalp samadhi of complete removal to avoid emotional shock or a sudden return of attachment.

Some replace the lover’s image with a guru’s image. This works even more effectively. A guru is like a stronger magnet that can remove previous emotional imprints from the disciple more quickly and clearly, when approached correctly through samadhi and awareness.

Black Holes — Ultimate Accumulators

In astrophysics, a black hole is a region of space where matter collapses inward under such intense gravity that it begins to consume everything around it. Nothing escapes its pull—not matter, not light, not even time. With every fragment of energy it absorbs, it becomes denser, darker, and more inwardly contracted. The same pattern appears in human consciousness when greed grows without wisdom. Instead of expanding life, greed becomes a collapse of awareness into a narrow sense of self, where nothing satisfies and everything is consumed without bringing fulfillment. At its extreme, Lobha does not create growth; it turns creation into contraction. Only when awareness penetrates this inward pull, like crossing an event horizon, does it recognize that what it was trying to acquire and defend was never separate—it was attempting to hoard its own self without knowing it.

Summary

Across different sciences, Lobha or greed appears as a natural tendency of accumulation. At the atomic level, an electron holds extra energy for some time before releasing it, just as the human mind clings to emotions or possessions out of insecurity. In the formation of stars, gravity gathers dust and gas into a growing mass, and this resembles the way people collect wealth, status, or power in an attempt to feel stronger. Even in the so-called empty vacuum of space, an underlying sea of energy remains, mirroring the subtle cravings and latent desires (vāsanās) that continue to exist even in a silent mind. Magnetic materials retain a memory of past alignment, just as the mind remains attached to earlier gains and continues to seek more, even when the need has passed. At the extreme, greed becomes like a black hole that keeps consuming without satisfaction, pulling everything into itself and losing its true nature in the process. Thus, whether subtle or intense, Lobha behaves like an energy that gathers, stores, and clings—until awareness transforms it.

Uncontrolled Lobha (greed) is like a black hole. It sees no limits and makes no distinction between good or bad, legitimate or illegitimate, rightful or wrongful, hoardable or non-hoardable. It simply hoards everything. It does not even spare light, believing that light too will serve its purpose someday. Such extreme attachment to hoarding turns it into a black demon. Its own being becomes clouded and darkened with impurities, entering a state of bondage from which liberation becomes extremely difficult.

It may take form again and again—like the unending cycle of birth and death of a bound soul. This is why ancient wisdom says: unawareful hoarding leads to bondage of the soul and repeated return to the world through countless cycles of rebirth.

On the other hand, a star hoards only as much as is necessary—just enough to shine and illuminate others. Most stars avoid excessive hoarding out of the inherent fear of becoming black holes. So, they remain alert, slim, and disciplined, using limited resources in their fullest service to humanity. Many even adopt a kind of cosmic minimalism, becoming small stars so that they never turn into the bound, trapped soul of a black hole.

At the time of their death, such stars return all their constituents to space with gratitude, so that other stars may grow. In this way, they become free and liberated.

The same pattern is seen in human beings. The very light that was meant to nurture creation, to uplift life with growth, harmony, and development, is today being mercilessly seized by exploiters. Instead of illuminating the world, it is hoarded and weaponized against the very beings it was meant to serve. How can someone call themselves happy while stealing the glow and innocence from other faces? How can anyone hope to discover the light of liberation while pushing others into the depths of poverty, ignorance, and darkness?

True spirituality can never flourish in a heart that takes pleasure in making people addicted, dependent, resourceless, poor, unemployed, or stripped of dignity. Those who thrive by weakening others only nurture the shadows within themselves. Their success is not achievement—it is a burden of injustice. No meditation, no ritual, no worship can grant awakening to a mind that knowingly destroys the dreams, health, and opportunities of others.

