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Quantum Darshan: From Atmavat Sarvabhuteshu to the Unity of Consciousness

There is a Sanskrit teaching that has suddenly appeared to me in a new light: “Atmavat sarvabhuteshu yah pashyati sa panditah” — one who sees all beings as oneself is truly wise. I have often approached spiritual ideas through direct observation rather than through belief, and this verse now appears to me as one of the deepest philosophical foundations of what I spontaneously call my “Quantum Darshan.” What interests me is not merely its familiar ethical meaning, as though it simply advises us to treat others as we would like to be treated. Its deeper possibility is ontological. It suggests that beneath the apparent multiplicity of individual beings there may be a fundamental commonality of consciousness. In that sense, the verse becomes much more than a moral instruction. It becomes an observation about reality itself: many beings may appear separate at the level of body, mind and personality, while the underlying principle by which experience is known may not be as divided as the external world suggests.

Atmavat Sarvabhuteshu and the Mystery of One Consciousness in Many Beings

This understanding fits closely with the direction of my wider writings on Kundalini, meditation, awareness, non-duality and spiritual psychology. Again and again, my own experience has led me toward a distinction between the changing individual structure and the awareness in which that structure is experienced. Normally, the world encounters consciousness only through its association with a particular body. We therefore naturally think of consciousness as belonging to separate individuals: this person has consciousness, that person has consciousness, and every being appears to have its own isolated center. But when attention turns inward through meditation, this assumption can become less obvious. The body remains, sensations remain, thoughts may remain, but awareness itself can be experienced in a way that seems less restricted by ordinary personal identification. This is also connected with my earlier experiences of deep dhyana, breathlessness, Keval Kumbhak, Savikalpa and the movement toward states I have described in relation to Nirvikalpa. The essential question becomes whether consciousness is truly fragmented or whether fragmentation is largely a feature of embodiment and identification.

It is not limited to living beings but extends to non-living beings as well. All matter, whatever its nature or external appearance, also holds a deeper existence that remains unaffected by its outward form. In casual living, we generally consider outer forms as real, but their inner, deeper and pure existence is their true nature. This is why we speak of Paramatman as Atman present in everything.

Even in Sharirvigyan Darshan, the body’s cells, tissues and structures are contemplated as non-distinct from the meditator’s own sense of being. Quantum Darshan simply extends this inquiry further, to every fundamental particle, and ultimately even to the underlying space in which everything exists. A brick, for example, is not ultimately separate from the soil and material from which it is formed. In the same way, no material form can be considered completely separate from the deeper existence underlying it.

Therefore, there is a reason to regard Sharirvigyan Darshan and Quantum Darshan as practical modern extensions of the ancient insight expressed in the verse, “Atmavat sarvabhuteshu yah pashyati sa panditah.” This does not mean that only when the meditator reaches a purified state of the Self can he meditate on his similarity with the world. The sense of selfhood associated with every thought, emotion, bodily structure and interaction also needs to be included in this inquiry. Every cell and every fundamental particle participates in the innumerable interactions that collectively constitute what we call a human being, just as they participate in the interactions of the wider material world. Thus, the same principle can be followed progressively from the human level to the cellular level, from the cellular level to the quantum level, and ultimately to the very ground of space itself up to fundamental pure existence, extending the contemplative insight from the individual body to everything that exists.

Moreover, atmvat literally means “like oneself,” not “fully oneself.” Different beings and things express consciousness to different degrees, so they are not entirely equal in their expression of consciousness. However, their basic structure and fundamental functions are similar, just as a bus and a car are not equal in size or capacity but share the same basic structural principles and serve similar functions.

From Kundalini Experience to a Quantum-Like Vision

My use of the word “Quantum” is therefore philosophical rather than a claim that ancient scripture has scientifically proved modern quantum mechanics. I am not presenting Kundalini or this Sanskrit verse as experimental evidence from physics. Rather, I find that some modern scientific ideas provide a useful language for expressing an intuition that arose independently through contemplation and experience. In my spontaneous formulation, the sequence is simple: one underlying consciousness, apparently expressed through many observers, each associated with a separate body and mind. The multiplicity is real at the empirical level, but perhaps not final at the deepest level of awareness. This is where the phrase “Atmavat sarvabhuteshu” becomes especially powerful. To see all beings as oneself can mean not merely developing sympathy toward them, but recognizing a deeper continuity of being. The individual remains individual in practical life, yet the ultimate subjectivity behind experience may be understood as less divided than the personalities through which it appears.

I even feel that this verse is the core of every secret of spiritual development. Without this understanding, there can be no real spiritual development, while with it, spiritual development can continue in every condition of life. It gives a direction in which every experience and every condition can become part of spiritual development. However, one still has to do good karmas, because the fruits of karmas are inevitable and have to be tolerated when they come. Spiritual understanding does not make one free from the fruits of one’s actions; therefore, good karmas remain necessary while progressing on the spiritual path.

I feel that my first awakening came through this verse, which entered my life naturally through a Sanatana family environment. My second awakening came through the same verse again, but this time in a completely different and unexpected form, disguised as Sharirvigyan Darshan and later as Quantum Darshan. The outer forms were different, but I now feel that the underlying insight was the same. This is what makes the mahima of this verse indescribable and apparently infinite to me.
Because of this personal experience, I find it difficult to compare this verse with other mantras or spiritual teachings, even with Gayatri Mantra. To me, it stands at the top of everything that existed, exists, or will exist. This is not a claim that others must accept, nor do I intend to diminish the importance of other mantras or paths. It is simply how the verse has revealed itself through my own life and spiritual development. Others may experience another mantra or teaching as supreme, and I have no doubt about that. For me, however, the same simple insight has appeared again and again in different forms, first through my family environment and later through my own contemplative discoveries, making me feel that its depth is far beyond what I had understood when I first encountered it.

The amazing thing is that it does not say that the Atma, or pure Self, is similar to everything, as many religions and sects do. Such an idea can become impractical because one cannot live ordinary worldly life while constantly remaining established in the pure Self. Instead, it says atmavat—whatever self-status you actually have is similar to everything. This makes the teaching practical, workable, and effective in ordinary worldly life. Interestingly, the same core message is carried by both of my nondual philosophies as their very foundation—not deliberately or intellectually, but through experiential understanding alone.

The beauty is that ātmavat does not necessarily point to an abstract, pure Ātma that no one can ordinarily observe; with paśyati, it can point to the self as actually experienced—whatever self-status one inhabits. Thus, instead of merely saying “the Ātma is in all,” it offers a practical principle: see others as you see yourself, making nonduality workable in ordinary life.

Had the intended meaning been the pure Ātma itself, the expression could have used ātmanam in an appropriate grammatical construction; the use of ātmavat instead emphasizes “like oneself” or “as oneself.”

On final analysis, the single reason for the principle’s practical ineffectiveness appears to be that people first try to experience the pure Self and then meditate on making that Self similar to everything. But the principle seems to work in the opposite direction: the pure Self cannot be approached experientially without first meditating on the similarity between oneself and everything outside. That “oneself” is not the yet-unexperienced pure Self, but the experiential self-status—the gross self containing all the thoughts, actions, emotions, sensory feelings, and other experiences present at a particular time. If one has already attained the pure Self, why would one need to meditate on making it similar to everything, when nothing other than the pure Self is then experienced? Thus, ātmavat points more naturally to this experiential self-status rather than the pure Self, making the principle practical and workable in ordinary life.

The Core of Quantum Darshan

Seen in this way, the Sanskrit verse becomes a remarkably concise starting point for the whole inquiry. “Atmavat sarvabhuteshu” begins with the perception that the self seen within oneself is not fundamentally absent from other beings. From there, the question naturally expands: if consciousness is experienced as the subject here, what exactly makes it fundamentally different there? Individual bodies, memories, personalities, nervous systems and life histories clearly differ, yet the bare fact of awareness presents a deeper philosophical puzzle. My Quantum Darshan or earlier sharirvigyan darshan grows spontaneously from this tension between apparent multiplicity and possible underlying unity. It does not claim to have converted spirituality into physics. It attempts something more modest and, to me, more meaningful: to place direct meditation experience, ancient symbolic wisdom, non-duality and contemporary scientific thinking into one field of inquiry without forcing any of them to become something they are not. The Sanskrit sages expressed the insight in the language of the self and all beings; my own experiences have led me to approach the same mystery through looking at similarity between scince and spirituality.

Why Puranic Stories Have Endless Layers of Spiritual Meaning

The Many Layers of a Puranic Story

Puranic stories are amazing psychology because they can benefit almost every kind of reader, even when different readers understand completely different things from the same story. I have been thinking particularly about the stories of Ganga and how they seem to work at many levels at once. A child may simply enjoy them as wonderful fictional stories filled with extraordinary events, characters, imagination and adventure. There is no need for the child to understand philosophy or yoga for the story to give joy. As the same person grows older, however, the story can begin to provide moral, social, cultural, devotional and spiritual meaning. The remarkable thing is that discovering a deeper meaning does not make the earlier meaning useless. The story can continue to operate at several levels simultaneously. Thus in a way these stories are wonderful spiritual sanskar builders since the childhood so that yoga doesn’t look strange in later life but well known since quite earlier. Ganga story is just one example among plethora of such awe inspiring stories.

Ganga as Nature Worship and Spiritual Practice

The first important layer I see is the nature-worshipping layer. A person who does not understand yoga or symbolism may simply regard the physical Ganga as sacred. He worships the river, respects it, visits it and develops reverence toward nature. In this sense, he may unknowingly participate in something close to a nondual spiritual attitude: nature is not treated merely as an object outside oneself but as something worthy of sacred recognition. He does not need to intellectually understand nonduality or quantum philosophy for this attitude to influence him. By regarding the natural world as sacred, he is indirectly prepared for a more spiritual relationship with existence.

This is especially interesting because the Puranic tradition repeatedly gives sacred significance to rivers, mountains, forests, animals and other aspects of nature. The ordinary person therefore receives a spiritual orientation through something immediately accessible. Spirituality does not have to begin with an abstract philosophical concept. It can begin with a river.

