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Meditation, Diet, and Inner Clarity: A Veterinarian’s Journey from Grass to Conscious Eating

The First Question: Can Life Be Sustained on the Simplest Form of Nature?

The inquiry began with a very fundamental and almost ascetic curiosity—whether a human being could survive entirely on grass, especially soft, succulent green grass with the least fiber, and even whether cooking it could make it suitable for human consumption. This was not merely a nutritional question but a deeper exploration into minimal living, purity of intake, and the possibility of aligning the body with the most basic form of nature. However, it soon became clear that regardless of tenderness or cooking, grass remains primarily composed of cellulose, which the human digestive system cannot process. Unlike ruminants, humans lack the necessary enzymes and microbial systems to break down cellulose into usable energy. Cooking may soften grass, but it does not transform its fundamental nature into digestible nutrition.

From Grass to Vegetables: Understanding What the Body Accepts

This led naturally to the question: if grass is also a plant, then how do vegetables nourish us? The answer revealed a fundamental distinction. Not all plants are equal in their nutritional design. Grass is structural, meant for survival and resilience, whereas vegetables are specific plant parts—leaves, roots, and flowers—that are softer, water-rich, and contain accessible nutrients. Over time, humans have also cultivated vegetables to enhance digestibility and nutritional value. Thus, while both grass and vegetables belong to the plant kingdom, their usability for human nutrition differs profoundly.

Grains and Seeds: Nature’s Stored Energy for Life

The exploration then moved toward grains, which are also plant-derived. The key realization here was that grains are seeds, designed by nature to store energy for the growth of a new plant. Unlike grass, grains are rich in starch, which the human body can easily convert into glucose. Cooking further enhances this process by breaking down the structure of the grain, making nutrients readily accessible. Thus, grains serve as a primary energy source for humans, unlike grass, which remains indigestible.

Legumes, Cooking, and the Hidden Barriers to Nutrition

The discussion deepened into legumes such as dal, chana, and rajma. These too are seeds but contain protective compounds like phytates, lectins, and enzyme inhibitors. These anti-nutrients make raw legumes difficult and sometimes harmful to consume. Cooking becomes essential, as it breaks down these compounds and unlocks the protein and nutrients within. This introduced the important concept that nature often protects its nutritional reserves, and human intervention through cooking is necessary to make them usable.

Soaking and Sprouting: Awakening the Seed

Further insight emerged through the processes of soaking and sprouting. Soaking activates enzymes within the seed, reduces anti-nutrients, and prepares it for digestion. Sprouting takes this transformation further, breaking down complex nutrients into simpler forms and increasing vitamin content. This stage represents a transition from dormant seed to living plant, making the food lighter and more bioavailable.

Vegetarian Diet: Possibility and Limitations

The conversation then shifted toward whether a person can live entirely on vegetables, especially in cooked or uncooked forms. It became evident that while a plant-based diet can sustain life, it must be properly structured. Merely consuming leafy vegetables is insufficient. A complete vegetarian diet requires a balance of grains for energy, legumes for protein, vegetables for micronutrients, and some fats for overall function. Without this balance, deficiencies and weakness can arise.

The Question of B12 and the Nature of Vegetarianism

A deeper philosophical question emerged regarding vitamin B12. Since B12 is not naturally present in plant foods, does dependence on it imply that humans are not truly vegetarian? The understanding clarified that B12 is produced by bacteria, not plants or animals. Historically, humans likely obtained B12 from soil, water, and less sanitized food sources. Modern hygiene has removed these natural pathways, making supplementation necessary. This does not negate vegetarianism but highlights a shift in environmental conditions.

The Veterinarian’s Inner Conflict: Profession and Personal Choice

As a veterinarian, the presence of animal farming systems raises an internal question. If animals are being raised for consumption, why not participate personally? This is not merely a dietary question but a matter of alignment. The clarity that emerged was that working within a system and making a personal ethical choice are not contradictory. A veterinarian’s role is to care for and reduce the suffering of animals, while choosing vegetarianism is a personal stance of non-participation in consumption. These two roles can coexist harmoniously.

Occasional Non-Veg: Experience of Energy and Satisfaction

The discussion then returned to lived experience. Occasional non-vegetarian food, even in small weekly amounts, seems to provide a unique sense of energy, satisfaction, and completeness. This experience was acknowledged as real. The explanation lies in the dense nutritional profile of animal foods—complete proteins, B12, iron, and certain compounds that are easily absorbed. If a vegetarian diet is slightly lacking, non-veg can act as a quick correction, producing a noticeable boost.

Meditation and Diet: The Shift from Activity to Stillness

The most refined insight arose in relation to meditation. Non-veg food, while energizing, introduces a certain heaviness that can reduce clarity in advanced meditative states. It may support dynamic or active phases of practice but becomes less suitable as one moves toward deeper stillness. Lighter, vegetarian food supports subtle awareness and sustained attention. This is not a moral judgment but a functional observation based on experience.

Toward a Balanced Understanding

The journey leads to a simple yet profound conclusion. There is no absolute dietary rule that applies universally. Instead, diet evolves with one’s stage of life and inner practice. Non-veg may serve a purpose in earlier stages, while a well-balanced vegetarian diet becomes more aligned with advanced meditative states. Supplementation, particularly for B12, ensures that nutritional completeness is maintained.

Ultimately, the path is not about rigid categories but about awareness. The body provides feedback, and the mind interprets it. When both are understood clearly, diet becomes not a source of conflict but a tool for alignment with one’s deeper pursuit of clarity and stillness.

Yoga Grows in Action, Not Escape: A Personal Realization That Changed My Understanding of Spiritual Practice

The Misconception That Yoga Needs a Workless Life

There is a very common belief that yoga requires a silent, withdrawn, workless life to truly succeed. Many people assume that unless one steps away from worldly responsibilities, real yogic progress is not possible. This idea sounds convincing on the surface, especially when we hear about sages meditating in isolation, but my own direct experience has shown something completely different. I have come to see that yoga does not grow in the absence of life, but rather in the midst of it. In fact, some of my deepest inner shifts and breakthroughs have occurred not when I was resting, but when I was fully engaged in intense work, growth, and activity.

Yoga and the Role of a Hardworking Life

My observation has been simple yet powerful: yoga seems to grow more strongly when life is active, demanding, and full. A hardworking phase does not obstruct yoga; instead, it appears to nourish it. This goes against the usual narrative, but it aligns with what I have lived through. During periods of intense work, the mind naturally becomes more focused. There is less unnecessary thinking and more direct engagement with the present moment. This creates a kind of natural concentration that resembles meditative absorption without deliberate effort. It is as if life itself starts doing the work of yoga.

At the same time, effort and pressure bring hidden patterns to the surface. When one is dealing with real situations, responsibilities, and challenges, the mind cannot hide behind artificial calmness. It reveals itself more honestly. This exposure becomes a powerful opportunity for inner clarity. Without such friction, many tendencies remain dormant and unnoticed.