Real spiritual growth comes only through uplifting lives, not exploiting them. Light expands when shared—and liberation becomes real only when it frees others, not when it traps them. To walk toward enlightenment is to become a source of light, strength, knowledge, compassion, and self-sufficiency for the world. The more we empower others, the brighter our own inner light becomes. Inner light increases only by sharing it with others, like stars do. That is why, for achievements, stars are given. Snatching light from others does not raise one’s own light; it turns the heart into a ghostly, dark black hole instead.

Philosophical Synthesis

From a spiritual and cosmic perspective, the three primary impulses of human emotion are seen as movements of energy with universal functions. Kāma, or desire, directs energy outward toward connection and union, and this outward movement becomes the basis for creation itself, symbolically represented by Brahma and Shakti. Krodha, or anger, is an explosive surge of energy that seeks to correct, break, or remove what obstructs balance; this power of destruction and transformation is associated with the force of Rudra. Lobha, or greed, turns energy inward, gathering and preserving what has been acquired. This inward pull becomes the principle of preservation in the cosmos, represented by Vishnu. Thus, these three emotions are not merely personal weaknesses but three fundamental currents of energy—creating, destroying, and preserving—through which the universe maintains its balance.

Spiritual Transmutation of Lobha

Lobha, or the urge to accumulate, evolves through different stages as a person grows in awareness. In its most ignorant form, it expresses itself as the hoarding of wealth, objects, and power. This type of greed leads to stagnation, because the energy that should flow becomes trapped in possession. With awareness, Lobha becomes more refined. The urge to gather turns toward collecting knowledge, strength, and inner energy rather than external objects. This stage creates stability, because what is gathered nourishes growth instead of suffocating it. At its highest level, Lobha becomes a force that preserves truth, compassion, and wisdom. Instead of clinging to possessions, one protects values that sustain life. Here, accumulation transforms into responsibility: one gathers not for oneself, but for the well-being of all. In this enlightened state, Lobha acts as dharmic protection, preserving what is good for the world rather than what merely benefits the ego.

Thus Lobha is not merely vice — it’s Vishnu’s sustaining principle when purified.
At its lower form, it hoards;
At its higher form, it nurtures, protects, and sustains what is sacred.

Quantum Nonduality: How Hoarding Turned Into Spiritual Growth

The quantum facts above perfectly reflect my life story. Quantum science is unburdening me in the form of quantum darshan. It is showing me a mirror of the past, present, and future. By exposing the past, it dissolves it peacefully. By revealing the present, it makes me nondual and detached, like a quantum particle. By indicating the future, it assures me of liberation, provided I follow its path.

I remember a time when I had become excessively possessive—thinking only about money. I even began demanding money, of course legitimately and rightfully. But whenever money comes in between, whether legitimate or illegitimate, it creates a rift in relationships—sometimes large, sometimes subtle, externally or internally. When I saw how futile this race for possession was, I stopped.

The habit of willful hoarding found no outer direction, so it turned inward. It began expressing itself as a hoarding of yoga, meditation, writing, blogging, and the pursuit of knowledge. Thus, a harsh physical habit eventually cleared the inner path for my growth.

Perhaps it happened so easily and quickly because I already had a nondual attitude during these hoardings, mainly supported by ancestral sanskaras and assisted by Sharirvigyan Darshan. In this state, everything felt equal to me. I saw hoarding knowledge as equal to hoarding material things.

Quantum science also says the same: everything is vibration and essentially equal, whether it appears hard and external or soft and internal within the mind. Quantum darshan shapes this understanding into a spiritual form of nonduality.

Had I not adopted a nondual attitude during this hoarding phase, I would have later considered knowledge to be inferior to material possessions, and the hoarding tendency would never have received a chance to express itself inwardly. In that case, it would have remained suffocated within me—either causing inner suffocation or eventually turning back towards material hoarding in another form.

So, in short, we can say that a nondual attitude, like the behavior of quantum particles, supports every aspect of life at every step.