The Same Ganga as a Yogic Symbol

At another level, the same Ganga story can be approached by a yogi. The river can be understood symbolically as an inner current, and its descent, flow and relationship with Shiva can be contemplated as representations of an inner spiritual process. In my own way of looking at Kundalini and yoga, such imagery can be related to the movement of consciousness and the Sushumna. The physical river remains a real river, but it can simultaneously become an inner map. Although inside is same as outside like microcosm inside macrocosm. So Ganga as sushumna also give similar nonduality effect when revered. Additionally it gives direct yoga benefit too. Together, Nonduality and yoga lives together in cause and effect relationship.

This makes me wonder whether nature worship and yogic symbolism are not accidental additions but two especially important layers of Puranic storytelling. Both belong to major spiritual domains, and the Puranas are known primarily for dealing with religious and spiritual subjects, although they also cover cosmology, mythology, ethics, ritual, sacred geography, devotion and social life. The possibility therefore arises that the stories were designed to communicate spirituality through forms that could be understood at very different levels. I would not claim that every particular yogic correspondence was consciously encoded by an original storyteller without textual evidence, but the structure certainly allows such a reading.

The Social and Behavioral Education Hidden in the Story

The same narrative can also work at a social and behavioral level. A woman reading a revered female figure may find respect for womanhood and may receive an example of qualities considered admirable, such as courage, dignity, devotion, responsibility, compassion or strength. A man may receive another kind of lesson. Seeing a feminine figure treated with reverence can encourage him to understand that externally visible physical strength does not determine human worth. A woman’s lesser average physical strength cannot become a justification for domination, humiliation or mistreatment.

The story therefore does not have to be understood as a yogic text to influence conduct. Someone interested only in ordinary human behavior can still receive ethical education from it. The important point is not that every person must literally imitate every action of a mythological character, but that the narrative can provide models from which people draw principles appropriate to their lives.

From Childhood Imagination to Yoga

This suggests a gradual ladder of reception. A child enters through imagination and fictional joy. An ordinary adult may receive moral and cultural instruction. A person concerned with social behavior may learn respect, duty and appropriate conduct. A devotee may develop reverence for the sacred. A nature-oriented person may learn to see the natural world as worthy of respect. A spiritual seeker may discover symbolic and psychological meanings. A yogi may recognize an inner map involving consciousness, prana, chakras or Sushumna. A deeper contemplative may eventually use the same imagery in nondual contemplation. Although all these steps of ladder complement each other beautifully.

One possible limitation, especially in the modern context, is that a person may become too fascinated by the miracles, supernatural events and extraordinary fictional world of Puranic stories. Instead of using the stories as symbolic, devotional or ethical pathways, some readers may begin to take every extraordinary element literally. In a modern life that depends heavily on practical reasoning, scientific understanding and evidence-based thinking, this could sometimes create tension with a person’s ordinary intellectual and practical outlook. This does not mean that Puranic stories necessarily produce such an effect, nor that everyone is affected by them. For many people, the imaginative and miraculous elements may remain simply part of the storytelling tradition while the deeper values are retained. The concern is that, for some readers, excessive attachment to the supernatural surface may overshadow the symbolic and practical dimensions of the stories, at least to some degree. In earlier traditional societies, where religious, mythological and everyday life were much more closely integrated, the same tension may not have appeared in the same form. Modern readers, however, live simultaneously in a scientific, technological and highly practical world, so maintaining a distinction between symbolic mythology and empirical fact can sometimes be important. The challenge, therefore, is not necessarily to reject the miraculous dimension of Puranic storytelling, but to allow imagination and spirituality to coexist with scientific reasoning and practical life.

These layers need not replace one another. A child who once enjoyed the story can later discover its moral meaning, then its devotional meaning, and perhaps much later its yogic significance. The story grows with the reader.

Why the Layers May Be Practically Endless

I think the layers can go almost endlessly. This does not necessarily mean that every possible interpretation was deliberately placed inside the story by its original composer. Rather, a rich symbolic narrative can interact with different ages, personalities, life situations and levels of understanding, producing new meaningful readings. Its depth is therefore not exhausted when one hidden meaning is discovered.

Perhaps this is one of the great strengths of Puranic storytelling. The story does not demand that everyone understand spirituality in the same language. The child receives wonder; the ordinary person receives values; the devotee receives sacredness; the nature-lover receives reverence for the world; the socially oriented person receives behavioral lessons; and the yogi can discover an inner spiritual map. The same narrative can entertain, educate, shape behavior, cultivate devotion and prepare consciousness for yoga.

The Outer River and the Inner River

The Ganga example brings the whole idea together for me. The outer Ganga can remain an actual physical river and at the same time become sacred nature, an object of devotion, a cultural symbol and an inner yogic metaphor. The ordinary worshipper does not need to know the yogic interpretation for the practice to have value. The yogi does not need to reject the physical river after discovering the inner meaning.

Perhaps this is the deeper genius of Puranic storytelling: it gives spirituality an outer form that almost anyone can approach while leaving room for an inner meaning that can unfold progressively. Nature can be sacred outside, while the same sacred geography can become yoga within. What begins for one person as a child’s wonderful story can become for another a moral education, for another a way of relating to nature, for another a devotional practice, and finally for a yogi a doorway into the mystery of consciousness.

How Ancient Yogis and Celestial Vehicles Flew: The Mystery of Breathless Dhyana

Deep Dhyana as an Experience of Flight

Deep dhyana can sometimes feel surprisingly similar to flying high into the open sky. The experience is not simply one of sitting quietly with closed eyes. As meditation deepens, awareness can seem to move away from its ordinary ground of bodily sensation, familiar thoughts, and the gross world, creating a feeling of rising upward into an entirely different space. The comparison with an aeroplane came naturally to me because both experiences seem to involve a struggle between a downward pull and an upward movement. In an aeroplane, gravity continuously pulls the aircraft toward the earth, while lift generated by the wings counteracts that downward force and allows the plane to rise. In deep meditation, breathing can be experienced in a somewhat similar symbolic way: ordinary breathing seems to keep consciousness closely connected with the body, thoughts, sensations, and the surrounding physical world, almost like gravity keeping the aircraft grounded.

Breathlessness as Inner Lift

As dhyana becomes deeper and the breath becomes extremely subtle or appears to halt, that ordinary anchoring seems to weaken. Breathlessness then feels less like a mere absence of breathing and more like the generation of an inner lift. Just as lift allows an aeroplane to overcome gravity and rise, the cessation or profound stilling of breath can feel as though consciousness is no longer being held down by its usual connection with bodily and worldly awareness. The experience can become like entering deep space, where the familiar gross world is no longer prominent and even the ordinary stream of thoughts related to that world can disappear. This should be understood as an experiential analogy rather than a claim that breath literally produces a physical force that lifts consciousness. What matters is the striking similarity in how the transition is actually felt.

The Tug of War Between Downward and Upward Pulls

At certain stages, a distinct tug of war can be sensed between these two tendencies. One pull seems to draw awareness downward toward the body, breathing, thoughts, and ordinary identity, while another seems to draw it upward toward stillness, expansion, and deeper absorption. This gives the meditation a dynamic quality even when the body itself is almost motionless. The contrast can be especially clear when the mind has become quiet but some subtle bodily anchoring remains. The deeper movement then seems to involve gradually loosening that anchoring until awareness can remain in a state that feels much less connected with ordinary physical and mental experience.

The Hum of the Engine and the Sound of Prana

Another part of the analogy comes from sound. An aeroplane has a continuous engine sound during flight, together with a subtle vibration running through the aircraft. During deep dhyana, an internal hum or continuous subtle sound may similarly be noticed. In yogic language, such inner sound may be described in terms of prana-nada or anahata nada. Along with the sound, a fine internal vibration can sometimes be felt. The comparison is not that the two sounds are physically identical, but that both experiences can provide a continuous background sensation accompanying movement or sustained stability. The aircraft seems to fly within its engine’s hum and vibration; meditation can seem to deepen within a comparable field of inner sound and subtle vibration.

Emerging from Dhyana Feels Like Landing

The analogy becomes even more meaningful when meditation ends. A plane descending from great altitude does not usually return to the ground in a single instant. Its descent is gradual, followed by approach and landing. Deep dhyana can feel similar. Coming out of profound absorption may happen slowly, with awareness returning first to a subtle sense of individuality or bodily presence, then to more recognizable sensations and thoughts, and finally to the ordinary environment. The gradual character of this return is one reason the experience can feel like a real journey rather than simply a temporary closing of the eyes. One seems to descend from a subtler inner space back into the familiar ground of everyday consciousness.

Why Ancient Yogic Imagery of Flight Is Interesting

This experience also gives a new way of looking at ancient yogic imagery. Yogis are sometimes depicted as flying, rising, or moving through the sky, while traditional scriptures contain descriptions of aerial vehicles and extraordinary forms of movement through space. Such imagery can be approached in more than one way. It may have been intended literally, symbolically, or through a mixture of historical belief and spiritual metaphor. There is no need to decide that question merely from the meditation experience. Yet the experiential parallel is interesting: when consciousness seems to rise beyond its normal bodily and mental ground, the language of flight becomes a natural image for describing it. What was once expressed through the image of ascending into the sky may also be understood as an attempt to describe a profound inward movement that ordinary language finds difficult to capture.

It is difficult for ordinary people to imagine consciousness existing independently of the body, let alone consciousness itself flying freely through space. This may be one reason why celestial vehicles were described in the form of flying rathas or chariots. In the scriptures, the ratha is often used symbolically to represent the body: the horses represent the senses that draw it, the charioteer represents the intellect that guides it, and the traveller seated in the ratha represents the soul or consciousness inhabiting the body. Since consciousness is normally perceived by the world only through its association with the body, the idea of consciousness flying beyond the body could naturally be represented as a flying ratha, with consciousness imagined as a celestial being travelling upon it. In this sense, the celestial vehicle may be understood as a symbolic image of the journey of consciousness beyond its ordinary bodily ground.

From Grounded Awareness to Inner Space

The central insight of this whole experience is therefore not simply that breathlessness feels unusual. It is that breathing, stillness, bodily anchoring, thought, inner sound, vibration, ascent, and return can appear as parts of one continuous process. Ordinary breathing seems to belong to grounded embodied awareness; deepening stillness feels like the generation of lift; the silent or nearly breathless state resembles entering inner space; the conflict between grounding and ascent is felt as a tug of war; the inner hum and vibration accompany the journey; and emergence from dhyana resembles a gradual landing. Whether one interprets this entirely psychologically, physiologically, spiritually, or through a combination of these perspectives, the analogy provides a simple way to describe something difficult to explain directly: deep meditation can feel not like remaining in one place, but like leaving the ordinary ground of consciousness and gradually returning from a vast inner sky.