Understanding Stillness and Movement in Yoga

A deep question arose during this exploration: how can something already still be made still? If stillness is the goal, then what exactly are we trying to still? The answer became clearer with reflection. It is not awareness that needs to be stilled, because awareness is already still. What moves is the mind. Thoughts, reactions, and mental patterns are constantly in motion. Yoga is not about forcing stillness onto something that is already still; it is about recognizing the difference between what moves and what does not.

When this is understood, the idea of “stilling the mind” changes meaning. It is no longer about suppression or control. It becomes a process of seeing the movement so clearly that one stops being carried away by it. The stillness is not created; it is revealed.

One who tries to still the mind cannot truly do so, because the mind continues to remain in the background in a latent or impression form. If one is identified with the mind, then even after stilling it, one remains identified with it and does not experience the freedom of awareness. Therefore, breaking identification with the mind is the only way to transcend it.
Once identification is lost, the mind moves within awareness like clouds in the sky. When the mind becomes still—or dissolves, as its very nature is movement—awareness rests in itself, no longer attached to the imprints of the mind. However, if awareness is already attached to the mind, then even when the mind becomes latent, self-awareness remains subtly bound to it and does not experience its omnipresent and blissful nature.
This is why forceful dhyana and samadhi, practiced through yoga while still living an attached lifestyle, often produce an unsatisfying feeling. Experienced yogis, therefore, enter dhyana slowly and naturally, allowing it to deepen into a breathless state while simply witnessing thoughts with natural, spontaneous breathing. In this way, meditation slips on its own into real and blissful dhyana, because the practitioner first detaches from thoughts and thus remains free even from their latent forms.

Patanjali defines yoga as the stilling of the mind. Therefore, it may be argued that a moving mind is a prerequisite for yoga, just as motion is a prerequisite for stillness. In other words, Patanjali’s definition shows that yoga concerns the stilling of mental movement. Movement does not create stillness, but it makes the process of stilling meaningful and observable.

The Real Meaning of Yogic Progress

Another realization emerged: yoga does not depend on whether one is busy or free. It depends on the quality of awareness present in any situation. A fully engaged life can accelerate growth if awareness is present. However, activity alone does not guarantee anything. Without awareness, busyness can simply create more distraction and deeper identification with mental patterns.

Similarly, reducing activity does not automatically lead to stillness. In many cases, less work leads to dullness, inertia, or subtle restlessness. The mind may appear calm on the surface, but internally it continues its movements. This is not true stillness but merely a lack of external stimulation.

Breakthroughs During Peak Activity

Looking back, I noticed a clear pattern. My major breakthroughs in yoga did not occur during passive or quiet phases. They happened during times when I was deeply involved in work, growing, and pushing my limits. During these periods, attention became naturally one-pointed. There was less room for unnecessary thinking. Energy was active and flowing. The ego had less space to dominate because the focus was on doing rather than on self-image.

There was also an interesting effect of exhaustion. After intense effort, a certain openness appeared. The usual resistance of the mind weakened. In that state, even a small practice, like a few rounds of spinal breathing, became deeply effective.

A Direct Experience with Breath and Energy

One such experience stood out clearly. After becoming mentally tired from updating my old writings to newer standards, I paused and practiced a few spinal breaths. The effect was immediate and surprising. It brought satisfaction, released body stress, and created a sense of fulfillment that was far deeper than what I usually experience in a rested state.

In contrast, when I practice breathing techniques like anulom vilom or kapalbhati in a workless condition, they do not feel as energizing or blissful. But in that moment of exhaustion, the same practices felt alive. There was even a sensation that resembled a rise of pleasure from the base of the spine, something that could easily be interpreted as sexual bliss.

However, on closer observation, it became clear that this was not ordinary sexual energy. It was a movement of life energy, a natural upward flow that the body interpreted in familiar terms. The key difference was that it did not lead outward into desire but inward into fulfillment.

Why Breath Works Better After Effort

This experience revealed an important mechanism. After intense work, the system becomes open. Resistance reduces, and the mind is less cluttered. When breath is introduced at that point, it penetrates deeper. Energy flows more freely, and the effects become more noticeable.

This does not mean that one should depend on exhaustion for progress, but it shows how effort can prepare the ground. Work creates the conditions, and practice directs the outcome.

The Balance Between Work and Awareness

A crucial understanding developed from all this: it is not work that creates yoga, but the state of consciousness during work. A busy life can either support or hinder growth depending on how one engages with it. If work is done with awareness, it becomes a powerful tool. If it is done mechanically or compulsively, it becomes another layer of distraction.

The same applies to rest. A quiet life can either deepen awareness or lead to stagnation. Neither activity nor inactivity guarantees progress.

Refining the Insight

The initial conclusion that yoga succeeds after a fully engaged life needed refinement. It is not that engagement alone leads to success. It is that engagement, when combined with awareness, creates powerful conditions for transformation. The real factor is not the outer situation but the inner relationship to it.

Final Clarity on Work and Yogic Growth

The most accurate understanding that emerged is this: less work does not always lead to yogic growth, and more work does not block it. What matters is whether awareness is present and whether identification with mental movement is reducing.

Yoga is not about escaping life or intensifying it blindly. It is about remaining steady within both. A truly mature state is one where the same clarity remains whether one is active or at rest.

Closing Reflection

What began as a simple observation has turned into a deep shift in understanding. Yoga is not confined to quiet spaces or special conditions. It is not dependent on withdrawal from life. Instead, it unfolds through the way one lives, works, observes, and breathes.

The real journey is not about choosing between action and stillness. It is about discovering a stillness that remains untouched by action, and an action that does not disturb stillness. When this balance begins to emerge, yoga is no longer a separate practice. It becomes the very nature of living.

From Sutra Neti Shock to Stable Dhyana: A Personal Journey of Breath, Body, and Balance

When a Simple Practice Triggered Unexpected Change

It started with what seemed like a simple yogic cleansing technique. I used Sutra Neti on my right nostril, but instead of clarity, it created a sudden shift in my behavior. It wasn’t just mild irritation. The nostril felt inflamed and blocked, and along with that came an unexpected wave of anger, frustration, and worry. Social interactions became difficult for a few days, almost as if something in my internal balance had been disturbed. This was not a subtle experience—it was intense enough to affect my day-to-day functioning.

Looking back, it became clear that this was not just a superficial issue. The nasal passage is deeply connected to the nervous system, and irritation there can influence mood and emotional regulation. The inflammation likely triggered a stress response, and the blockage altered my breathing pattern, which in turn affected my mental state. What I initially thought might be some deeper yogic shift turned out to be a very grounded physiological reaction. The lesson was immediate: not every yogic technique suits every stage of practice, especially when the system is already sensitive.

Moving Away from Aggressive Techniques Toward Stability

After that experience, Sutra Neti started to feel unnecessary. I realized that I was already getting good dhyana through spinal breathing and some asanas. There was no real need to add something that introduced instability. The focus naturally shifted toward what was already working. Simpler practices were not only sufficient but actually more supportive of a stable meditative state.

This marked an important shift in understanding. Earlier, there was a tendency to think that adding more techniques would enhance progress. But now it became clear that once dhyana begins to stabilize, the role of additional techniques diminishes. The system does not need stimulation; it needs balance. Practices like Jala Neti may still have a place, but only when truly required, not as a routine.