Chapter 24: When the Atom Dissolves the Ego

The exploration that began with matter and moved towards the self now reaches another doorway. Matter has been seen not as something separate but as a reflection of the self. The body has been observed not as a lifeless machine but as a field of consciousness woven through atoms, molecules, tissues, and energies. Now comes the most delicate and mysterious turn in this journey, where the very atom itself reveals the illusion of doership and quietly melts the ego away.

Every atom is endlessly active. Within it, protons and neutrons are bound in ceaseless dance, while electrons whirl around with unimaginable speed. Yet in all this activity, never does an atom declare, “I am the doer.” There is no self-assertion in its functioning. It simply acts because action is woven into its nature. The atom never claims ownership of creation, and yet without it, nothing can move. In this silent humility of the atom lies a mirror for the human being. The body, built of countless atoms, also functions in the same way. Breath rises and falls, blood circulates, thoughts appear and fade, but nowhere within does the body say, “I am the thinker.” Thoughts are not manufactured by the body; they are ripples in the vast lake of mind.

Ancient wisdom had already noticed this truth. In the Gita it is said that the gunas act upon the gunas. Forces of nature act upon forces of nature. Fire burns because it is the nature of fire to burn, wind blows because it is the nature of wind to move. Likewise, actions emerge from the body and mind because it is their nature to act. The witnessing consciousness remains untouched. The illusion of ego is nothing but the mind’s mistaken identification with this flow of actions. Ego believes, “I am doing,” whereas in truth action is happening through the gunas, just as rain falls or a flower blossoms.

Science, too, has begun to echo the same insight in its own language. Physics shows that before any particle is observed, it exists in superposition, holding many possibilities together. Only in the moment of observation does one outcome collapse into being. In the same way, before a thought arises, the mind is filled with infinite possibilities. Each thought is like a quantum collapse, a crystallization from the field of potential into the world of form. Prior to thought, there is only a vast dark stillness, a zero point where every possibility cancels itself by its opposite, leaving nothing but unexpressed energy. This state of unmanifest mind is experienced in meditation as a deep darkness, an ocean without ripples.

When one emerges from samadhi, there is often no immediate storm of thoughts. First, the still energy is felt, like a dark silence holding everything within it. Only afterwards does the chain of thoughts begin to rise, one by one, each collapse giving birth to the next. Ancient yogic language called this process vyutthana, the return of the mind from samadhi. The modern physicist calls it the movement from superposition to collapse. The meaning is the same: from pure potential arises form, from silence arises sound, from stillness arises motion.

During meditation, scattered traces of thoughts may appear like clouds on a clear sky. The seeker need not fight them. Simply allowing them to pass keeps the mind open to the vast akarnava, the boundless ocean beyond. Sometimes a gentle mental chanting of akarnava itself helps link the mind with this endlessness. And when thoughts grow heavy, the ancient method of neti neti offers a simple key. Neti means “not this.” At intervals, when a thought appears, it is quietly dissolved by remembering, “not this, not this.” The thought fades back into the void. Yet even this practice must remain subtle, for if repeated without pause, it turns mechanical and loses its power. Used occasionally, it creates sudden dips into stillness, where breath slows and relaxation deepens.

In deeper meditation, when the awareness is extended to the entire sitting body, something extraordinary is noticed. The body itself becomes a gateway to the cosmos. Every chakra within the body is a hidden archive of universal patterns. Within the heart lie echoes of cosmic emotions, within the throat the seeds of all expression, within the brow the visions of countless worlds. When the whole body is kept in gentle notice, the entire cosmos hidden within begins to open. Thoughts connected with the universe itself may arise, only to dissolve in the same silence.

Yet sometimes meditation feels blocked. Energy stuck at certain chakras creates a sensation of suffocation or heaviness. Breath automatically begins to focus on that region as if the body is trying to heal itself. This is not for oxygen but for prana, the subtle energy required by that chakra. Until these blockages are released, meditation remains shallow. Breathlessness is the sign of release. When, after working through the chakras, breath is naturally held at the end of inhalation or exhalation, a depth opens where suffocation disappears. The once-blocked chakra now feels free, or at least so subtle in its lack that it cannot stop the energy from rising. From this breathless stillness, meditation enters its deepest flow.