The Mystery of Spontaneous Dhyana: How Padmasana, Kundalini and Effortless Meditation Led Toward Deep Samadhi

A New Experiential Development in Breathless Dhyana

A new development in my meditation has helped me distinguish more clearly between dhyana that is supported by a particular bodily condition and dhyana that seems to arise and continue by itself. Very early one morning, after doing only a little yogasana practice, I entered a deep, breathless dhyana that lasted about an hour. It was accompanied by the familiar pressure in the head. Because I have observed this relationship many times, I already had the feeling that this state was tied to the pressure and therefore had a definite duration. I expected it to disappear when the pressure gradually returned to normal, and that is exactly what happened. Yet I remained awake despite sleepiness and did not go back to sleep. I then started doing some other left-over asanas, and soon an urge to meditate appeared again. I sat in Padmasana and simply watched the breath. Dhyana soon developed on its own, but this time something was distinctly different: there was no head pressure, no deliberate attempt to produce a special sensation, and the whole process felt spontaneous, relaxed and natural. It seemed as if the meditation could continue by itself rather than depending on a temporary physiological condition.

The Difference Between Pressure-Supported and Effortless Dhyana

This second state became especially interesting because it initially appeared almost self-sustaining. In the earlier meditation, the head pressure seemed to provide a kind of measurable support and I knew that the state was likely to end when that pressure declined. In the new experience there was no such limitation. The mind was not struggling to maintain concentration, the breathing was naturally becoming subtle, and there was an absence of deliberate effort. It therefore felt as though the dhyana might have continued indefinitely if the body itself had not intervened. This seemed to reveal something important: the head pressure may sometimes accompany or support the entry into a particular state without actually being the fundamental cause of dhyana. Dhyana may also arise independently when the mind becomes sufficiently quiet.

When the Body Became the Limitation

The limiting factor this time was not the mind but Padmasana. After about twenty to thirty minutes, the right knee began to ache. I tolerated it for some time because I expected that eventually the hip might rotate sufficiently and take over the mechanical stress from the knee, but that adjustment did not occur. Many times it happen with a feeling. The posture could not be maintained comfortably beyond that point, so I finally changed out of Padmasana and came into a normal squat. An important event followed immediately afterward. The dhyana itself was still present, but the head pressure began to build again. This made the sequence particularly revealing for me. While sitting in Padmasana, the meditation had remained spontaneous and free of pressure. After changing the posture, although meditation continued, the original effortless quality seemed to have changed. It felt as though the spontaneous dhyana had been replaced by a very subtle effort on my part, almost unnoticed, to maintain the state. That subtle effort seemed to create bodily and mental stress, and the head pressure began returning.

Why Padmasana Suddenly Appeared So Important

This experience made me understand more strongly why mastery of asana may matter before deep meditation. Had I been able to remain comfortably in Padmasana, I feel that the spontaneous dhyana could have continued much longer and might have developed into a much deeper samadhi-like state. This gave me a practical appreciation of the traditional progression in Patanjali Yoga. Asana is not merely an exercise to prepare the body; the deeper purpose is to reach a condition in which the body becomes sufficiently steady and comfortable that it no longer demands attention. Patanjali describes asana in terms of steadiness and ease, followed by the relaxation of effort and absorption in the infinite. My experience seemed to illustrate this principle in a practical way: when the posture was stable enough, effort disappeared and meditation became spontaneous; when the posture failed, subtle effort returned and the bodily pressure returned with it.

Padmasana Alone Does Not Guarantee Dhyana

At the same time, this experience also clarified something that can otherwise be misunderstood. I have seen people who can remain in Padmasana for a very long time, apparently almost indefinitely, yet they have not necessarily developed dhyana. Therefore, the ability to sit in Padmasana cannot by itself be equated with meditative attainment. Postural stability may create favorable conditions for dhyana, but it does not automatically produce it. The mind still has to become inward, collected and sufficiently free from ordinary mental movement. In my case the important combination was not simply Padmasana, but Padmasana plus spontaneous inward absorption with minimal effort.

What the Knee Problem May Really Indicate

The knee problem also deserves a practical interpretation. I had wondered whether the pain might indicate insufficient surrounding musculature, perhaps even related to inadequate protein intake, because I notice that when I exercise heavily, especially through activities that strongly involve the knees such as uphill cycling, the knee pain tends to disappear. That makes it seem more like a physical or mechanical problem than a purely meditative obstacle. However, the exact cause cannot be established from this experience alone, and protein deficiency is only one possibility rather than a demonstrated explanation. Padmasana depends greatly on hip rotation, and when the hip does not provide sufficient movement, stress can be transferred toward the knee. Therefore, continuing to tolerate knee pain in the hope that the hip will eventually take over may not be the best way to develop the posture. The real goal should be a posture that becomes stable and comfortable without forcing the knee.

Could Blood Flow Explain the Return of Head Pressure?

One possible explanation I considered was vascular. I wondered whether the vessels compressed during Padmasana might release their stored blood after the legs were unwound, producing a temporary increase of blood flow or venous congestion toward the brain and thereby causing the renewed head pressure. There is a physiological basis for considering posture-related changes in circulation because changes in body position can alter venous pooling, cerebral venous drainage and intracranial pressure. However, the simple idea that blood released from compressed leg vessels becomes “gorged” in the brain is probably too direct. The cardiovascular system constantly redistributes blood, and cerebral circulation is actively regulated. So a postural or hemodynamic contribution is possible, but this particular mechanism has not been established by my experience. Another possibility is that leaving Padmasana changed muscular stabilization, spinal positioning or breathing enough to reintroduce subtle effort, which could itself have contributed to the pressure.

The Most Important Finding: Vastness Without Effort

The most remarkable part of the experience was not actually the pressure. During the relaxed dhyana without head pressure, the sense of the void became more merged with me. There was greater bliss and a stronger feeling of vastness. Instead of simply observing a vast inner space, the distinction between myself and that vastness seemed weaker. This made the experience feel qualitatively different from meditation produced through effort. It suggested that when bodily and mental effort recede sufficiently, the experience of vastness may become more immediate and less object-like. I do not need to decide whether this is physiological, psychological, spiritual or metaphysical. The important point is that the phenomenology was clearly different, and that difference deserves careful observation.

A More Precise Understanding of the Experiment

This experience has therefore given me a useful three-stage distinction. First, there can be pressure-supported dhyana, in which a particular bodily process accompanies the meditative state and seems to limit its duration. Second, there can be effortless and spontaneous dhyana, arising without deliberate production of head pressure and appearing capable of sustaining itself. Third, bodily limitation can interrupt that effortless condition; when posture becomes uncomfortable, subtle effort returns, and the earlier pressure phenomenon may reappear even though meditation itself continues. This makes it increasingly reasonable for me to regard head pressure as a secondary phenomenon that may accompany certain methods or bodily conditions rather than as the essential basis of dhyana.

The Next Step in Understanding Spontaneous Meditation

The most useful future observation is therefore not to force Padmasana to last indefinitely, but to discover whether the same pressure-free spontaneous dhyana can arise in any posture that is genuinely stable and comfortable. That would help separate Padmasana itself from the deeper factor of bodily stillness and ease. If the same spontaneous meditation and sense of vastness arise in a pain-free posture, it would suggest that physical stability, rather than the lotus posture alone, is the important condition. At the same time, there is no need to deliberately force breathlessness or kumbhaka in order to reproduce the earlier state. Natural quieting of the breath is one thing; forcing respiratory cessation is another. The deeper lesson from this experience seems simpler: when the body becomes quiet without strain, and the mind no longer has to manufacture meditation, dhyana may begin to sustain itself. For me, this is becoming a more precise experimental understanding of why the preparation of the body through asana can matter so much for the deeper stages of meditation.

Another Test: Nirvikalp Dhyana in a Simple Squat

I repeated the experiment after doing some specific asanas, and again the potential for dhyana arose strongly. This time I did not use Padmasana but sat in a simple squat for meditation. Soon a deeper, almost nirvikalp-like dhyana developed that seemed to stand between the two earlier experiences. It was neither strongly accompanied by head pressure nor completely free of it. For a few minutes it appeared almost fully independent, arising spontaneously without deliberate effort. Then a little pressure began to develop. To sustain the dhyana for about one and a half hours, I eventually had to use a deliberate tactic of holding the breath, although it did not feel like suffocation. Instead of concentrating on breathing, I focused on what I experienced as the suffocating chakra. The result felt similar to breathing: it seemed to supply kundalini energy to the chakra without requiring ordinary respiration. In this way the pressure gradually accumulated, and by the end of the meditation, when the dhyana opened or released itself, the pressure had become considerable. The state then broke on its own, followed by about ten minutes of spontaneous kapalbhati pranayama to lower the pressure. This experiment again made me wonder whether Padmasana has a special importance. The simple squat could support a very deep and partly autonomous dhyana, but maintaining it for a long period appeared to require additional effort and pressure, whereas the earlier Padmasana experience had produced a more completely effortless and pressure-free state. I therefore increasingly suspect that the distinctive value of Padmasana may lie not merely in sitting steadily, but in its ability to allow the body to remain sufficiently balanced and quiet that deep meditation can continue with much less deliberate intervention.

Kundalini Yoga, Muladhara and the Natural Path from Sexual Energy to Spiritual Awakening

Muladhara, Reproductive Energy and the Purpose of Nature

I have been looking at Kundalini not simply as a mystical idea, but as a natural process of consciousness, and this has led me to a different understanding of why Kundalini Shakti is traditionally associated with Muladhara and described in the form of a powerful Goddess. It is not that every function of the body becomes enhanced when energy rises from Muladhara. Rather, brain is energised to produce a type of addictive bliss and awareness that propels one to raise the muladhara energy up through the spine. And the easiest and most effective way to do it practically is the reproduction itself. Thus the nature has already placed an exceptionally powerful mechanism at the foundation of embodied life: the reproductive impulse. Attraction, sexual desire, pleasure, bonding and reproduction are powerful enough to draw attention almost completely toward another person and toward the continuation of life. In biological terms, this serves procreation and the continuation of the species. But perhaps the same intensity can also become relevant to spiritual awakening when it is consciously witnessed rather than merely followed.