Subtle Experiences During Spinal Breathing

As practice continued, I began to notice sensations along the spine, especially around the Vishuddha Chakra. Sometimes the awareness would be felt in the front of the body, sometimes shifting to the rear, almost as if the perception itself was moving through layers. When the gaze naturally turned upward toward the Ajna Chakra, breathing became extremely subtle. At times, it felt as if breathing was happening on its own, without any conscious effort, almost like it was fulfilling itself. Sometimes stimulation and activation of rear agya chakra point noticed especially at times of awareness in upper chakras.

This was not literal cessation of breath, but a refinement of it. The body required less oxygen, and the nervous system entered a deeply calm state. What appeared mystical at first gradually revealed itself as a natural progression of meditative refinement. The key insight here was not to interfere. The moment I tried to control or prolong these experiences, imbalance would creep in. But when left alone, they unfolded smoothly.

The Gradual Deepening of Dhyana

With consistent daily practice, spinal breathing began to feel more refined and increasingly blissful. This raised an important question: does continuous practice over years extend dhyana and lead to samadhi? The answer became clearer with experience. Practice does not accumulate like time in a bank. Instead, it removes resistance.

Dhyana becomes longer and more stable not because of effort, but because effort reduces. Samadhi is not just extended meditation; it is a qualitative shift where the observer and the process dissolve into one. This cannot be forced by increasing duration. It emerges when interference drops to zero. The breath becoming subtle, awareness stabilizing, and the sense of ease increasing are all signs of this direction, but they are not goals to chase.

Natural Timing and the One-Hour Cycle

An interesting pattern appeared: after exactly one hour, the body would come out of dhyana on its own, without looking at a clock. This initially felt significant, but it turned out to be a natural rhythm. The body operates in cycles, and after a certain duration, it rebalances itself. This is not a limit but a self-regulation mechanism. Forcing beyond it or trying to hold the state would only create disturbance.

The key realization was that meditation is not about duration but about quality. Whether it lasts forty minutes or seventy, the depth and stability matter more than the clock.

The Role of Padmasana and Physical Limits

Alongside meditation, posture also evolved. Holding Padmasana became easier, increasing from thirty minutes to nearly an hour. However, after thirty minutes, a mild strain in the knee would appear. This raised an important question about whether the body should be challenged to increase stamina.

The answer became clear: muscles can be trained, but joints must be respected. The knee is not designed to adapt to strain in the same way muscles do. The strain indicated that the hips were not fully open yet, and the knee was compensating. Pushing through this would not build strength; it would accumulate risk.

Breaking posture briefly did not disrupt dhyana when done consciously. In fact, it often improved the second phase of meditation by removing subtle discomfort. This shifted the focus from rigid continuity to intelligent continuity—maintaining awareness rather than posture.

Observing Knee Sensitivity Beyond Practice

Another important observation was that the right knee showed stress not only in lotus but also after driving or when physical activity was reduced. This indicated that the issue was not limited to posture but involved general joint sensitivity. Long periods of immobility or repetitive use, such as driving, were enough to trigger discomfort.

This reinforced the need for balanced movement and gentle care rather than pushing limits. The body was signaling clearly that it required attention, not force.

Morning vs Evening Meditation Dynamics

A subtle but practical understanding developed regarding timing. After dinner, focusing strongly upward toward the Ajna center felt uncomfortable, possibly because digestion was active. In contrast, morning meditation before breakfast felt naturally deeper and more stable.

This led to a simple approach: use the morning for deeper practice and keep evening sessions lighter. There was no need to manipulate energy or direct it consciously. The body’s natural rhythms were enough to guide practice.

Integrating Meditation with Daily Life

Another practical question arose about how long to wait before breakfast after meditation. A short gap of about fifteen to twenty minutes proved sufficient. This allowed the body to transition from deep calm to active digestion without abrupt shifts. Simple activities like sitting quietly or moving gently were enough during this interval.

Final Understanding: Effortless Progress

Looking at the entire journey, the central theme that emerged was simplicity. Techniques, duration, posture, and even subtle experiences all have their place, but none of them should be forced. Progress in meditation is not about doing more; it is about interfering less.

The initial shock from Sutra Neti, the evolving breath, the shifting sensations along the spine, the natural one-hour cycle, the knee’s feedback, and the timing of practice all pointed toward the same conclusion. The system knows how to balance itself if allowed.

The real movement is not upward or downward, not toward any chakra or state, but toward effortlessness. And in that effortless state, dhyana deepens on its own, without struggle, without force, and without the need to chase anything further.

Diwali Week: A Yogi’s Practical Insights Through Temple Experiences

This Diwali week, after a long journey, I visited my ancestral home and stayed there for several days. It was a joyful time — being again with family, relatives, and friends, celebrating the festival of lights in full enthusiasm. Yet along with the outer joy, many new practical yogic experiences unfolded naturally.

I was so involved in the living flow of the festival — meeting people, travelling, helping family, and feeling the spirit of Diwali — that I could not write them down then. But within those days, in between the busy movements, I received sharp insights that no book or teaching could give. These experiences came in the most natural settings — especially when I got moments of solitude inside the city temples while my family was shopping nearby.

Day 1 – Durga–Bhairav Temple: The Dual Anchor of Meditation

On the first day, after dropping my family at a city shopping complex, I went straight to a Durga temple.
There, in front of the large and powerful idol of Maa Durga, I sat in padmāsana. The moment I closed my eyes, deep stillness descended. Soon, the breath became effortless — almost absent — and I entered Kevala Kumbhak, the natural breathless dhyāna.

At intervals, I opened my eyes and looked at the idol. Every single glance into the serene face of Durga instantly deepened the state again, as if the outer image was helping the inner form stabilize. The image remained alive even after closing the eyes, glowing vividly in the mental screen — not as imagination, but as a living vibration.

In front of Durga’s idol was a smaller statue of Bhairav. When the attention slightly tired or mind became neutral, I gazed at Bhairav’s image instead. Strangely, his gaze and energy acted as another anchor, rekindling the stillness from a different polarity — sharp, grounding, and stabilizing.

Thus, I discovered a beautiful rhythm: when Durga’s compassionate presence began to feel saturated, I turned to Bhairav’s fierce calmness; when that too reached a plateau, I returned to Durga.
It was like alternating currents of Shakti and Shiva, feminine and masculine energy, balancing and sustaining each other — a living demonstration of Ardhanārīśvara tattva.

Perhaps this is the deeper reason why Durga and Bhairav idols are placed together in many temples. For ordinary devotees, it represents protection and blessing. But for a yogi, it becomes a direct energetic mechanism — allowing both polarities of consciousness to support dhyāna.
The ordinary mind may see the idol as an object, but the yogic mind perceives it as a mirror of consciousness.

I realized that idols (pratimā) are not merely symbolic or devotional aids — they are scientific instruments of meditation. For a sincere meditator, the benefit is immediate and measurable: the mind falls into stillness the very moment one connects with the living image. That is direct proof, not belief.

Others, who approach idols only through tradition or emotion, also receive benefits, though subtler and delayed. But to a real yogi, the result is instant — the statue becomes alive, the mind becomes no-mind.