Actually, after mastering prāṇa through repeated yoga practice, one can hold the breath at will and focus on an energy-deficient chakra. That chakra then feels “hungry” for breath, producing a sharp, suffocating sensation. In reality, it is not hunger for air; it is hunger for prāṇa. When attention is placed on that sensation, the energy in the suṣumṇā naturally floods that chakra and satisfies it, even while the breath remains stopped or nearly absent. When all the chakras become fully nourished with prāṇa, a breathless and deeply satisfied state appears, which is wonderful and naturally leads to a mindless dhyāna-like stillness.

Seen in this light, the discoveries of Sanatan Dharma appear less as religious imagination and more as profound quantum insights in disguise. The sages saw that everything in existence is conscious in its own way, and thus they worshipped every element as divine. Stones, rivers, trees, animals, all were held as manifestations of the same conscious field. Idols and mandalas were not superstitions but symbolic mirrors to the cosmic order hidden within the atom and within the self. Today, quantum scientists too are beginning to wonder if consciousness itself plays a role in the collapse of possibilities into one outcome. The ancient and the modern are slowly meeting on the same ground.

Science shows the structure. Biology reveals the process. Matter, in its endless forms, presents the illusion of separation. But Sharirvigyan Darshan, the direct seeing of the body as a field of consciousness, dissolves ego through pure vision. In this vision, it becomes clear that the self is not an atom, not a cell, not a body. The self is the field in which all these arise and into which they dissolve. Ego may pretend to be the doer, but the atom has no such illusion. Ego may take ownership of thought, but thought itself is only a quantum ripple arising from silence.

The final freedom is nothing dramatic. It is the melting of ego, the end of false ownership. When this happens, silence itself shines forth, not as something achieved but as something that was always there. The self remains, untouched, unbroken, ever luminous. The journey through atoms, body, mind, and cosmos ends where it began, in the pure witnessing that needs no name.

Thus the story comes full circle. The human being entered the investigation thinking of himself as a separate doer and knower. He examined matter, cells, energies, and mind. He discovered that the atom does not claim doership, the body does not think, the mind does not own thoughts. The gunas act upon the gunas, and he is only the witness. In that recognition, the atom dissolved the ego. The silence behind all action became visible. That silence is the self, radiant and free.

And here ends the adventure of Sharirvigyan Darshan as Quantum Darshan, not in noise but in a quiet flowering. When the atom is seen as innocent of doership, the ego cannot survive. When the body is seen as a field of energies, the mind cannot cling. When thought is seen as a ripple in the quantum ocean, the self shines as the boundless sky. This is the final realization, simple and astonishing: the self was never hidden, only the illusion of doership covered it. With its melting, the journey finds its destination, and the seeker finds himself where he always was—free, silent, eternal.

Diwali Week: A Yogi’s Practical Insights Through Temple Experiences

This Diwali week, after a long journey, I visited my ancestral home and stayed there for several days. It was a joyful time — being again with family, relatives, and friends, celebrating the festival of lights in full enthusiasm. Yet along with the outer joy, many new practical yogic experiences unfolded naturally.

I was so involved in the living flow of the festival — meeting people, travelling, helping family, and feeling the spirit of Diwali — that I could not write them down then. But within those days, in between the busy movements, I received sharp insights that no book or teaching could give. These experiences came in the most natural settings — especially when I got moments of solitude inside the city temples while my family was shopping nearby.

Day 1 – Durga–Bhairav Temple: The Dual Anchor of Meditation

On the first day, after dropping my family at a city shopping complex, I went straight to a Durga temple.
There, in front of the large and powerful idol of Maa Durga, I sat in padmāsana. The moment I closed my eyes, deep stillness descended. Soon, the breath became effortless — almost absent — and I entered Kevala Kumbhak, the natural breathless dhyāna.