Sexual Attraction as a Powerful Activation of Muladhara

This makes the traditional image of the Goddess in Muladhara interesting to me. It’s called muladhara-vasini means one residing at muladhara. “residing” and “activating” are not two separate ideas in this interpretation. If the Goddess is said to reside in Muladhara, her presence itself signifies that Muladhara is alive, activated, and functioning through her Shakti. It is directly stated in the scriptures that the Goddess resides in Muladhara. I think this can also be understood to mean that the Goddess activates Muladhara. In this sense, the two ideas are essentially the same: when someone truly resides in a house, the house becomes inhabited, active, polished , washed and groomed through their presence. Likewise, the Goddess residing in Muladhara can signify the activation of the power lying dormant there. The Goddess is represented in feminine form, and there is an obvious experiential dimension to the way the feminine can activate the reproductive centre of the male. I do not see this as two completely different mechanisms, one sexual and another yogic. The underlying principle is the same. The direct attraction between man and woman can activate a deeply rooted life-force, while Kundalini Yoga may approach that same force through meditation, visualization, pranayama, mantra, devotion and other more conceptual or religious means. Tantra, in comparison, can approach the same principle more directly and in a comparatively raw form. The difference, therefore, may be in the method of activation and direction rather than in the fundamental energy itself.

However, in female it may be god residing in muladhara. So it’s not like the shakti is male or female look. It can have any look but mainly it’s given female look as mostly males used to do kundalini yoga like babas,yogis etc. Second reason is attraction. As female produce more attraction through her clean appearance and voice and many other qualities so kundalini have been given feminine form.

Nature’s Bait and the Moment of Thoughtless Bliss

This also gives a different meaning to the idea that nature has provided sexual pleasure as a kind of bait. The immediate purpose of the mechanism is reproduction, but the intensity accompanying it can produce an unusual alteration of attention. Particularly around sexual release, there can be a brief interval in which ordinary thought becomes extremely quiet or disappears for a moment. It can feel deeply relaxing and blissful, with awareness seemingly coming closer to the Self. I would describe this more cautiously as a momentary thoughtless state or a fleeting glimpse of inner stillness rather than automatically calling it Nirvikalpa Samadhi. Nevertheless, the resemblance is philosophically interesting: an ordinary biological process can provide a very brief experience of a mind temporarily free from its usual stream of thoughts and mental activity. The same force can also give rise to Savikalpa Samadhi and sudden awakening.

From Thoughtlessness to Witnessing and Purification

The important point is not that sexual release itself is liberation. Rather, the experience may reveal something about the possibility of stillness. If that brief thoughtless state is consciously recognized, it can become a basis for witnessing. But without knowing oneself, even momentarily, as the pure awareness devoid of thought-forms, how can witnessing truly begin? When a person has become completely identified with thoughts, he does not recognize himself as the witness; he has, in a sense, become the thoughts themselves. The witness can appear only when there is a glimpse of that silent Self which is other than the changing thought-forms. The moment of stillness accompanying sexual release can therefore become significant: in that brief silence, the ordinarily hidden Self may reveal itself as that “other,” the silent awareness from which thoughts can subsequently be witnessed rather than merely lived as oneself. One begins to notice desire, attraction, bodily sensation, thought, pleasure, and release rather than being completely absorbed in them. This witnessing can produce greater mental purification, and with greater purification there can be greater clarity and bliss. Thus, the same powerful impulse that initially pulls consciousness outward can become a doorway through which consciousness learns to turn inward. What nature uses to encourage reproduction may, under conscious observation, become material for spiritual transformation.

The energy stirred up from Muladhara through sexual attraction can also act as powerful fuel for bringing more and more hidden thoughts out of the caves of the subconscious. In this way, it can serve two purposes together: it can provide a glimpse of the silent Self while simultaneously bringing hidden mental patterns to the surface for witnessing and purification. Both functions can be further enhanced through yogic practices, since one cannot depend continually on the energy-draining sexual act for spiritual growth. It can instead be understood as an occasional boost, while yogic practices provide a more sustainable way to cultivate and direct the same force toward spiritual development. However, the individual preference may vary and may depend on one’s stamina, capability, health, work load and time available to him.

Why the Goddess Is Called Powerful

From this perspective, the traditional power attributed to the Goddess becomes easier to understand without reducing the Goddess to merely a religious symbol. The Goddess can represent the fundamental Shakti of embodied life itself, rooted in Muladhara and expressed through survival, reproduction, attraction and the continuity of life. Saying that the Goddess is in Muladhara can therefore be understood as saying that this powerful latent life-force is rooted at the foundation of embodied existence. When that force becomes activated and harmonized, spiritual progress may become possible because the practitioner is working with one of the deepest and strongest movements of human nature rather than with a weak or artificial stimulus.

The expression that the Goddess becomes “happy” can also be understood symbolically. It need not mean merely pleasing a supernatural figure. It can mean that the fundamental Shakti is awakened, activated and brought into conscious alignment instead of remaining confined to unconscious instinctive expression. In that sense, “the Goddess activates Muladhara” becomes a meaningful interpretation of the traditional imagery: the latent power at the root of embodied life becomes active and available for transformation.

Kundalini Yoga as Redirection Rather Than Rejection

This leads to what may be one of the most interesting ways of understanding Kundalini Yoga. It can be seen as a clever natural strategy in which the powerful mechanism associated with procreation is not simply suppressed but redirected toward faster awakening and ultimately liberation. Nature ordinarily directs reproductive energy toward attraction, pleasure and procreation so that life can continue and the world can grow. Yoga investigates whether the same powerful life-force can instead be consciously redirected toward witnessing, purification, stillness and expanded awareness.

Kundalini Yoga may therefore use conceptual, symbolic and religious methods to approach a process that Tantra sometimes approaches more directly through the raw force of sexuality and relationship. There is no need to divide the two into completely unrelated phenomena. They may represent different ways of activating and directing the same underlying life principle. One begins with the natural force itself; the other deliberately trains consciousness to recognize, contain, transform and redirect it.

From Reproductive Impulse to Spiritual Awareness

Seen this way, the movement can be expressed very simply: natural attraction activates a powerful life impulse; the intensity of that impulse gathers attention; intense attention can temporarily quiet ordinary thought; that moment of thoughtlessness can reveal relaxing bliss and a sense of closeness to the Self; conscious witnessing can then transform an instinctive experience into an opportunity for mental purification; and continued purification can support deeper meditation and spiritual awakening. The biological and spiritual dimensions are therefore not necessarily enemies. They can be understood as different expressions or directions of one fundamental life-force.

This does not establish scientifically that Kundalini is a literal energy rising from Muladhara, nor does every sexual experience constitute Samadhi. These are experiential and philosophical interpretations. But they provide a way of looking at the ancient language of Shakti, Goddess, Muladhara, Tantra and Kundalini without separating them artificially from ordinary human life. The central insight is that the very force nature uses to pull consciousness toward procreation may also, when consciously witnessed and transformed, become a doorway through which consciousness discovers stillness, bliss, the witnessing state and eventually the possibility of liberation.

Lastly, the Goddess depicted with many hands, carrying weapons and killing demons, need not be understood as a literal fierce human-like figure. It can be understood as Shakti purifying hidden impurities and ultimately merging them into the Self. This is also how I understand the scriptural imagery in which demons are not necessarily “killed” in the ordinary sense suggested by the stories, but are absorbed or merged by the gods or goddesses into themselves. The apparent destruction of the demons can therefore represent the dissolution and transformation of the inner impurities they symbolize.

Upward Movement, Infinite Sky, Sushumna and Kundalini Awakening

This is an experiential inquiry into a striking observation from my own practice: the same signs that arise through yoga, pranayama and shirshasana—head pressure, an upward movement, freer sushumna flow, subtler breathing and deeper dhyana—can also arise through contemplation alone, by experiencing the Self as Ekarnava, the infinite sky-ocean. What makes this observation particularly interesting is that one route works through the body and breath, while the other works through consciousness and identification. The possibility that both may lead to the same underlying movement of energy is the central discovery explored in this post.

Upward Movement and Spiritual Awakening

Flying, rising, ascending, or moving upward is commonly associated with awakening, Samadhi, Self-realisation, enlightenment, and transcendence. Across spiritual traditions, upward movement often represents a movement beyond ordinary, earth-bound consciousness toward something higher, freer, wider, or divine. This does not mean that every experience of flying or rising proves enlightenment or Samadhi, but the symbolism is remarkably consistent. The direction itself seems to carry a deep spiritual meaning: from limitation toward expansion, from contraction toward freedom, and from ordinary identification toward transcendence.

The same pattern can be noticed in very different traditions. In the caduceus, the ascending serpents culminate in wings, which naturally invites an esoteric interpretation of rising consciousness, although historically the caduceus is associated with Hermes and cannot simply be declared to be a Kundalini symbol. The Emerald Tablet also speaks of ascending from earth to heaven and descending again, with the transforming movement associated with the wind. From a yogic perspective, this can be compared symbolically with prana, although that identification is a comparative interpretation rather than the original historical meaning of the text. Yogic traditions themselves contain much more direct imagery of Kundalini rising, prana moving upward, passage through the chakras and sushumna, and yogis flying or becoming capable of moving through the sky. These different images need not have a single historical origin to reveal a common symbolic pattern of vertical ascent and transcendence.

Why the Divine Is Called the One Above

This also makes expressions such as “Upar Wala,” the One Above, understandable as spiritual symbolism. If upwardness is repeatedly associated with heaven, higher consciousness, transcendence, awakening, and liberation, then “the One Above” can be seen as a simple expression of that ancient metaphor. “Above” need not mean a literal physical location. It can mean beyond ordinary consciousness, beyond ego, beyond limitation, or transcendent to the usual sense of self. At the same time, many mystical traditions ultimately say that the Divine is not merely above but also within. Thus the movement toward what seems higher may finally become a recognition of something that was never truly separate from the deepest Self.

My Experience of the Infinite Sky

My own experience has made this symbolism much more meaningful. I have noticed that when I contemplate the Self as infinite sky often with gaze at Agya chakra, instead of imagining myself as a small individual confined to a particular body and local identity, something changes in meditation. The mind seems less bound to this local identification. There is a feeling of becoming open, vast, and unbounded, as though the sense of self is no longer limited to one point in space. After this contemplation, the sushumna seems to flow more freely upward, accompanied by greater bliss, deeper dhyana, and a more effortless and subtle breath, sometimes approaching a naturally breathless condition. I also experience genuine pressure in the head, but it is not uncomfortable.