Evening – Shulini Sister Temple: The Silent Pindi and the Deep Breathless Stillness

In the evening of the same day, when my family again went for shopping, I visited Shulini Mata’s sister temple.
The environment was deeply sattvic like earlier temple: gentle movement of people, occasional ringing of the temple bell, mantra chants from distant devotees, the fragrance of burning incense, oil lamps glowing in rows, and from time to time, the conch sound from the priest echoing through the hall.
Each element seemed perfectly tuned to draw the consciousness inward.

The main deity was not a fully personified idol but a stone pindi — a simple mound of stone representing the goddess. Silver eyes were fixed on it, with tiny black dots marking the pupils, and a nose faintly carved in the middle. Despite this simplicity, or perhaps because of it, the image radiated immense power.

As I sat before it, the same Kevala Kumbhak arose again naturally — effortless, spontaneous, and prolonged. The experience was even deeper than in the morning. I remained in vajrāsana for forty-five minutes to an hour. My legs went numb, yet the body felt weightless, pain absent. Awareness remained centered, breath minimal, mind absorbed in the living vibration of the pindi.

That evening, I learned that personification is not necessary for divine connection. Even a symbolic form — if approached in stillness — can become a complete doorway to samādhi.
What matters is the state of mind, not the complexity of the idol.

Day 2 – Shani Temple and Saraswati Painting: The Spontaneous Prāṇāyāma Emerges

The next day, while on the way to relatives’ home, my family again stopped for shopping. I dropped them out of the car, parked it safely, and started searching for a new temple — a change that could help me enter deeper dhyāna again without feeling bored. It made me realize that the more temples there are, the better it is for a seeker; one can keep visiting different temples daily and repeat the cycle once all have been covered. This means it is good, both socially and economically, to build as many temples as possible. That is exactly why we see countless temples in pilgrimage towns. Some people may ask, “Why so many? Why not just one?” But human likings differ — just as there are many kinds of sweets, not only one. The same principle applies here. I found a Shani temple nearby and decided to sit there for a while. The main sanctum was closed, but on the outer wall was a small painting of Goddess Saraswati. I sat on the cool marble floor and used that painting as my dhyāna anchor. As concentration deepened, something remarkable happened: effortless rhythmic breaths began — not forced, not practiced, but arising on their own. Each inbreath was imperceptible; each outbreath carried a subtle sound — like a soft, continuous “gharr” vibration, resembling bhrāmarī prāṇāyāma but much subtler and self-born.

The awareness stayed steady, and the breath pattern continued automatically — a clear reminder that real prāṇāyāma is spontaneous, not mechanical.

Scriptures mention countless types of prāṇāyāma and their benefits, but the essence is often misunderstood. The yogi who practices Kundalinī Yoga eventually discovers that these classical prāṇāyāmas are natural by-products of inner awakening — not techniques to be imitated but symptoms of true meditative absorption.

When energy begins to move naturally through the channels (nāḍīs), prāṇa itself reshapes the breathing pattern according to the need of inner transformation. Trying to imitate these states from scriptures — without the foundation of dhyāna — may give some outer sensations, but they are superficial.
Such imitation can even give illusion of attainment — a feeling that one has mastered all prāṇāyāma — while in truth, the deeper awakening remains untouched.

Therefore, one must understand that the real prāṇāyāma of the scriptures refers to the spontaneous phenomenon arising during deep kundalinī sādhanā, not the deliberate breathing exercises often mistaken for it. I don’t know, but perhaps these superficial forms of prāṇāyāma gradually lead to deeper dhyāna, either in a worldly or spiritual way. One may also become accustomed to them, so that when spontaneous prāṇāyāma arises naturally, it doesn’t come as a shock. Therefore, even these external practices should be taken positively.

Summary Insight

Across all these temple experiences, one truth became clearer:

  • Idols, images, and symbols are not only external aids but also living focal points for consciousness.
  • The feminine and masculine energies (Durga–Bhairav) act alternately to balance the mind.
  • The form of deity — whether human-like or abstract — is secondary; the stillness it invokes is the real prāṇa.
  • True prāṇāyāma, like true samādhi, happens naturally in the state of inner silence.

These few days of Diwali brought me both family joy and spiritual refinement. I returned back with a deep gratitude — for the divine presence that works through simple images, through silence, through breathless stillness, and even through the seemingly ordinary circumstances of daily life.

In this way, the festival of light truly became a festival of inner illumination.

Riding Over Sleep

The very next day, my sleep broke at 2:30 a.m. I left the bed and sat on the ground in asana. The breath was agitated but not as rocket-like as the previous day. After trying for an hour, I did yogasana for the next half hour, followed by spinal breathing. Then I again tried dhyana for an hour — no success, though the witnessing of buried thoughts continued with a sense of bliss. But how can the mind be satisfied with that once it has tasted the deep breathless dhyana?

Afterwards, I ate a bowl of khichari, a ripe apple, and some herbal tea. However, the herbal tea, being strong, caused a little acidity, so I decided not to use it in a strong ratio in the future. Then I sat again for half an hour, but there was not much improvement. The morning light has grown outside. After that, I did chakra meditation on each chakra. A blissful yogic pressure arose, and I felt dhyana ripening. There was some throat obstruction, so I did jala neti. At various moments during the entire sitting since beginning, pranic energy was rushing upward.

Then deep dhyana launched — the breath became very shallow, and there was a partial entry into pure awareness. For a moment or two, the breath stopped completely, with total merging into pure awareness, but it was too transient. Suddenly, the face of a man seemingly practicing distorted tantra appeared with a strange, cursing expression—though silent, it felt as if he were speaking ill behind my back. This vision dislodged me from that dhyana despite my attempt to remain unaffected.

A new understanding emerged — Dictatorial control, even if positive in intent, should not be held in mind toward such selfstyle people. The amazing thing is that it becomes little bit difficult to reopen the pranic channels and flow energy inside them even after just a few days of yogic inactivity or worldly involvement, or both. Moreover, sexual energy had also been drained away to clean and freshly refill the reservoir. This, too, had slightly slowed the upward movement of energy. Truly, successful yoga depends on many positive contributing factors, not just one. Each factor adds gradually, culminating in a unified whole. Like bricks coming together to build a sturdy home, all these elements combine to create the full structure of yoga practice. Let us now pick up the formal yoga blog next.

Riding Over Sleep

There’s something I keep noticing — sleep and yoga feel almost the same sometimes. When I sit quietly, some people around me say I’m not meditating, just sitting and pretending while actually dozing off. They don’t know how thin that line really is.

In a jagrata, during an all-night bhajan or kirtan for Mata or Shiva, something similar happens. You ride on the wave of sleep instead of letting it swallow you. The body is tired, but you don’t collapse. You stay alert through music, rhythm, and devotion. Slowly the boundary between waking and sleep melts. If you manage to stay aware at that edge, you touch a state that feels like Nirvikalpa — awareness without thought, just stillness watching itself. However if one is highly tired, he may sleep too while sitting in meditation pose. Moreover, it is better to meditate at a sufficient distance from such kirtans; otherwise, the loudspeaker’s sound can be disturbing. However, it should still be faintly audible so that its sattvic vibrations can have an uplifting and purifying influence.