At intervals, I opened my eyes and looked at the idol. Every single glance into the serene face of Durga instantly deepened the state again, as if the outer image was helping the inner form stabilize. The image remained alive even after closing the eyes, glowing vividly in the mental screen — not as imagination, but as a living vibration.

In front of Durga’s idol was a smaller statue of Bhairav. When the attention slightly tired or mind became neutral, I gazed at Bhairav’s image instead. Strangely, his gaze and energy acted as another anchor, rekindling the stillness from a different polarity — sharp, grounding, and stabilizing.

Thus, I discovered a beautiful rhythm: when Durga’s compassionate presence began to feel saturated, I turned to Bhairav’s fierce calmness; when that too reached a plateau, I returned to Durga.
It was like alternating currents of Shakti and Shiva, feminine and masculine energy, balancing and sustaining each other — a living demonstration of Ardhanārīśvara tattva.

Perhaps this is the deeper reason why Durga and Bhairav idols are placed together in many temples. For ordinary devotees, it represents protection and blessing. But for a yogi, it becomes a direct energetic mechanism — allowing both polarities of consciousness to support dhyāna.
The ordinary mind may see the idol as an object, but the yogic mind perceives it as a mirror of consciousness.

I realized that idols (pratimā) are not merely symbolic or devotional aids — they are scientific instruments of meditation. For a sincere meditator, the benefit is immediate and measurable: the mind falls into stillness the very moment one connects with the living image. That is direct proof, not belief.

Others, who approach idols only through tradition or emotion, also receive benefits, though subtler and delayed. But to a real yogi, the result is instant — the statue becomes alive, the mind becomes no-mind.

Evening – Shulini Sister Temple: The Silent Pindi and the Deep Breathless Stillness

In the evening of the same day, when my family again went for shopping, I visited Shulini Mata’s sister temple.
The environment was deeply sattvic like earlier temple: gentle movement of people, occasional ringing of the temple bell, mantra chants from distant devotees, the fragrance of burning incense, oil lamps glowing in rows, and from time to time, the conch sound from the priest echoing through the hall.
Each element seemed perfectly tuned to draw the consciousness inward.

The main deity was not a fully personified idol but a stone pindi — a simple mound of stone representing the goddess. Silver eyes were fixed on it, with tiny black dots marking the pupils, and a nose faintly carved in the middle. Despite this simplicity, or perhaps because of it, the image radiated immense power.

As I sat before it, the same Kevala Kumbhak arose again naturally — effortless, spontaneous, and prolonged. The experience was even deeper than in the morning. I remained in vajrāsana for forty-five minutes to an hour. My legs went numb, yet the body felt weightless, pain absent. Awareness remained centered, breath minimal, mind absorbed in the living vibration of the pindi.

That evening, I learned that personification is not necessary for divine connection. Even a symbolic form — if approached in stillness — can become a complete doorway to samādhi.
What matters is the state of mind, not the complexity of the idol.

Day 2 – Shani Temple and Saraswati Painting: The Spontaneous Prāṇāyāma Emerges

The next day, while on the way to relatives’ home, my family again stopped for shopping. I dropped them out of the car, parked it safely, and started searching for a new temple — a change that could help me enter deeper dhyāna again without feeling bored. It made me realize that the more temples there are, the better it is for a seeker; one can keep visiting different temples daily and repeat the cycle once all have been covered. This means it is good, both socially and economically, to build as many temples as possible. That is exactly why we see countless temples in pilgrimage towns. Some people may ask, “Why so many? Why not just one?” But human likings differ — just as there are many kinds of sweets, not only one. The same principle applies here. I found a Shani temple nearby and decided to sit there for a while. The main sanctum was closed, but on the outer wall was a small painting of Goddess Saraswati. I sat on the cool marble floor and used that painting as my dhyāna anchor. As concentration deepened, something remarkable happened: effortless rhythmic breaths began — not forced, not practiced, but arising on their own. Each inbreath was imperceptible; each outbreath carried a subtle sound — like a soft, continuous “gharr” vibration, resembling bhrāmarī prāṇāyāma but much subtler and self-born.