What interests me is that the upward movement does not feel like something I am forcing. It seems to become easier when the contraction of local identification is reduced. This suggests to me that the real obstruction may not simply be an energetic obstruction but the mind’s identification with a limited body-mind structure. When the mind is tightly identified with the local self, the flow through the sushumna seems less free. When identification becomes more spacious and unobstructed, the chakras also seem to become less obstructed and the energy flow becomes more natural.

Mind, Chakras, Prana and Sushumna

Within the yogic and tantric model, mind, attention, prana, chakras, and sushumna are closely connected rather than completely separate. My experience leads me to consider whether the state of the mind directly influences how the subtle system is experienced. Local identification seems to contract attention; that contraction may be experienced as restriction in subtle flow; when identification relaxes into an unbounded sense of being, the flow through the central channel seems to become clearer. In this sense, the mind may be directly connected with the chakras, not necessarily because the physical brain is mechanically opening or closing them, but because consciousness, attention, pranic movement, and subtle experience appear to interact within the yogic framework.

This is an interpretation of experience rather than a claim that a physically measurable tube inside the body is literally blocked. “Obstruction” may refer to psychological identification, habitual tendencies, energetic contraction, or a combination of these. What matters to me is the repeatable experiential relationship: greater inner openness seems to coincide with freer upward flow, greater bliss, subtler breathing, and deeper meditation.

Flying, Samadhi and Self-realisation

This also gives a more careful meaning to experiences of flying or upward movement in relation to Savikalpa Samadhi, Nirvikalpa Samadhi, Self-realisation, and enlightenment. Experiences of ascent, expansion, lightness, bliss, inner movement, or flying may accompany deep states of meditation and may be interpreted within a yogic framework as signs of transcendence. But the experience itself does not prove enlightenment, Self-realisation, or even Samadhi. In Savikalpa Samadhi, some subtle distinction between experiencer and experience may remain. In Nirvikalpa Samadhi, ordinary subject-object distinctions are described as falling away, making the language of “I am flying upward” less applicable.

Therefore, there is an important distinction between the experience and its interpretation. “I am flying upward” is an experience within consciousness. The deeper possibility is that even the separate experiencer becomes less distinct. That is much closer to the language traditionally associated with nondual realisation. The upward movement can therefore be understood as a recurring symbol or phenomenological motif of transcendence without making the simplistic equation that flying itself means enlightenment.

From Ascent to Boundlessness

The most interesting part of my experience is that the process does not finally feel like a small self travelling upward into a distant heaven. When I imagine the Self as infinite sky, the local sense of being confined to the body becomes weaker, and the upward movement seems to happen within that very boundlessness. In this way, the old images of wings, rising serpents, flying yogis, Kundalini ascending through the sushumna, heaven above, and the One Above can be understood as different expressions of a broad spiritual language of moving beyond limitation.

My experience does not establish that all these symbols historically mean the same thing, nor that every upward sensation represents enlightenment. But it does suggest a meaningful relationship between expansion of consciousness and the experience of upward flow. When local identification relaxes, the sushumna seems less obstructed, the chakras feel more open, bliss increases, breathing becomes naturally subtler, and dhyana deepens. For me, the important discovery is therefore not simply that “upward” is spiritual, but that when the mind becomes less locally identified and more like infinite sky, the whole inner movement seems to become freer.

A final practical distinction is important: naturally subtle or temporarily imperceptible breathing should not be deliberately forced or held. Likewise, painless head pressure should not automatically be taken as spiritual progress; if it becomes intense, persistent, or accompanied by significant physical or neurological symptoms, it should be treated as a bodily symptom rather than automatically given a spiritual explanation.

The Same Effect from Two Directions: Yoga and the Infinite Sky

A Puzzle About Sushumna, Head Pressure and Deep Dhyana

I think I have finally solved a puzzle that I had been observing in my practice for a long time. Practices such as yoga, pranayama, and even shirshasana can produce a certain pressure in the head, together with a sense of upward movement, freer sushumna flow, subtler breathing, and deeper, sometimes almost breathless, dhyana. What has become especially interesting to me is that a similar effect can arise without these physical practices. When I contemplate Ekarnava, the infinite sky-ocean, and experience the Self as vast and unbounded rather than locally confined to the body, a similar type of head pressure can arise, along with a feeling of upward movement, greater freedom in the sushumna, and deeper dhyana.
This makes me think that whether one holds the ear from one side or the other, the effect may ultimately be the same. In other words, the physical route and the contemplative route may be different means of producing a similar internal result. Yogic body manipulations, pranayama, and inverted postures may influence the system from the bodily side, while deep contemplation may influence it directly through consciousness and attention.

Rajyoga and the Direct Route

This also gives me a possible explanation for why Rajyogis can say that elaborate yogasanas and pranayama are not absolutely necessary for entering deep dhyana. If the essential process is not the physical manipulation itself but the gathering and upward movement of subtle energy, then it may be possible to reach the same state through contemplation alone. The Rajyogi may not need to manipulate the body extensively if the mind can itself become sufficiently concentrated, expanded, and detached from local identification to allow the upward movement through the sushumna.
This direct route may, however, be more difficult. The body can provide a kind of support or preparation, whereas contemplation requires the mind itself to become capable of producing the necessary inward concentration and expansion. Therefore, it seems to me that the two approaches need not be opposed. The physical practices can prepare and organize the system, while contemplation can take the process further without depending entirely on physical manipulation.

Energy Rather Than Pressure Is the Main Thing

This also changes how I understand the head pressure itself. The pressure may not be the actual goal or the essential phenomenon. It may simply be a symptom or indication accompanying the gathering or upward movement of energy. Yogic practices may bring this experience about through physical and respiratory means, while contemplation of the infinite sky-ocean may produce it through a direct change in consciousness and identification.

Therefore, I would not say that head pressure itself is the evidence of progress. The important thing is the underlying process that the pressure may accompany. If there is pressure without the corresponding sense of vitality, clarity, inwardness, or energetic movement, it may simply be a physical ailment and should not automatically be interpreted as spiritual activity. The pressure is secondary; what I call energy is primary in the yogic interpretation.

Energy Everywhere

From this perspective, the idea that energy is present everywhere also becomes important. If the same underlying life-energy can support the functioning of the digestive organs in the gut, it is reasonable within the yogic model to consider that it can also support the functioning of the brain and the processes involved in contemplation. Each organ has its own natural work, and the same underlying energy is involved in sustaining those functions. The difference is in the particular work being performed, not necessarily in the existence of completely separate energies.

This gives a broader meaning to the experience. The energy that supports digestion does not have to be considered fundamentally different from the energy involved in breathing, movement, concentration, or contemplation. It may be understood as one life-energy expressing itself through different organs and functions according to their natural or destined work.

Two Routes, One Inner Movement

My present understanding, therefore, is that yoga, pranayama, shirshasana, and other bodily practices can help gather or redirect the system toward the head and central axis, sometimes producing head pressure and supporting deeper dhyana. But contemplation of Ekarnava, the infinite sky-ocean, can apparently produce a similar movement without the same physical manipulation. By expanding the sense of Self beyond local identification, contemplation itself seems capable of drawing the attention and subtle energy upward, with the same accompanying pressure and deepening of meditation.

This may explain why different yogic paths can arrive at similar states through very different methods. One begins more from the body and breath and moves toward consciousness; another begins directly with consciousness and allows the body and energy to follow. The first may make the process easier for some practitioners, while the second may be more direct but more difficult. For me, the most natural conclusion is not to choose one and reject the other, but to combine them: use yogic practices to prepare and balance the system, and use contemplation to directly expand consciousness and deepen dhyana.

The real discovery for me is that the same inner phenomenon can apparently be approached from two directions. The body can influence the movement of energy toward the head, and consciousness can influence the same movement through contemplation. The head pressure may appear in both cases, but the pressure itself is only a symptom. What matters is the deeper movement of energy, the freeing of the sushumna, the loosening of local identification, and the resulting deepening of dhyana.

Within the yogic framework, this makes the distinction between Hathyoga physical practice and Rajyoga less absolute than it first appears. They may simply be different ways of working with the same underlying relationship between body, breath, mind, prana, energy, and consciousness.

Spiritual Awakening and Self-Realisation: Mental Chaos, Nondual Meditation and Worldly Life

When Inner Calm Suddenly Meets Mental Rush

I have often wondered whether spiritual awakening and self-realisation can ever be accompanied by suicidal thoughts or deep depression. My own understanding became clearer when I looked back at something I experienced during my university days. I had become extremely calm and contained, and I was able to dissolve mental chaos quite easily. The inward movement was becoming natural to me. I was accustomed to silence, observation and the gradual disappearance of disturbing mental movements. Yet, near the end of that period, something unexpected happened. A sudden rush of recognition arose. Profession and family, which appeared to be ordinary parts of life, suddenly seemed to be creating chaos and opposing one another at the same time. It was not simply one particular problem; the whole structure of ordinary life seemed to reveal its contradictions together.
There were actually no clear-cut self-inflicting at that time. Rather, I had become somewhat reluctant about worldly growth. Perhaps this was partly an effect of my nondual philosophy and the way I was working with it. Desires were still there, but they were no longer experienced as cravings. Yet, as I could see in practical life, ordinary desires can be difficult to fulfil unless they become strong cravings in today’s materialistic world. People driven by intense cravings can easily move ahead of those whose desires remain moderate and intellectually restrained. From the outside, therefore, my condition could sometimes look like depression or a lack of ambition. From within, however, it did not necessarily feel like depression. I could feel that, in my own understanding, all was well.
There were also occasions when I realised how easily such a state could be misunderstood by others. Even a casual or playful remark about self-infliction, made perhaps as a kind of warning or expression of frustration, could backfire because people might understand it in a completely different sense from what was intended. That taught me an important practical lesson: never speak casually in such language, because others may attach a meaning to it that is entirely different from one’s own inner meaning. It is also possible that such a condition might have helped me in another way, by bringing more care or attention from people around me. Much depends on the society and the people one lives among. Some societies or individuals may treat a person who appears withdrawn, unsuccessful or vulnerable even more harshly, while others may recognise the difficulty and extend a helping hand. The same outward condition can therefore produce very different consequences depending on how people respond to it.
The experience nevertheless showed me something important. Even a person who has developed considerable inner calm, and perhaps has reached a profound state of awakening or self-realisation, can become temporarily destabilised when an unusually large movement of recognition and mental activity suddenly arises. Inner calm does not automatically mean that one has already learned how to integrate every possible contradiction of ordinary life. That integration may require another kind of training: learning to carry inner freedom into the full complexity of family, profession, desire, responsibility and the material world. Once a person has genuinely experienced and learned to navigate such complexity, it may leave a lasting resilience—perhaps even lifelong—so that the person can remain much less vulnerable to similar disturbances later, even if he eventually steps away from a demanding or struggle-filled life.