Spiritually it makes sense. The repetition of divine names and surrender quiets the usual noise of the mind. Consciousness stays bright though the body is dull. You hover right between wake and sleep — the thin doorway the scriptures call Turiya, the state behind waking, dream, and deep sleep.

Even physiologically it fits. Chanting soothes the nerves, slows the breath, and keeps you relaxed but awake. Sleep pressure builds, yet rhythm and emotion don’t let you slip into full sleep. The brain rests while awareness stands guard — a soft, glowing balance that scientists call a hypnagogic state, and yogis call bliss.

So yes, jagrata can really open that doorway if the inner condition is right. Not everyone reaches Nirvikalpa through it, but the path runs that way.

The Mandukya Upanishad describes this beautifully. It speaks of four states — waking (jagrat), dream (svapna), deep sleep (sushupti), and the fourth one, Turiya. The first three come and go, but Turiya stays untouched. When you are at that sleepy edge during bhajan yet remain aware, you are already brushing Turiya.

Yoga Vasistha echoes the same truth. Sage Vasistha tells Rama that a wise person “sleeps even while awake and is awake even while asleep.” It means a yogi’s awareness doesn’t blink, no matter what the body does. What ordinary people call rest becomes conscious rest for the yogi. The body may be half asleep, yet awareness shines quietly. This is Yoga Nidra or Jagrat Sushupti — wakeful deep sleep, the art of riding over sleep instead of sinking into it.

Now, look at it through the Kundalini–Tantra eye. The state between waking and sleep — jagrat sushupti sandhi — is where prana turns inward. Usually energy flows outward through senses. In sleep it withdraws, but awareness also fades. If, by mantra or kirtan or still meditation, awareness stays awake while energy turns inward, you catch the serpent of sleep consciously — that’s Kundalini entering Sushumna, the central channel. This edge is the real turiya-dwara, the doorway to the fourth state.

During long chanting or meditation, breath evens out, emotions settle, Ida and Pingala — the left and right flows — come into balance, and Sushumna opens. Energy that once fed thoughts now rises upward. When awareness is pure and surrendered, it merges into silent consciousness — Nirvikalpa-like stillness. When awareness wavers, it still brings a wave of bliss or devotion, though not full samadhi.

Tantra says nothing is to be rejected, not even sleep. “Whatever binds you can liberate you, when seen rightly.” Even sleepiness can help if you meet it consciously. At that edge, Muladhara energy melts upward, the Ajna and Sahasrara light up. A tired body with wakeful awareness is fertile ground for spontaneous samadhi. That’s why many saints reached awakening through music, love, and surrender rather than severe austerity — their prana rose gently, effortlessly.

If you learn to watch yourself at the point where waking becomes sleep and stay aware with devotion or mantra, that small passage turns royal — it takes you straight toward Turiya. Nothing to force, nothing to do, just don’t fall unconscious.

The same energy that pulls you into sleep can, when met with awareness, lift you into samadhi.

It all began from a simple feeling that yoga and sleep seem alike. Yet behind that simple resemblance hides a deep secret — both touch the same doorway. In jagrata or devotional wakefulness, sleep stops being an enemy. It becomes a wave to ride — one that can carry you beyond waking and dream into that luminous stillness where only awareness itself remains.

When Sleepiness Became Dhyana

After a few days of worldly indulgence—caught up in the sense of heightened ambition for a minor physical property, working tirelessly for it—I noticed my yoga routine faltered. The rhythm that once carried me into calm depth grew shaky. My sittings reduced, and the familiar breathless stillness in dhyana did not appear.

When the worldly deal finally finished, I spent two or three days trying to regain the lost acceleration. As soon as I opened my eyes in the morning—whatever the time—I would rise from bed and first sit for dhyana, then yoga, alternating both. Today I rose around three-thirty in the morning. I went through everything including both types of neti and also dhouti, yet the breathless dhyana eluded me.

Later, after lunch, while sitting in vajrasana, I caught a small glimpse of that breathless state. In the evening I sat long—from four-thirty to five-thirty. The breathing was like a rocket, fast and fierce, and it wouldn’t calm down despite simple watching and the mental recitation of Soham. Then a kind of drowsiness appeared, an urge to lie down. I resisted it, and soon the body grew tired enough that it couldn’t keep pace with the breath. The breathing itself began to subside and finally became breathless, although not fully as earlier. I couldn’t hold it beyond an hour, but something new dawned on me: perhaps deep dhyana is like sleep—but with awareness.

It felt like a discovery. If I keep trying while sitting, and tiredness and sleepiness develop, deep dhyana comes of its own accord. There seems to be a lot of similarity between sleep and yoga, so much so that many people say I’m just sitting and pretending to do yoga while actually sleeping.

That realization opened an inner understanding. What I had stumbled upon matched what the old yogic insights describe. After intense worldly activity, the rajas in the system—the restless energy of ambition—agitated the prana and made the mind outward-bent. That’s why my yoga was disturbed. Yoga thrives on sattva, on balance. The disturbance wasn’t a fall; it was simply the pendulum of prana swinging outward before returning inward.

When I sat again, the period of “rocket-speed” breathing was the body’s way of clearing that outward energy. The prana was neutralizing the residue of worldly intensity. Such rapid breathing often comes when sadhana resumes after heavy worldly engagement.

Then the fatigue came. The body wanted rest. I understood that this sleepiness wasn’t an obstacle—it was a doorway. When the body tires, egoic control relaxes. Effort softens. The automatic patterns of breath and thought lose momentum. If awareness remains present, if I do not slip into ordinary sleep, what unfolds is wakeful stillness—a state like sleep, yet suffused with consciousness.

In yogic terms, this is the threshold where the transition from waking (jagrat) toward turiya begins, passing through a “sleep-like” quiet where only awareness remains and the body and breath rest deeply. Breathless samadhi doesn’t come through effort but through the total exhaustion of effort.

It became clear that when striving ends and awareness simply watches, the body may fall into sleep-like repose, breath may stop, and consciousness alone remains. That is the path leading into Yoga Nidra, Dhyana, and Turiya alike.

Yoga Nidra, Breathless Dhyana, and Turiya—One Thread

I saw that all three—Yoga Nidra, Turiya, and breathless Dhyana—are reached through the very process I experienced. The difference lies only in depth and continuity.

Yoga Nidra happens when body and senses withdraw, mind slows, thoughts fade, and a gentle sleepiness comes while awareness stays faintly awake. Breath grows light or pauses briefly. I realized that the tiredness and sleepiness bringing deep dhyana are the same threshold where Yoga Nidra begins.

Deep Dhyana or Kevala Kumbhaka unfolds when mind and effort both stop. Awareness is steady and bright. Because the mind’s vibration ceases, breath naturally ceases too. The breathless state comes not from control but from silence itself. Here time and body vanish; only luminous stillness remains.