The awareness stayed steady, and the breath pattern continued automatically — a clear reminder that real prāṇāyāma is spontaneous, not mechanical.

Scriptures mention countless types of prāṇāyāma and their benefits, but the essence is often misunderstood. The yogi who practices Kundalinī Yoga eventually discovers that these classical prāṇāyāmas are natural by-products of inner awakening — not techniques to be imitated but symptoms of true meditative absorption.

When energy begins to move naturally through the channels (nāḍīs), prāṇa itself reshapes the breathing pattern according to the need of inner transformation. Trying to imitate these states from scriptures — without the foundation of dhyāna — may give some outer sensations, but they are superficial.
Such imitation can even give illusion of attainment — a feeling that one has mastered all prāṇāyāma — while in truth, the deeper awakening remains untouched.

Therefore, one must understand that the real prāṇāyāma of the scriptures refers to the spontaneous phenomenon arising during deep kundalinī sādhanā, not the deliberate breathing exercises often mistaken for it. I don’t know, but perhaps these superficial forms of prāṇāyāma gradually lead to deeper dhyāna, either in a worldly or spiritual way. One may also become accustomed to them, so that when spontaneous prāṇāyāma arises naturally, it doesn’t come as a shock. Therefore, even these external practices should be taken positively.

Summary Insight

Across all these temple experiences, one truth became clearer:

Idols, images, and symbols are not only external aids but also living focal points for consciousness.
The feminine and masculine energies (Durga–Bhairav) act alternately to balance the mind.
The form of deity — whether human-like or abstract — is secondary; the stillness it invokes is the real prāṇa.
True prāṇāyāma, like true samādhi, happens naturally in the state of inner silence.

These few days of Diwali brought me both family joy and spiritual refinement. I returned back with a deep gratitude — for the divine presence that works through simple images, through silence, through breathless stillness, and even through the seemingly ordinary circumstances of daily life.

In this way, the festival of light truly became a festival of inner illumination.

Riding Over Sleep

The very next day, my sleep broke at 2:30 a.m. I left the bed and sat on the ground in asana. The breath was agitated but not as rocket-like as the previous day. After trying for an hour, I did yogasana for the next half hour, followed by spinal breathing. Then I again tried dhyana for an hour — no success, though the witnessing of buried thoughts continued with a sense of bliss. But how can the mind be satisfied with that once it has tasted the deep breathless dhyana?

Afterwards, I ate a bowl of khichari, a ripe apple, and some herbal tea. However, the herbal tea, being strong, caused a little acidity, so I decided not to use it in a strong ratio in the future. Then I sat again for half an hour, but there was not much improvement. The morning light has grown outside. After that, I did chakra meditation on each chakra. A blissful yogic pressure arose, and I felt dhyana ripening. There was some throat obstruction, so I did jala neti. At various moments during the entire sitting since beginning, pranic energy was rushing upward.

Then deep dhyana launched — the breath became very shallow, and there was a partial entry into pure awareness. For a moment or two, the breath stopped completely, with total merging into pure awareness, but it was too transient. Suddenly, the face of a man seemingly practicing distorted tantra appeared with a strange, cursing expression—though silent, it felt as if he were speaking ill behind my back. This vision dislodged me from that dhyana despite my attempt to remain unaffected.

A new understanding emerged — Dictatorial control, even if positive in intent, should not be held in mind toward such selfstyle people. The amazing thing is that it becomes little bit difficult to reopen the pranic channels and flow energy inside them even after just a few days of yogic inactivity or worldly involvement, or both. Moreover, sexual energy had also been drained away to clean and freshly refill the reservoir. This, too, had slightly slowed the upward movement of energy. Truly, successful yoga depends on many positive contributing factors, not just one. Each factor adds gradually, culminating in a unified whole. Like bricks coming together to build a sturdy home, all these elements combine to create the full structure of yoga practice. Let us now pick up the formal yoga blog next.