In a nutshell, self-inflictive, depressed, frustrated or hopeless moods may arise from unresolved emotions. Awakening and spirituality can help greatly in recognising, processing and resolving these emotions, but they also have their limits. When unresolved emotions accumulate faster than one’s capacity to clear them, the mind can become increasingly burdened and depression may arise. These unresolved emotions leave imprints, or what may be experienced as a kind of darkness over the self, creating a feeling of inner heaviness and even suffocation. In this sense, spiritual practice can help clear the darkness, but when the emotional load becomes greater than the person’s present capacity to process it, even a spiritually inclined person may become temporarily overwhelmed.

I have also observed another tendency in worldly life: a person who carries less mental or emotional baggage may sometimes appear more capable of carrying additional burdens. Others may therefore unconsciously shift some of their own burden onto him, seeking relief for themselves and creating an apparent balance of burdens. But in this process of taking and giving, the extra burden may sometimes become concentrated on the person who was already relatively free. What appears to distribute the burden equally can therefore have the opposite effect, leaving the awakened or inwardly developed person with a load that becomes unexpectedly difficult to lift.

Awakening Does Not Mean That Mental Turbulence Will Never Return

This also changed the way I look at what is sometimes called spiritual purification. Daily cleaning of the mind does not necessarily mean that the mind will become progressively quiet without interruption. Sometimes suppressed thoughts, emotions, memories and contradictions may come into awareness together, often triggered by external conditions. After several calm days, a person may suddenly experience a great rush of thoughts and wonder why everything has become chaotic again. The contrast itself can produce exhaustion, hopelessness, anxiety or even depression-like feelings. But such a phase does not automatically mean that spiritual practice has failed. It can mean that the person has encountered more psychological material than he is presently able to process comfortably.

There is also an important difference between seeing thoughts and being overwhelmed by them. In a stable contemplative process, thoughts may arise without having the same authority over the person. During an overwhelming phase, however, thoughts can become repetitive, emotionally charged and convincing. In such a situation, trying to meditate harder or forcing the mind to become empty may not always help. A Sometimes the better direction is to reduce the intensity of inward practice, return to ordinary activity, maintain sleep and food, walk, remain connected with other people and allow the nervous system to settle. Spiritual practice should not becoms another form of struggle against the mind. For me, a nondual practice such as Sharirvigyan Darshan or Quantum Darshan, applied in practical life, may be one of the easiest and least stressful forms of meditation during such periods. Instead of demanding prolonged inward concentration or withdrawal from ordinary activity, it allows awareness to continue while one is living, working, dealing with family, fulfilling responsibilities and facing the ordinary chaos of life. In this way, meditation becomes less a separate exercise and more a natural way of living.

The Difference Between Spiritual Crisis and Self-Realisation

I do not think suicidal thinking should be regarded as a necessary stage of awakening. A profound spiritual experience can coincide with suicidal thoughts, but that does not make those thoughts a higher spiritual attainment. A person may be undergoing what is sometimes described as a spiritual emergency, where identity, meaning and perception change so rapidly that the psychological system becomes overwhelmed. At the same time, similar experiences can occur with depression, dissociation, mania, psychosis, sleep deprivation or other psychological conditions. Therefore, an extraordinary inner experience should not automatically be interpreted as purely spiritual.

For me, an important point is that realising that the ego is not the ultimate reality does not mean that the body or life should be neglected. Self-realisation is not about destroying ordinary life; it is about changing the way we identify with it. In fact, spirituality can make life more meaningful and stable by giving a person hope, connection and a deeper reason to live. But if spiritual struggle makes a person feel that life has lost all meaning, or that he cannot reconcile his inner experience with ordinary life, it can have the opposite effect. It is also practically clear that spiritual life cannot easily advance without some worldly support. The body needs food, shelter, health, rest and social security, while the mind also needs a reasonably stable environment. Spiritual practice therefore does not exist completely apart from worldly life. Some basic worldly support gives a person the foundation from which deeper spiritual work can continue.

Why an Inward Life Can Become Vulnerable to Sudden Chaos

Looking back, I think there is another important reason why such destabilisation can happen. A person who has become habitual of a very inward and calm life may become highly trained in dealing with mental movements that arise within that controlled environment, but may not be equally trained in living amid external chaos. He may know how to sit quietly, observe thoughts and dissolve inner disturbances, yet have comparatively little experience of simultaneously handling family demands, professional responsibility, friendly chaos, interpersonal conflict, uncertainty and other pressures of ordinary life.

Then, when an extraordinary amount of chaos suddenly arises, the person may be disturbed not because his inner practice was false, but because he had not yet developed enough experience of carrying that inner stability into difficult circumstances. Calmness in the absence of disturbance and stability in the presence of disturbance are related, but they are not exactly the same accomplishment.

Sharirvigyan Darshan as a Bridge Between Inner Life and Ordinary Life

This is where my experience with Sharirvigyan Darshan became important. Instead of trying to escape profession, family, body and ordinary responsibilities, I began living and working according to the principles of Sharirvigyan Darshan. For me, this worked wonderfully. It stabilised me and, surprisingly, did not slow spiritual progress. I felt that the pace of spiritual development became even faster than before, but I also realised that this way of living has its limits. As long as the body has enough energy, one can deploy that energy in both the worldly and spiritual realms together. With advancing age, however, a person naturally has to move more in one direction or the other. Therefore, the spiritual way may gradually become more suitable, although some worldly engagement is still necessary for life. Even then, whatever worldly activity remains can be combined with nondual contemplation, so that the two do not become completely separate.

I think the reason was that ordinary life itself became part of the training. Family, profession, relationships, bodily experiences, desires, responsibilities and social situations were no longer separate from spiritual work. They became the actual environment in which awareness had to function. Instead of learning only how to dissolve mental chaos in a quiet inward state, I was repeatedly exposed to the chaos of life and could use the same understanding to process it.

This creates a kind of training through repeated experience. A person first learns calmness in a quiet environment. Then he learns to retain that calmness while ordinary disturbances occur. With continued experience, he develops confidence that even when something extraordinary happens, mental chaos can arise without necessarily controlling or destroying him. The disturbance becomes familiar rather than frightening.

From Escaping Chaos to Learning How to Dissolve It

This, to me, is perhaps the deeper lesson. The goal is not to create a life in which chaos never appears. Such a life may provide calmness, but it does not necessarily prepare one for the unpredictable intensity of existence. The stronger stability comes when one can remain inwardly centred while life continues to move around him.

Sharirvigyan Darshan, as I experienced it, provided precisely this integration. Instead of separating spiritual life from worldly life, it allowed the two to operate together. I have seen many people leave the material realm in order to become more spiritual, but my approach was almost the opposite: I continued to engage with the material realm while carrying the spiritual realm along with it. I did not see family, profession and worldly responsibilities as obstacles that had to be abandoned. Rather, I tried to bring spiritual understanding into them.

I have seen, for example, a doctor leave his job to become a writer, filmmaker and director around a spiritual figure. My own path was different. I continued with my job while becoming a writer and even got awakening like a spiritual figure. I did not have to leave my professional life for spirituality instead it further grew with this unique nondual philosophy. To me, these things did not appear contradictory. I am not presenting this as an exaggeration or as an achievement to be compared with others; it is simply how I experienced what happened in my own life through this practical philosophy. It may also be that my profession did not carry the same level of responsibility as that of a doctor, whose decisions can sometimes directly affect whether a person lives or dies. Human life is more precious than animal life, and the emotional and moral weight of such responsibility can therefore be much greater. However, I feel that spirituality properly integrated into a physician’s profession should not itself do any harm. If anything, it can strengthen the value placed on human life and make the work more meaningful than when it is approached through purely worldly considerations. If difficulties still arise, they may be due to other factors working together rather than spirituality itself.

Of course, no philosophy or spiritual discipline can make a person completely incapable of being disturbed. Even a highly experienced practitioner can become overwhelmed by sufficiently extreme circumstances. The real achievement is different: disturbance becomes less frightening, less sticky and less capable of reorganising the whole personality around itself.

Thus my earlier experience and my later understanding fit together. I once learned to dissolve mental chaos mainly through inward calmness. Later, by living fully in ordinary life through Sharirvigyan Darshan, I learned something broader: one does not become truly stable by escaping chaos; one becomes stable by becoming experienced in remaining oneself while chaos moves through oneself. Later on, I again shifted from the struggle of active worldly life toward calmer meditation, but now with much better understanding and control. I had already experienced worldly life and its chaos closely, so the inward movement was no longer the same as before. It became a more informed and balanced return to calmness. This may be an important part of the two-way movement between mental purification and worldly engagement, where each strengthens the other and gradually leads toward genuine integration and self-realisation.

Quantum Verse and Nondual Living: Why Humanity Is Religion, Work Is Worship, Problems Are Teachers, and Household Life Is Sadhana

The Deeper Meaning of My Quantum Verse

In my Quantum Verse, I had written four simple thoughts: no religion is better than humanity, no worship is better than work, no problem is better than a teacher, and no hermit is better than householdship. Earlier, I saw these mainly as principles of life. Recently, through my own experience of working, learning and moving towards awakening and samadhi, I understood a deeper connection between all four. They are not really four unrelated statements. They can be understood as four practical expressions of a nondual way of living, especially when viewed through what I call Sharirvigyan Darshan and Quantum Darshan. Amazingly, I had made it as a spiritual fun for a magazine, but it turned a topmost lesson of my life later on.

No Religion Is Better Than Humanity

For me, humanity is greater than religion because humanity keeps spiritual knowledge connected with actual life. A belief, doctrine or religious practice can remain limited to thought or ritual, but humanity tests what we really understand by how we live and work with other beings. In that sense, humanity itself can become the most practical religion. It also has another important role: it prevents wrong working. When work is done without sensitivity to life and without a nondual understanding, knowledge can become mechanical, ego-driven or harmful. Humanity keeps the action grounded.