And Turiya—the “fourth state”—is that awareness of awareness itself. It’s the substratum beneath waking, dream, and sleep. When I stay aware through the Yoga-Nidra-like stillness, without slipping into sleep, consciousness recognizes itself. Breathlessness is incidental; the real mark is unbroken awareness through all states.

Yoga Nidra quiets the mind; Dhyana stills both mind and breath; Turiya shines as the background of all. They don’t come strictly one after another in time but unfold in depth. Breathless dhyana uncovers Turiya; Turiya is what remains when even the sense of meditating dissolves.

So, the relationship is simple:
Yoga Nidra is mental slowing with calm breath,
Breathless Dhyana is total stillness of mind and breath,
Turiya is the foundation discovered when stillness itself is seen to be one’s own nature. Means it is like samadhi. Actually turiya is background state and samadhi is process of achieving it. When with repeated practice of samadhi the background awareness starts remaining always then this is turiya.

When Turiya Is Seen

Once Turiya is truly seen, something irreversible happens. It is not a passing state but the ever-present background consciousness of every state—waking, dream, or deep sleep. The first recognition feels like an experience, yet soon it’s clear it was never gained or lost—only revealed.

Even when worldly activity resumes, a quiet background of awareness remains beneath all movement. At first it flickers—noticed at times, forgotten at others—but it never disappears completely, because the illusion of separateness has been pierced.

Then the role of meditation changes. Before this recognition, meditation is a practice, an effort to reach stillness. Afterward, meditation becomes resting in what already is. Earlier, one did dhyana; now dhyana happens. Effort stops; awareness pervades everything—thoughts, actions, and breath.

This is why saints describe Sahaja Samadhi—the spontaneous abiding in Turiya during all activities. Meditation doesn’t end; it becomes continuous. Some still sit each day, not to attain, but because the body finds harmony in that posture and prana refines itself further. It’s simply joy—like a musician who still plays, not to learn but because sound itself is blissful.

The essence is this:
Meditation ends as effort, not as awareness.
Turiya is not practiced; it is noticed.
The only “practice” afterward is non-forgetfulness—remembering that all movements of life rise and fall within the same unmoving awareness.

When Turiya is clearly recognized, peace no longer depends on meditation. One may sit in silence simply because it is natural. Awareness rests in its own delight, unaffected by whether the breath is still or moving.

The Understanding Now

Looking back, I can see the full sequence in my own journey:

  • The worldly ambition disturbed the balance of prana.
  • Sitting again, the high-speed breathing purified that outward rush.
  • Fatigue drew the ego into surrender.
  • Sleepiness appeared, but staying aware within it opened the gate to stillness.
  • The breath stopped, revealing a silence beyond effort.
  • From that silence, the recognition dawned—this unmoving awareness was there before, during, and after every experience. Although it remains a fleeting and unstable experience, that is why the effort to achieve it continues.

And that awareness, once seen, never completely leaves.

Enhancing Dhyana through Yogic Cleansing Techniques

Recently, I noticed that after performing rubber neti, a distinct sensation persisted along my left nostril passage. When I sat down for dhyana and focused on this sensation, my breath felt partially suspended, and I could observe subtle internal responses. I had also done vastra dhauti, and together these practices led me into a wonderful state of kevala kumbhaka during dhyana. This shows that such cleansing techniques truly support meditation. This heightened sensitivity is likely connected to the internal awareness cultivated through yoga and pranayama practices.

Later, during Vastra Dhauti, I ingested a full-length gauze bandage of about one and a half feet, though I captured its end carefully with my hand to ensure safety. Unlike earlier experiences where I felt resistance from the lower esophageal sphincter, this time it came out easily when I pulled it. I reflected on why the sphincter’s grip was different this time. Physiologically, sphincter tone naturally varies due to factors like relaxation, digestion, hydration, and nervous system state. From a yogic perspective, classical texts describe the resistance as the body’s natural “gate” holding impurities, which can reduce as the body becomes cleansed and the channels more open.

I also considered recent influences on my internal state. About fifteen hours earlier, I had consumed a beverage containing a small percentage of green tea along with herbal components. That night, I experienced strong GERD with momentary suffocation during sleep. The combination of caffeine, catechins, and acidic foods like sour lassi and curry likely contributed to LES relaxation, increased stomach acid, and heightened sensitivity to reflux. Even sleeping with my head elevated 20–25% did not fully prevent the episode, highlighting that LES tone, residual acid, and heightened internal awareness can overpower positional benefits.

This experience reinforced my observation that prana-raising yoga can heighten sensitivity to GERD. Pranayama, Kundalini, and other prana-focused practices modulate the autonomic nervous system — often increasing vagal tone and at times sympathetic activity. These shifts can contribute to transient relaxations of the lower esophageal sphincter and, combined with heightened interoceptive awareness from yoga, may make sensations such as reflux more noticeable. Even a standard wait period of three to three and a half hours after meals does not always prevent reflux for someone with heightened sensitivity. That is why, in Yoga, cleansing techniques such as Vaman and Dhauti are prescribed — they help purify the digestive tract and may indirectly support functions like those of the LES.

I have clearly found that Keval Kumbhak Dhyana helps reduce GERD and gastritis. When I lie down to sleep in a bad mood, feeling bored or stressfully tired, acid often rises, burning my esophagus and throat, and even eroding my teeth. But when I sit for Keval Kumbhak Dhyana, I become cool and refreshed. After such practice, I notice that during subsequent evening or night sleep, acid reflux does not occur. This clearly proves that deep dhyana reduces stress and promotes healthy forward gut motility. I also feel an increase in appetite after dhyana. It means that easy and calm yoga, without strenuous or rapid energy shifts, is better in this condition.

GERD is primarily caused by transient lower esophageal sphincter relaxations (TLESRs), which are neurogenic reflexes mediated through the vagus nerve in the parasympathetic system. Excess vagal activation, often triggered by gastric distension or autonomic shifts, is what induces these relaxations. Constant sympathetic dominance by itself does not usually cause GERD, but it can impair esophageal clearance, slow digestion, and heighten stress-related sensitivity to symptoms, making reflux episodes feel worse. Thus, it is the dynamic shifts and imbalances between parasympathetic and sympathetic activity—rather than a single constant state—that underlie both the occurrence of reflux and the way it is perceived. So, it’s really over-activation or imbalance (too much of either, or rapid shifts between the two) that creates the problem — not their normal physiological levels. In yoga, however, the deliberate play of the sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous systems may often cause surges in either and rapid shifts between both states, which explains why heightened awareness of reflux can occur during intense prana-raising practices. However in yoga, both mechanisms can play a role — sometimes it’s just heightened awareness of normal reflux, and sometimes the practice itself can physiologically trigger reflux through vagal reflexes, abdominal pressure, or autonomic shifts.

I also explored alternatives to reduce such effects while retaining benefits. Non-caffeinated or decaffeinated green tea provides the antioxidants and catechins of green tea without stimulating the nervous system or relaxing the sphincter excessively. Choosing decaf blends or herbal infusions allows for the health benefits without aggravating GERD, making them more compatible with yogic cleansing practices.