Riding Over Sleep

There’s something I keep noticing — sleep and yoga feel almost the same sometimes. When I sit quietly, some people around me say I’m not meditating, just sitting and pretending while actually dozing off. They don’t know how thin that line really is.

In a jagrata, during an all-night bhajan or kirtan for Mata or Shiva, something similar happens. You ride on the wave of sleep instead of letting it swallow you. The body is tired, but you don’t collapse. You stay alert through music, rhythm, and devotion. Slowly the boundary between waking and sleep melts. If you manage to stay aware at that edge, you touch a state that feels like Nirvikalpa — awareness without thought, just stillness watching itself. However if one is highly tired, he may sleep too while sitting in meditation pose. Moreover, it is better to meditate at a sufficient distance from such kirtans; otherwise, the loudspeaker’s sound can be disturbing. However, it should still be faintly audible so that its sattvic vibrations can have an uplifting and purifying influence.

Spiritually it makes sense. The repetition of divine names and surrender quiets the usual noise of the mind. Consciousness stays bright though the body is dull. You hover right between wake and sleep — the thin doorway the scriptures call Turiya, the state behind waking, dream, and deep sleep.

Even physiologically it fits. Chanting soothes the nerves, slows the breath, and keeps you relaxed but awake. Sleep pressure builds, yet rhythm and emotion don’t let you slip into full sleep. The brain rests while awareness stands guard — a soft, glowing balance that scientists call a hypnagogic state, and yogis call bliss.

So yes, jagrata can really open that doorway if the inner condition is right. Not everyone reaches Nirvikalpa through it, but the path runs that way.

The Mandukya Upanishad describes this beautifully. It speaks of four states — waking (jagrat), dream (svapna), deep sleep (sushupti), and the fourth one, Turiya. The first three come and go, but Turiya stays untouched. When you are at that sleepy edge during bhajan yet remain aware, you are already brushing Turiya.

Yoga Vasistha echoes the same truth. Sage Vasistha tells Rama that a wise person “sleeps even while awake and is awake even while asleep.” It means a yogi’s awareness doesn’t blink, no matter what the body does. What ordinary people call rest becomes conscious rest for the yogi. The body may be half asleep, yet awareness shines quietly. This is Yoga Nidra or Jagrat Sushupti — wakeful deep sleep, the art of riding over sleep instead of sinking into it.

Now, look at it through the Kundalini–Tantra eye. The state between waking and sleep — jagrat sushupti sandhi — is where prana turns inward. Usually energy flows outward through senses. In sleep it withdraws, but awareness also fades. If, by mantra or kirtan or still meditation, awareness stays awake while energy turns inward, you catch the serpent of sleep consciously — that’s Kundalini entering Sushumna, the central channel. This edge is the real turiya-dwara, the doorway to the fourth state.

During long chanting or meditation, breath evens out, emotions settle, Ida and Pingala — the left and right flows — come into balance, and Sushumna opens. Energy that once fed thoughts now rises upward. When awareness is pure and surrendered, it merges into silent consciousness — Nirvikalpa-like stillness. When awareness wavers, it still brings a wave of bliss or devotion, though not full samadhi.

Tantra says nothing is to be rejected, not even sleep. “Whatever binds you can liberate you, when seen rightly.” Even sleepiness can help if you meet it consciously. At that edge, Muladhara energy melts upward, the Ajna and Sahasrara light up. A tired body with wakeful awareness is fertile ground for spontaneous samadhi. That’s why many saints reached awakening through music, love, and surrender rather than severe austerity — their prana rose gently, effortlessly.

If you learn to watch yourself at the point where waking becomes sleep and stay aware with devotion or mantra, that small passage turns royal — it takes you straight toward Turiya. Nothing to force, nothing to do, just don’t fall unconscious.

The same energy that pulls you into sleep can, when met with awareness, lift you into samadhi.