No Worship Is Better Than Work

The second statement became much clearer through my own experience. I did not discover that work is automatically worship. Work becomes worship only when it is done with a nondual mindset. Otherwise work can create bad habits, strengthen conditioning and make a person dependent on methods that may not suit the actual structure of the body and mind. This was important in my own journey. I did not stop learning from other people because I disliked teachers or believed that others had nothing to offer. Rather, I found that the people and methods available to me often did not work in the knowledgeable way that I considered necessary according to Sharirvigyan Darshan and Quantum Darshan. If I continued working through unsuitable methods, I could develop wrong habits through the very process of learning. So I felt it was better to learn and work largely by myself. It proved as a boon for me and I could grow as per my own will.

Self-Learning Does Not Mean Rejecting Teachers

My approach was not complete isolation. I took help whenever it was genuinely needed, but I kept it to the minimum necessary. The important point was that I did not want to become dependent on others. I wanted to understand the work directly and discover how it actually functioned through my own observation and experience. This distinction matters to me now: self-learning is not anti-teacher. It means refusing to make the teacher a substitute for one’s own seeing. A teacher can point, explain or correct, but the actual understanding still has to become one’s own.

No Problem Is Better Than a Teacher

This also changes the meaning of the third line. A problem can become a teacher when we do not merely ask someone else to remove it but investigate why it exists, what it is showing and what it requires us to understand. In that sense, the problem itself can expose weaknesses in our knowledge and working. It can teach us more directly than an external explanation because we have to encounter the principle in actual life. This is why I now see the statement not simply as praise of teachers, but as a reminder that learning can come through the very difficulty we are trying to solve.

Nature as the Greatest Teacher

This experience also led to another meaning that arose naturally for me. If nonduality is maintained, nature itself can become the best teacher. Nature does not teach through dependence. It shows processes directly through the body, mind, environment and the relationships between them. When one observes without separating oneself completely from what is being observed, learning becomes more direct. A teacher may explain a principle, but nature continuously demonstrates it. Therefore, the highest form of learning may not always be learning from a person; it may be learning to see what is already happening. Together, nature is nondual and it likes a nondual person, bhola or innocent like shiva.

No Hermit Is Better Than Householdship

The fourth line also becomes deeper in this framework. Household life is not necessarily opposed to spiritual development. It keeps knowledge in contact with work, relationships, responsibility and ordinary human situations. A hermit may reduce external distractions, but household life can test whether nondual understanding actually works in the middle of life. If a truth is valid only in isolation, its practical value remains limited. Householdship therefore becomes a kind of living laboratory where knowledge has to function through action rather than remain an idea.

My Experience of Work and Awakening

My own path gave these statements their present meaning. I began working in my own style because I did not want to acquire unsuitable habits from working methods that did not fit the understanding I had developed through Sharirvigyan Darshan and Quantum Darshan. I still accepted help when necessary, but kept dependence low. I continued this self-directed way of working, and according to my experience it worked: I experienced awakening and movement towards samadhi. That experience made me see that work can truly become worship, but only when the work is performed from nondual understanding. Without that foundation, simply working hard does not make work spiritual.

The Four Statements as One Principle

I now see the four lines as different expressions of one principle. Humanity gives the right relationship with life. Work gives the right relationship with action. Problems give the right relationship with learning. Householdship gives the right relationship with ordinary existence. But all four require the same foundation: nondual understanding. Without that foundation, religion can become dogma, work can become conditioning, teachers can become objects of dependence, and renunciation can become escape. With it, humanity becomes religion, work becomes worship, problems become teachers, nature becomes a source of direct learning, and household life itself can become a field of spiritual practice. This is the deeper meaning that my own experience has recently added to my Quantum Verse.

Hanuman as Monkey God: The Deeper Meaning of “Tumharo Bhajan Ram Ko Paave”

Hanuman as the Symbolic Union of Monkey and Human

The line of the Hanuman Chalisa, “Tumharo bhajan Ram ko paave,” has always appeared to me as one of its most amazing and insightful statements. Its simple meaning is that through devotion to Hanuman, one attains Ram. But when I look at Hanuman not only as a religious figure but also as a symbol, the line opens into a much deeper meaning. Hanuman is a monkey god, and I see this expression literally as a blend of the characteristics of the monkey and the human. Neither the monkey alone becomes this god nor the human alone. The combination becomes Hanuman.

The monkey side of Hanuman represents a peculiar set of characteristics. A monkey is highly active and does not seem comfortable remaining idle for long. Even when it has no obvious work, it may begin moving, climbing, shaking a branch, looking around, or changing its position. It lives high on trees and naturally moves through open space. Its food can be seen, symbolically, as simple and sattvic: fruits, leaves, sprouts and other natural things. It is also constantly moving its attention. It does not usually fix its gaze or mind on one thing for a long time. It looks here, there and everywhere, changes position, wanders from one place to another and does not remain psychologically fixed in one object. This gives an impression of great activity combined with detachment.

I am using these qualities as spiritual symbolism rather than making a scientific claim that monkeys literally have no rajas or tamas. The point is what these visible characteristics can represent when a human being consciously embodies them. A monkey appears light-bodied, mobile, active and relatively free from the heavy kind of attachment through which human beings become fixed in possessions, places and objects. It may quarrel at times, of course, but symbolically it suggests an existence based much more on movement and immediate action than on prolonged fixation.

When Monkey Characteristics Enter a Developed Human Mind

This becomes especially interesting when the same characteristics are embodied by a human being. Human consciousness has the further capacity for sustained meditation, self-observation, discrimination and inner transformation. My understanding is that constant activity, detachment and sattvic living free a large amount of mental energy that otherwise remains occupied in attachment, possession, unnecessary thought and psychological fixation. That energy becomes available for meditation.

Then something remarkable can happen: the meditation image can become continuously present in the mind. It is no longer necessary to make a great effort every time to bring it back. It begins to express itself and shine almost constantly. After awakening, that established meditation becomes the basis for resting in samadhi. In this sense, the mind that was once continuously moving can finally arrive at a state of perfect rest.

This is where I connect Hanuman with Ram. I understand Ram not merely as a historical person or external deity, but also as a state of being, a state of rest. The word itself can be associated with resting or delight, and the historical Rama can then be understood as the godly person who perfectly embodied that state. Thus the symbolism becomes very beautiful: Hanuman represents dynamic activity without attachment, while Rama represents perfect rest.

Why “Tumharo Bhajan Ram Ko Paave” Is So Deep

Seen in this way, “Tumharo bhajan Ram ko paave” means devotion to you makes get Rama, becomes much more than a simple devotional promise. Hanuman is not the final destination who keeps the devotee attached to himself. He is the bridge to Ram. The devotee begins with Hanuman, with his strength, activity, devotion, purity and freedom from attachment, and through that devotion consciousness gradually moves toward Ram, the state of inner rest.

Bhajan here also need not mean only singing devotional songs. It can mean remembrance, contemplation, love, surrender and living in the consciousness represented by Hanuman. The highest quality of the true guru is similar: he does not keep the disciple dependent upon himself; he leads the disciple beyond himself to the ultimate.

This makes the progression almost experiential: Hanuman, devotion, transformation of consciousness, and finally Ram. The servant becomes the doorway to the Master.

The Monkey Can Express the Outer Characteristics, but the Human Can Realize Their Inner Effect

There is also an important difference between an actual monkey and a human being who embodies monkey-like qualities. A monkey can naturally express movement, activity, non-fixation, simplicity and detachment through its behavior, but its brain does not have the same developed human capacity for abstract meditation and deliberate spiritual self-transformation. The monkey therefore expresses the outer characteristics, but little, if any, of their deeper inner effect.

A human being can take these same qualities and turn them inward. Activity combined with detachment can reduce psychological entanglement. Sattvic living can simplify the mind. Non-fixation can reduce possessiveness. All this can release mental energy for dhyana. When meditation becomes stable, the meditation image can become spontaneous, and that spontaneous dhyana can mature into awakening and samadhi.

This is why, for me, Hanuman is not merely a theory or philosophy. It resembles something I have directly experienced in life.

My Own Experience of Becoming Like Hanuman Through Association

These characteristics were strongly present in my Dadaguru. He was, in my experience, almost like Hanuman himself: extraordinarily active, detached, simple, meditative and inwardly free. I did not consciously decide to imitate him. I simply lived in his company and absorbed the atmosphere and way of living for years.

I found these same characteristics gradually appearing in myself. The result was awakening and dhyana. In this sense, the symbolism became a living experience. What I am describing is therefore not simply an intellectual theory about monkeys, humans and gods. It is my attempt to understand something that actually happened in my life.

Later, karma-yoga and the non-dual philosophy of Sharirvigyan Darshan became a kind of medium for amplifying tendencies that were already present in small form. The philosophy strengthened activity, detachment, non-duality, sattvikata and meditation, and these in turn strengthened spiritual development.

The Monkey as a Natural Symbol of Non-Duality and Detachment

Some very simple monkey behaviors also become meaningful in this symbolic reading. A monkey does not necessarily make the elaborate distinctions that human beings make. It can take both raw and ripe fruit as food without building a philosophy around the difference. It can use an ornament and then throw it away. The famous image of a monkey being given a golden necklace captures this beautifully: it may know how to wear an ornament and use things with its human-like hands and arms, yet it can soon drop the object as though it has no lasting interest in it.

That is why I find the monkey an unexpectedly powerful symbol of detachment and even non-duality. It can use the world without becoming permanently fixed in it. It can move constantly without needing to possess every place it visits. It can handle objects without making them the center of its identity.

When such qualities become conscious in a developed human being, however, they can do something the monkey cannot do by itself: they can produce sustained meditation, awakening and samadhi. Then the monkey-like activity reaches its opposite end in Rama-like rest.

For me, this is the deeper meaning hidden in “Tumharo bhajan Ram ko paave.” Hanuman is the embodiment of activity, purity, devotion and detachment; Ram is the state in which consciousness finally rests. The monkey gives the outer symbolism, the human gives it conscious direction, and the awakened state gives it its final meaning. In that sense, Hanuman truly becomes the bridge from restless movement to perfect rest, from worldly activity to dhyana, and from dhyana to Ram.