Finally, I considered a safety protocol for Vastra Dhauti after reflux-prone days: waiting 24 hours after acidic or caffeinated foods, checking stomach comfort, ensuring well-lubricated gauze, maintaining upright posture, breathing calmly, observing LES response, and monitoring for soreness or burning afterward. This cautious approach, combined with attention to diet, posture, and timing of prana-raising practices, helps sustain the benefits of yogic cleansing while minimizing discomfort or risk.

My Experience with Dhauti, GERD, and Food Sensitivity

The other day when I practiced vastra dhauti, I noticed something very interesting. As I started to draw out the cloth, it felt like it was being gripped from inside. When I kept a constant, light pull, it didn’t slide out smoothly. Instead, it came out in small pulses, as if something inside was releasing it little by little.

The Haṭha Yoga Pradīpikā (2.24) and Gheraṇḍa Saṁhitā (1.16–18) describe Vastra Dhauti as a practice where a moist, clean strip of cloth is swallowed and later withdrawn, purifying the stomach. The texts say the stomach “grasps and pulls it in”, which should not be taken literally; rather, once throat resistance is overcome, the natural peristaltic movement of the esophagus and stomach muscles carries the cloth inward, giving the yogi the feeling that the stomach itself is drawing it inside. It purifies the stomach, removes excess bile and phlegm, and prepares the yogi for subtler practices.

That made me wonder: was the cloth stuck in my stomach? Or was some sphincter muscle holding it?

After thinking over it, I realized the esophagus has two main sphincters. One is the cardiac (lower esophageal) sphincter, which sits just above the stomach, and the other is the pyloric sphincter, which sits at the stomach’s exit into the intestine. The pulsative grip I felt was most likely from the cardiac sphincter. This sphincter naturally prevents food or foreign objects from falling freely into the stomach, so the entire cloth cannot simply slip down and get trapped.

That discovery was a relief. It meant that if one end of the vastra is held in the hand, even a beginner should be able to withdraw it safely, though slowly and with patience. The pulsating contractions and the irritation from the cloth itself help in gradually pushing it upward.

Then another thought struck me: if my cardiac sphincter can grip the vastra this strongly, does it mean my sphincter is not weak? I’ve been dealing with GERD (acid reflux), and one common explanation is that the lower esophageal sphincter gets weak. But maybe in my case, that isn’t the whole story. Perhaps there are other reasons for my reflux.

This is where the question of food sensitivity came up. I wondered if gluten sensitivity might be a hidden factor, mainly in ankylosing spondyloarthritis like me. Gluten can irritate the gut lining in some people and worsen reflux or bloating, even when the sphincter itself is working fine.

But then I noticed something else: even when I ate jwar (sorghum) roti, which is gluten-free, it felt hard to digest. Although I found relief with it when well cooked, thin and in small to moderate quantity. This made me realize that digestion is not just about gluten. Foods like jwar, bajra, and chana are heavy, high in fiber, and too much can sit in the stomach longer, which can sometimes worsens reflux.

I considered mixing grains: jwar + bajra + chana multigrain roti. This could balance heaviness with variety, but it may still feel dense if digestion is already weak. On the other hand, lighter options like oats + kutki (little millet) seem easier on the system.

Yet, I have a deep habit of eating roti every day. It’s cultural, emotional, and satisfying. So the challenge is not to quit roti, but to find the grain combination that gives me both digestibility and comfort.

From this whole journey, my learnings are:

  • The body has natural safety mechanisms (like the sphincter grip in dhauti).
  • GERD is not always about a weak sphincter; food type and sensitivity matter a lot.
  • Heavy gluten-free grains can also be tough, so light mixes may be better.
  • Habits like roti can be kept, but with smart substitutions.

In the end, the practice of dhauti not only helped me cleanse but also gave me a direct insight into how my sphincter works. That, combined with my experiments with roti and grains, is slowly teaching me the personal balance I need for both yoga practice and digestive health.

I got help in meditative Dhyana, relief from GERD, and an improvement in personality through it. I felt I had come to know enough of the interior of my body. Dhouti Vastra was like a narrow clinical gauze bandage, about 1.5 feet in length. The throat resists it and propels it out with coughing; it only enters the stomach if enough normal saline water is drunk along with it. The outer end should never be swallowed, otherwise it may be lost inside and surgery could be required to remove it. Therefore, this is a serious practice and should be done cautiously, under the guidance of an expert.

Chapter 9 – Healing from the Inside Out

Human life is not just a chain of days and events. It is a flow of patterns, shaped by awareness, taking form as the body and mind we live in. In the last chapter, we saw how consciousness links experiences together and turns possibilities into reality. Now, we look deeper—into the body’s power to heal itself from the inside out.

Most of us are taught to think of illness as something that “attacks” us from outside—a virus, a germ, an injury. But seen more deeply, illness is often a disturbance in the body’s natural balance. It is like a musical note going slightly out of tune. The instrument is still there; it just needs the right vibration to return to harmony.

The human body is not just flesh and bone. On a finer level, it is a field of information. Every cell and atom follows a kind of invisible blueprint. That invisible blueprint can be understood as the subconscious mind, because the subconscious stores the deep patterns, memories, and beliefs that quietly shape how the body functions, heals, and responds to life—often without our conscious awareness—acting like the hidden master plan the body follows. When this blueprint is clear, the body is healthy. When it is disturbed—by stress, shock, or unprocessed emotions—the body’s image of health becomes blurred. Real healing happens when that inner pattern is restored. Then, the body’s physical parts follow naturally. The inner pattern or blueprint means the subconscious mind’s pattern becomes clearer through meditation and spiritual practices like dana (charity), tapa (discipline), and vrata (sacred vows), which purify hidden impressions and restore the mind-body field to its natural harmony, allowing the body to heal more easily.

Modern medicine sees disease as a chemical imbalance or physical damage. That is true, but these are often the surface effects of a deeper cause—the disturbance in the body’s energy or information field. I refer to the subconscious mind as the body’s energy or information field because it silently stores and transmits the mental-emotional patterns as information and energy that influence the body’s chemistry, cell behavior, and overall balance—acting like an invisible control network that links mind, energy, and physical form. Quantum physics tells us that many possible states exist at once. In the body, this means every cell can “choose” between states of health or illness. The choice depends on the signals it receives from the surrounding field.

From this point of view, the work of a healer is not only to fight the disease, but also to guide the body back into its natural rhythm. A certain threshold of subconscious clarity is needed for the body’s natural rhythm to hold; when clarity drops below that point, distortions build up in the mind-body field, and disease begins to appear. This is why some therapies—sound, light, gentle touch, meditation—can help. They are not magic; they are ways of sending the “right song” back into the body so it remembers how to be well.

Even the so-called placebo effect is proof of this. When someone truly believes they will heal, the belief itself changes the body’s energy blueprint. “Blueprint” is just a metaphor to make the idea visual, but it directly means the body’s energy field or subconscious pattern that belief can influence and change. It is not the pill but the mind’s certainty that triggers the body to repair itself. Far from being “just imagination,” it is one of the clearest examples of the mind’s healing power.