It all began from a simple feeling that yoga and sleep seem alike. Yet behind that simple resemblance hides a deep secret — both touch the same doorway. In jagrata or devotional wakefulness, sleep stops being an enemy. It becomes a wave to ride — one that can carry you beyond waking and dream into that luminous stillness where only awareness itself remains.

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Discovering the Hissing Breath and the Throat as a Regulator

Humming, Ujjayi, and the Ocean Undercurrent of Breath

From Sound to Silence Without Losing Stability

Rethinking the Location of the Throat Chakra

Early Sushumna Flow Through Inner Vishuddhi

Why Ajna Became Easy Only After Alignment

Dharana Reunderstood Through Experience

The Final Integration

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Early Life: When Survival Itself Is Yoga

Childhood and Play: Līlā Before Knowledge

Adolescence: When Attraction Becomes a Teacher

Bhakti: When Love Loses Its Object

Gopī Samādhi: When Love Becomes Ground

Withdrawal: When Sweetness Finishes Its Work

Transition: From Sweetness to Power

The Deeper Pattern

The Essence

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The Forgotten Intelligence of Inner Energy

Why Energy Needs Direction, Not Suppression

How Thought Controls the Rise and Fall of Energy

The Dance Between Worldliness and Awakening

Relationships as Energy Laboratories

Why Awakening Is Not a Dramatic Event

The Role of Daily Life in Sustaining Ascent

From Serpent to Nectar: When Energy Becomes Nourishment

Humanity Is the True Foundation of Spiritual Growth

The Serpent Is Already Moving

The Single Law of the Serpent: Always Up-Facing

Upfacing Serpent and the Moment of Self-Realisation

Kundalini Awakening: Simply Energy Facing Up

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A Journey That Was Not Just Travel

Aeroplane: Nonduality at High Speed

Coconut Trees: When Matter Looks Back at You

Animal Perception: Entering the Forest Mind

Ocean: The Living Rhythm of Existence

Motion as the Secret Teacher of Nonduality

A Grounded Darshan for Daily Life

Closing Note: A Simple Truth

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A Moment in the Mahābhārata That Demands Deeper Seeing

Jīva as Dhṛtarāṣṭra: Blindness Carried Forward

Gandhārī as New Buddhi in a Fresh Birth

The Warnings of Elders and Gurus

The Decisive Act: Buddhi Choosing Slumber

Why This Is Not Compassion in Yogic Psychology

Why the Jīva Remains Unawakened

Later Power, Earlier Failure

A Pattern That Repeats Everywhere

Final Understanding: How Bondage Continues Quietly

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A Personal Reflection on Trishanku, Vishvamitra, Kundalini, and the Inner Guru

How Compassion, Ritual, and Inner Prayer Hold Consciousness Until Liberation Ripens

The Classical Story of Trishanku: The King Suspended Between Heaven and Earth

Rethinking the Trishanku Story: Blessing, Not Punishment

Rituals for the Departed: Collective Tapas in Everyday Life

When the Myth Became Personal: My Own Experience

Dream Visitations and the Call for Assistance

Prayer, Kundalini, and the Meaning of Urging God

Signs of Resolution: Clarity, Softening, and Residual Sadness

Kundalini as Dhyana Chitra: The Inner Guru Clarified

Where Resolution Truly Happens

Yogic Understanding: Death as Pratyahara and Suspension

Psychological Grounding: Grief, Holding, and Completion

Responsibility Without Burden

Why Experiences Fade When Resolution Occurs

Returning to Trishanku: The Archetype of Compassionate Suspension

Not a Conclusion, But a Resting Place

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LOBHA (Greed) — The Urge to Accumulate, Expand, and Hold Energy

Gravitational Accretion (Star Formation)

Quantum Vacuum Energy (Zero-Point Energy)

Magnetic Saturation and Hysteresis

How Demagnetizing Memory Works: Love, Attachment, and the Science of Letting Go

Black Holes — Ultimate Accumulators

Summary

Philosophical Synthesis