Hanuman Ansh: The Hidden Spiritual Symbolism Behind Neem Karoli Baba’s Miracles

Watching Hanuman Ansh Through a Spiritual Lens

Friends, I went today to the theatre to see the blockbuster movie Hanuman Ansh. The emotions in the movie are powerful, but what interested me even more was how many of the apparently miraculous events can also be understood as symbolic expressions of inner spiritual experiences. I do not feel that every event has to be forced into either a literal miracle or a fictional story. Some may have been experienced as extraordinary events, while at the same time carrying a deeper psychological and yogic meaning.

One scene that particularly affected me was the freedom fighter eating halwa-puri. On the surface it is only a simple meal, but emotionally it becomes almost an ultimate expression of hunger and satiety. Hunger is one of the most basic limitations of the body, and the satisfaction that comes from food can communicate relief, dignity and joy without requiring elaborate words. The simplicity of the scene is precisely what gives it such emotional strength.

Baba Standing in Cold Water and the Symbolism of Kundalini

Another scene showed Baba standing in water and remaining in samadhi for an extended period. My own feeling while watching it was that the cold water could symbolically represent a powerful stimulus to the body, with the resulting inward movement being portrayed through yogic language as energy rising from Muladhara through Sushumna. In the traditional Kundalini understanding, the awakening and upward movement of Shakti is associated with the transformation of consciousness and deeper states of meditation.

Of course, this should be understood as a yogic interpretation rather than as an established physiological explanation. Cold water produces strong bodily and autonomic responses, whereas science has not demonstrated that such responses are literally Kundalini moving through Sushumna. Still, as a symbolic reading of the scene, the connection is meaningful: the body is exposed to an intense experience while awareness appears to become increasingly inward and absorbed.

The Prison Lock as Liberation From Limited Identification

The events that appear miraculous in Baba’s life can similarly be understood as symbolic. When the prison lock opens by itself and Baba wanders outside, I see something more than simply a miraculous opening of a physical lock. The prison can represent the limited identification of consciousness with the body, personality and circumstances. The opening of the lock can therefore symbolize the breaking of that limitation.

Baba walking out of the prison becomes an image of consciousness moving beyond confinement into something much vaster. If this is connected with samadhi, the symbolism becomes even deeper: the body may remain in the world, but awareness is no longer experienced as confined to the ordinary boundaries of individual identity. The movement is from prison, to locked identity, to the opening of the lock, to freedom and finally to the vastness of existence.

The Serpents Around Baba and Awakened Kundalini Shakti

I also remembered the account in which a devotee saw Neem Karoli Baba covered with hooded snakes while he was in samadhi. To me, this too can be understood as a powerful representation of awakened Kundalini Shakti. The serpent is one of the oldest symbols associated with Kundalini in Indian yoga. Therefore, seeing serpents surrounding a yogi absorbed in samadhi can naturally be interpreted as the devotee perceiving the immense Shakti associated with his spiritual state.

We cannot know from such an account whether actual snakes were physically present, whether the devotee experienced a visionary perception, or whether the experience was influenced by familiar spiritual symbolism. But the symbolic meaning remains striking: serpent, Kundalini Shakti, awakening, ascent of consciousness and samadhi all come together in a single image.

The Train That Would Not Move and the Power of Guilt

Another event has an equally interesting psychological interpretation. Baba was pushed out of a train, but afterward the train would not start. This can be seen symbolically as the train of life itself stopping after an innocent person has been wronged. The person may have thought that he had simply removed an unwanted passenger, but suddenly the entire movement of the train comes to a halt.

It resembles the way guilt can stop the inner movement of a person. An innocent person is hurt, conscience becomes disturbed, guilt arises, and the normal momentum of life is interrupted until there is recognition and remorse. In this sense, what we reject or hurt outwardly can become an obstruction within ourselves. The story is therefore not merely about punishment; it can also represent the power of innocence, compassion and spiritual presence to interrupt the unconscious momentum of the ego.

Miracles, Telepathy and the Traditional Yogic View of Siddhis

There may also be other events in Baba’s life that appear telepathic or clairvoyant. I do not think we should automatically dismiss such accounts. In the traditional yogic framework, extraordinary perceptions and abilities, called siddhis, are described as possibilities arising from profound concentration and samadhi. Patanjali’s Yoga Sutras, particularly the Vibhuti Pada, discusses such capacities.

At the same time, not being disproved is not the same as being scientifically established. Modern science has not established telepathy, teleportation or clairvoyance as reliable supernatural abilities, and individual stories can have different explanations. So I would leave the question open rather than making an absolute claim. A spiritual account may be interpreted literally by a devotee, symbolically by a contemplative, psychologically by a modern reader, or perhaps, in some cases, as an extraordinary phenomenon that we do not yet understand.

The important point in yoga is also that siddhis are not themselves liberation. Even when such abilities arise, attachment to them can become another distraction from samadhi and realization. The purpose of spiritual practice remains freedom, not the acquisition of extraordinary powers.

The Child Who Wanted to Reach God

Perhaps the most touching part for me is the story of how Baba’s spiritual search was inspired in childhood. When people told him that his deceased mother had gone to God, he apparently took the statement with the directness of a child. If his mother had gone to God, then he too wanted to go there. This desire became strong enough that he eventually left home in search of yoga and the means of reaching that state.

There is something profound in this simplicity. He did not begin with complicated theories about chakras, Kundalini or enlightenment. He began with longing: if there is a place called God, I want to reach it. From that simple question came the search for yoga, renunciation, spiritual practice and eventually samadhi. It reminds me that the deepest spiritual journey may begin not with philosophy but with an intense longing to know what lies beyond ordinary existence. I still remember my childhood, when my family tried to console me after my elder sister was gone, telling me that she had gone to God. As a child, I accepted those words with a simple heart, imagining that she had only gone somewhere beyond my reach.

The Essence of Tantra in a Few Words

Another thing that struck me was the simplicity of the instruction given to the child Baba by his guru: to leave dhyana at the Ajna chakra and place it at the Muladhara chakra. The deeper implication is that this can establish strong dhyana at the Ajna chakra by itself, without continuously forcing attention there. To me, this is perhaps one of the most basic and complete essences of Tantra expressed in an extraordinarily few words. The teaching does not need a long philosophical explanation; a simple direction contains an entire method, which the practitioner can discover through practice. Teaching Tantra in such simple and little words is itself amazing.

The Psychology of the Bahelia Scene

One scene is particularly profound from a psychological and spiritual point of view. A Bahelia, meaning a bird-catcher or fowler, is shown catching birds and imprisoning them. When Baba asks him why he does this, the Bahelia gives a surprisingly philosophical answer. He says, in effect, that just as nature has imprisoned human beings and entangled them in troubles, he is simply doing the same to the birds. It also helps him earn bread and butter for his children.

This is remarkable because the Bahelia does not even believe in God. Yet, at some deeper level, he feels that something is trapping human beings and making them suffer. Since he sees himself as a victim of this mysterious force, he feels justified in reproducing the same pattern with the birds—imprisoning them because he himself feels imprisoned.

Baba then completely changes his perspective. Instead of allowing him to blame God or nature for his suffering, Baba points him toward his own actions. Baba asks him why he had beaten his wife when she was pregnant. The implication is profound: it is not God or nature that is arbitrarily entangling a person; one’s own actions can become the very cause of one’s bondage and suffering.

The Bahelia had been looking outward for the cause of his troubles. Baba makes him look inward. What he experienced as an external force imprisoning him could actually be the consequence of his own actions. Thus, the scene transforms the idea of “I am being imprisoned by nature” into “I may be bound by what I myself have done.”

The psychological transformation that follows is equally beautiful. When Baba reveals details of the Bahelia’s past that he could not ordinarily have known, his disbelief begins to break down. He develops faith in Baba and eventually becomes one of his principal devotees.

The scene therefore works on a very subtle psychological level. Baba does not simply tell the Bahelia to believe in God. He first breaks his habit of projecting the cause of his suffering onto the outside world and brings his attention back to his own life and actions. That inward turning becomes the beginning of his transformation.

The symbolism is especially powerful: the bird-catcher himself feels caught. He imprisons birds because he feels imprisoned by life. Baba shows him that the real trap may not be nature at all—it may be the bondage created by one’s own actions.Seeing the

The Symbolism of the Germinating Seeds

Another beautiful incident occurs when Baba’s wife becomes annoyed by his long periods away from home, absorbed in deep dhyana and samadhi, and by his apparent lack of attention to family life. She asks him what he actually gains from spending so much time in meditation and samadhi.

Baba does not answer her verbally. Instead, he extends his tongue, places a few grains of seeds on it, and, within moments, they germinate and grow into tiny seedlings or plants. His answer is symbolic rather than literal: this is what he gains through such intense spiritual practice—extraordinarily rapid spiritual development.

The symbolism is simple yet profound. Under ordinary conditions, a seed takes time to germinate, grow, and eventually become a plant. In the same way, an ordinary human life may involve a gradual process of inner development through experience, relationships, worldly responsibilities, and spiritual practice. But Baba’s life of exceptionally intense meditation and samadhi is portrayed as accelerating that process dramatically—as though a seed that normally takes a long time to become a plant could mature in moments.

Thus, without explaining anything in words, Baba gives his wife a visual answer: the time spent in deep meditation is not simply time taken away from life; for him, it is a means of accelerating the growth of consciousness.

Miracles as a Language of Inner Experience

After watching Hanuman Ansh, I therefore feel that the miraculous stories surrounding Baba can be approached on several levels at once. The chana-puri scene expresses the bodily movement from hunger to satiety; the cold water and samadhi can suggest the inward movement of energy; the opening prison can symbolize liberation from limited identification; the serpents can represent awakened Kundalini Shakti; the stopped train can represent conscience and guilt interrupting the momentum of life; and the accounts of telepathic or clairvoyant perception can be considered in the context of the traditional yogic descriptions of siddhis, while leaving their literal interpretation open.

For me, this makes the story more meaningful rather than less miraculous. What appears outwardly as a miracle may also be a language through which an inner spiritual event is being communicated. The physical story, the devotional interpretation, the symbolic meaning, the psychology of consciousness and the possibility of extraordinary yogic experience do not necessarily have to cancel one another. They can exist together, allowing us to watch the life of a yogi not merely as a collection of miraculous incidents, but as a possible symbolic map of the movement from bodily limitation toward freedom, expanded awareness and the divine.

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