Deep spiritual states also create a powerful healing field. For example, Nirvikalpa Samadhi is often misunderstood as withdrawing from life and sitting in emptiness. But it is really about living and acting with the understanding that the doer, the action, and the result are one. When the sense of doer, action, and result being one is realized, stress and inner conflict drop sharply, which prevents new subconscious disturbances from forming—helping the body stay in its natural state of health. Simply saying, nirvikalp samadhi clears the subconscious mind. A person in this state naturally radiates balance and calm. Just being around them can help others’ patterns return to harmony.

In yoga, practices like Yam and Niyam are not strict rules but ways to keep the body’s field clear and steady. They prevent disturbances before they appear. A karmayogi—someone who works in the world with selfless awareness—may look fully engaged in life, but inside they are in deep alignment, already healing themselves and influencing others.

Healing and self-realization meet in the quiet space between thoughts. When we pause and rest in awareness, the mind’s noise settles, and distortions fade. This is not emptiness in the dull sense, but a full and alive silence where the body remembers its original state of balance. It means that in moments of pure awareness—when thoughts pause like in keval kumbhak—the mind becomes still, the subconscious clears, and the body naturally returns to its healthy, balanced state; this silence feels vibrant and alive, not blank or lifeless.

The brain adds another mystery. Neurons send electrical signals in two-dimensional patterns, yet we experience a rich, three-dimensional world. This shows that depth and reality are not purely in the brain’s matter, but in how consciousness shapes information. In a hologram, if the source plate is clear, the image is clear. Healing works the same way—clarify the blueprint, and the whole picture changes. It means that just as a hologram’s image depends entirely on the clarity of its original recording plate, the body’s health depends on the clarity of its inner pattern or subconscious; when that inner “source” is clear, the outer physical condition naturally improves.

Life also gives us natural phases of alignment. In youth, energy flows strongly, and engaging fully with life strengthens harmony. Later, as the body slows, deeper stillness and states like Nirvikalpa come more easily, keeping the field aligned with less outward action. It means we have a better opportunity in youth to experience energy-awakening–based Savikalpa Samadhi, while in later life, silent Savikalpa Samadhi and even Nirvikalpa Samadhi can naturally arise as a result of the earlier energetic awakening.

In physics, the wavefunction holds all possible realities. What becomes real is chosen by the conditions at the moment. Healing is about tuning the conditions so the healthiest possibility becomes the natural choice. It means that, just as physics says all outcomes exist until conditions decide which one appears, the body also holds many possible health states, and by creating the right mental, emotional, and physical conditions, the body naturally “chooses” the healthiest state to manifest.

To heal from the inside out is to remember that the body is not a machine needing only external repair, but a living hologram in constant contact with infinite intelligence. At any moment, the song of the field can change—and when it does, the atoms follow. Whether through belief, sound, selfless work, or deep silence, we can invite the body back into its natural rhythm.

True healing is not about escaping the world or clinging to it. It is about walking through life as both healer and healed, knowing that the blueprint of wholeness is always present. Every mindful step strengthens the song of health. Every breath taken in awareness is a gentle return to balance. In this way, healing becomes not a struggle, but a natural expression of living in tune with who we really are—a spark of consciousness, shaping itself into the form of a healthy, living human being.

Living Samadhi in All Seasons of the Day

I have come to realize that Samadhi is not something to be locked inside a meditation room or reserved only for those rare moments when the world is quiet. For me, it has become a rhythm — like breathing in and out — flowing through the morning, afternoon, evening, and even into the busiest parts of the day. It’s not just about the cushion; it’s about carrying that awareness like a fragrance that lingers wherever I go.

My mornings begin with yoga, the body stretching and opening like the petals of a flower at dawn. The energy starts to hum in the spine, and before it dissipates, I let it settle in meditation for a full hour. This is not a forced concentration, but more like stepping into a quiet lake and letting the ripples fade on their own. The body is still, the mind settles, and the space between thoughts becomes more vivid than the thoughts themselves. I can feel the energy in the Ajna Chakra — steady, blissful — and this alone is enough to keep the mind detached from the usual noise of the day. Morning energy work creates a potential that lasts throughout the day, making it easier to enter deep dhyana during later meditation sittings, and sometimes even bringing brief, samadhi-like naps at intervals throughout the day.

Afternoons are different. Just after lunch, I sit in Vajrasana for about 30 minutes. This is a calmer, grounding period — digestion for both the body and the soul. Vajrasana itself is steadying, and I find that meditating right after a meal in this posture helps the body stay relaxed while the mind quietly tunes itself. It’s not as intense as morning practice, but it carries a deep, homely stillness, almost like a midday nap for the inner being — except you stay fully awake. I feel the downward spinal breath is more prominent during eating dhyana due to the downward movement of life force aiding digestion. However in early morning when belly is empty, the upward movement of breath seems more prominent.

Evenings are my favorite. About three hours after dinner, just before sleep, I give myself another hour. Here, there is no need to prepare the mind — the day has already done its work of tiring the body and mind. I simply sit, and the awareness slips into its place like a familiar old friend returning home. Often, this is the deepest session of the day because the body has nothing left to demand, and the mind knows there’s no more work to be done. The transition into sleep from this state feels like slipping from the banks of a quiet river into the open sea. When you fall asleep directly, the mind may stay restless, leading to light sleep and vivid dreams, which prevents full mental rest. But if you first slip into dhyana and then let sleep come naturally, the mind is already calm and inwardly settled. This allows sleep to be deeper, more blissful, refreshing, and satisfying.

But it doesn’t end with these sitting periods. My way of Karma Yoga — through Sharirvigyan Darshan — has become the thread that keeps it all stitched together. While working, I remain aware of the body as if it were an atom: the brain as the nucleus, the electrons as shifting personalities, thoughts as orbiting patterns that I don’t need to catch or control. The body works, the mind thinks, but I stand a little apart, like the witness. In this way, the practice is not interrupted by activity; it is activity that becomes part of the practice.

There is a sweetness in this rhythm. Morning freshness, afternoon grounding, evening melting into stillness — and in between, the flowing stream of Karma Yoga. Each session is like cleaning a window so that the view stays clear. Over time, I have learned that Samadhi is not only found in long stretches of sitting but also in these shorter, daily touchpoints that keep the awareness polished and alive. When combined, they become a continuous current, humming quietly beneath the surface of everything I do.

It is important to understand that while dhyana or samadhi itself is not dependent on the mind, the mind is still required to prepare the ground for it. In the early stages, mental focus and clarity are essential to enter the state. This is why being fresh, alert, and well-rested allows dhyana to establish more quickly and with greater depth. Once true samadhi is reached, it becomes self-sustaining — the mind in that state neither tires nor drifts into drowsiness or sleep over time. By contrast, if one attempts meditation in a dull or drowsy condition, the practice is likely to slide into yoganidra or ordinary sleep rather than samadhi.

Public demonstrations such as being buried underground for days cannot be equated with samadhi. These feats are often the result of advanced pranayama skills such as keval kumbhak (effortless breath retention) or other survival-oriented techniques. While impressive, they do not necessarily reflect inner absorption, and the ego investment in performing such displays can become a subtle obstacle to genuine spiritual advancement. True samadhi, as described in the yogic tradition, is free of exhibition and rooted in inner stillness.